This was requested itās a demisexual readerxSam. I apologize if I didnāt portray this correctly and if I did say anything wrong please educate me. Iād honestly never heard of this, so I did some research but not everything you get on the internet is šÆ true so Iām open to some education on the subject if Iām wrong.
āWeād been making out and it was hot but I knew where his mind was going and I just canāt have sex with him yet.ā I said. I was on the phone with y/bff.
āWell did you tell him why?ā S/he asked.
I said, ā Of course not. Heās gunna think I donāt like him.ā
He cleared his throat then, alerting me he was there.
āI gotta go, Iāll call you later.ā I hurriedly ended the call as he came into the room and sat across from me at the kitchen table.
āDo you like me?ā Sam asked breaking the short silence that had fell between us when I ended the call.
āYes I like you.ā I said focusing on my hands so that I didnāt have to look at him.
We sat in silence a little longer then Sam said something that I was afraid all along he would ask, āDo you just not find me...sexually attractive?ā
I glanced up and saw hurt on his face and I knew I should tell him what was going on. āSam, itās not that. Iām... I just uh Iām not ready to have sex.ā Thatās not what I wanted to say.
āOh... so are you a virgin?ā He asked looking thoughtful.
āNo itās not that either. Iām a demisexual...ā I blurted out.
āUhm Iām not really sure what that means.ā He said.
My face was red, I could feel it. Iām not embarrassed to be who I am itās just that men donāt generally react well to my wanting a commitment. āIt means that I donāt have a sexual attraction to you. And I wonāt until we have like a really good emotional connection. I mean we have an emotional connection idk itās just not strong enough yet. Like I donāt know I have to be ready...ā
I was babbling. I couldnāt look at him so I just kept talking. Finally I heard him chuckle and he put his hand over mine from across the table. I stared at our hands, I quit rambling but I still didnāt look at him.
āY/n.ā He said, obviously wanting me to look at him. I didnāt.
āY/n, itās ok. Look at me. Please?ā He didnāt seem upset and he hadnāt walked away. So I looked up at him.
His eyes were kind and understanding and we sat there for a second just looking at each other. āI want you to be ready. And Iām know if both of us have that connection, romantic and emotional, the sexual aspect of our relationship will be so much better. Iām really glad you told me.ā He kissed my hand and he was all smiles.
āYa wanna watch a movie?ā I asked and he just got up and started making popcorn.
āYea! You pick the movie Iāll meet you in the living room in five.ā He said still smiling.
Of course Sam would be okay with this. Why wouldnāt he be what was I so afraid of.
I sent a text to y/bff -I told him. Weāre good heās totally fine with it :)-
S/he responded -I knew he would be. Call me later :) byee-