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@spotlessss-mind
I saw him tonight, out at dinner with my boyfriend & his family. Bumped into him outside the toilets.
We both took a second glance, chatted for a while until I told him who I was with.
It just made me think, how different my life could of been..
It made me remember a little of how I felt back then & wondering why/if it’s bad I don’t feel that anymore.
It’s time to positively move on from this tumblr and onto a new one.
Simply because I’m feeling different, I’ve grown.
I don’t want to write my new ideas onto the same page as my broken ones.
So, it’s time to relax, reflect and reconnect..
It’s weird - T pops up, talks, wants to hook up all in the space of 1 day talking, a few weeks before my 💌BG. message to send.
It actually feels like I shouldn’t send it?
Like it’s not needed anymore?
Would I want to see him? What did I want to see him for?
Do my feelings really let me get that deep, let me struggle with them - but as quick as that they disappear.
You know what, I might test them.
I might make my moment 🌙 put on those songs, read over our last conversation and see how I feel.
See if it still needs to be said.
I have to find a way to be happy for him and to want what’s best for him.
Even if I feel the greatest attachment to anyone, ever
Is it wrong to feel this positive about us?
Is this manifestation?
Will I only feel more awful when it doesn’t happen?
How can I believe he’s with me so strongly?
Is this all part of the process?
I feel like all the things that make me, me
My music
My lashes, waxing
Group chats on my phone
They’re making me worse
I need to be free in wildness, no make up, no mirrors, no social media, no judging. Wearing what’s comfy.
Not getting influenced by music, that pours into my mind and fills my body, my emotions & gives me tunnel vision, doesn’t let me see anything further.
—— back to October 2018.
My butterfly feeling ideas and thoughts just don’t work anymore
Here’s me thinking I’m done and dusted, meanwhile the Universe is thinking, here comes Part 2..
W.
That was a waste of time - but atleast I know.
What the FUCK is wrong with me.
I need to get past this, need to find a way to put it behind me.
I really don’t want to have to open the box again and go through my past, but if that’s the only way.
Still
& still into November
& still into January
& still into March
I can’t love like that again.
It hurt me too much.
It broke me.
— but, that’s the kind of love that will make your life.
That’s the kind of love that makes you feel out of this world.
& now I’m crying thinking about it. About how I felt about him. About the pain I was in.
He’s not in my life at all anymore. So how can I get past this?
Am I crying because I want to feel love like that again?
Am I crying because I’m scared to, because I know I won’t survive it?
My interest in boys has disappeared.
I haven’t had that butterfly feeling in months.
The things that used to excite me about them doesn’t anymore.
I’m worried this is because of last year.
Have I run out of love to give?
Do I not believe in it anymore?
The ones that are interested message you, no matter what you post
-realisation
Why dya have to be so cute
It’s impossible to ignore you
Why must you make me laugh so much
It’s bad enough we get along so well
Just say goodnight & go
t
