#natural empath

[sad1stworld]

There are things to move slow with ,

And things to speed up.

Being on time for things is something that need to be sped up for people who are always late. That’s why you remind me of my mother and I can’t have that. I don’t want that. That’s why I’ve communicated, and you’ve agreed. You’re just here till I find the one again. Worst thing to ever say , but these are private thoughts I can’t say to anyone, cuz they’ll make me look bad.

You love me, I lowkey hate you. The reason you’re here is you admire me and hope you can change the way I feel by allowing me to do whatever I want. You know it’s inevitable that I was going to leave. But the pain of me leaving will come after you enjoyed your time in my company. It’s admirable. You know the length of good times you’ll milk out of this, will be much more enjoyable than being alone that length of time without me. I’ve built you up. You know my potential and you just wanna feed off it. I’m 23, you 22. You have so much time in the world to convince me that you’re the one I want. But you do a pretty good job of being a great woman. I’m sorry that you’re just not her.

It’s not your fault, yet I blame it on you.

Through time, reflections, and self discovery, I am aware of my clock. I am aware of the clocks that exist, that we fall victim to. The wrong person can come at the right time, and play “the fool” card. I walk this course because there was a I higher purpose for me that I am reminded of time and time again, by my clock. I’ve broken it. Intoxicate me, and I only then start to realize the universe, and all of its addictions it’s created. We are victims of addiction, by every chemical created, manufactured, and marketed. I am awake, only trying to wake up all the other me’s in all the other universes. I’m crazy. I’ve gone crazy, but how is it that everyone agrees with my words the entire time, and then I make them crazy with my mind. Then they fear me, because people can only take in certain amounts of knowledge at a certain time. Then they fear that I’m reading their minds. Then they have a dream of me in the next night. Then don’t tell me about it. It hurts cuz what if they’re all dreaming the same thing. Only person has told me the dream, and when I talk about it to them. They don’t deny it. I’m strong . But I just want to make the people who encounter me STRONGER.

[sad1stworld]

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[jassey13-blog]

Yes i am a natural empath child, which mean i am extremely sensitive to the emotions and energy of other people, animals, i have the ability to physically feel the energy field of others. I feel everything, sometimes to an extreme, and am less likely to intellectualise feelings.

[spirituallygifted]

Awakening and reawakening

Some of my powers began manifesting when I was 16 and still at school. My ability to tap into other peoples emotions and feel them on top of my own began to cause problems around exam time because the level of stress I was feeling became cripplingly painful. I couldn't register all the emotions which I was being bombarded with on a mental level so began succumbing to physical pain was the only way I could stay conscious. This worked for a while until the physical pain began making me sick to the point where I couldn't eat I was in too much pain in my stomach.

At this point I decided I needed to focus different peoples emotions on different parts of my body, so when different areas hurt I knew who I was feeling. This worked for a while. At that point - after the exams finished - I realised that I could begin to control what I was feeling and really focus on one person. It just so happened that my boyfriend broke up with me not long after I figured this out.

It was a really difficult time for me, for myself emotionally, but I was still channelling other peoples emotions and I could not cope with the pain which I was feeling myself so I began to shut myself off emotionally from my physical form.

By purposely not feeling my own emotions I became more aware of what it felt like to have other peoples feelings inside my mind. At first it was an odd sensation, the feeling of happiness or anger drifting in to me without any obvious cause. But with a little practice I could feel the light or energy from the emotion and usually trace it back to the person who had emitted it.

This worked well for when I was searching for someones emotion, I could just follow their light and I could find them. The issue with that was it had to be someone I was exceptionally close to or someone who was willing to accept my energy investigating theirs. I had one friend who lived quite a few miles away and I used to practice telling him what he was feeling without him giving me any clues.

Once I had got to the point where I was telling him what he was feeling accurately every single time no matter how far away from me he was physically we began trying to see if I could pin point why he was feeling the way he was. This took a lot of time and a lot of practice but I was enjoying learning about my extra ability and how it felt to have the power to help my friends in this way.

That was; until I had the dream which changed everything. I dreamt that the girl my ex was now with was going to cheat on him.

He must have felt me try to reach out to him subconsciously that night because after I had that dream he started talking to me again; however, he manipulated my feelings for him in such a way that I lost touch with whatever had been awakened inside of me allowing me the magnificent gift of psychic empathy.

That dream came true by the way, almost exactly how I had predicted it. He told me the story many months later, but I already knew what had happened because I had seen it all before.

This all happened 5 years ago. The other week I fainted and hit my head really hard off the concrete; along with some other really emotionally traumatic things happening around the same time has awakened my connection to my powers and has brought with it awareness of other gifts I may posses. I am now trying to learn to control my empathy and discover what other gifts I have been blessed with.

I hope writing my story on here will help me make sense of everything which is going on with me.