So uh. Hi.
It's spence here, if you come across this page you might have known me as @spoogie-rism (mutuals please follow me)
I don't know exactly where to start, but over the past couple of months, I've been dealing with a lot of anxiety- much of which was rooted in my social media usage. I felt like every time I opened my phone, I was seeing conflict, and knowing I was powerless to stop it made me resent myself and other people. So, I deleted everything.
Starting with TikTok and ending with tumblr, I've been scrapping accounts for the last two months, and the mental distance that it left has been incredibly healthy for me.
I've been able to get back into hobbies that I hadn't touched for months- or even years. Doodling in my journal for DND sessions has made me realise how much fun art is when I'm not pressuring myself. I also realised that I really, really love fashion!
Maybe not in a career way, or even really a trendy way, but uh- I guess experimenting with colour, texture, and pattern in my clothing has been like a lifeline to me while I've been so depressed. I've never really been one for photos, but I've finally found a hobby that feels healthy, and I want to share it. So I guess that's what this account is going to be.
I'm still going to try and manage my social media use- I don't want things to go south again, and I've been pretty happy spending my time reading and watching movies to fill the time- but I'm back, and much happier, and that's what's important :)