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I just wanna say that one of the chief burdens of my mortal existence is the fact that I have an extremely persistent, incredibly distinct floater that slingshots across my right eye whenever I move my gaze from the end of one line of a book or article to the beginning of next one, and every single time I have to quench the rage in my heart that I have for its existence, because I can't do anything about it

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NO oar omen and no asshole falling off the roof and dying like what is the point of it all. what is that movie 3 hours for. well I'll find out a week from now

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ok I'll complain a little bit anyway. I think if you have that much money and clout you should make a better adaptation of something so jam-packed with material as the odyssey. for fuck's sake

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I think I'll watch that odyssey movie on $5 tuesday at the theater next week. that way I'll have permission to really complain about it the way I want to right now

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For years I lived Maggie Smith

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also, not for nothing, I've had this damn blog for 16 years or something. and a tumblr in general for longer, I've remade at least once

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I've been using this space to bitch and moan a lot lately but I noticed this morning that I really do value having a dedicated space for rumination/writing/sharing, even if it's a little messy. I think I want to move away from the bitching and more into actually taking time to write longer posts about my day/thoughts/etc. make more of an effort to be coherent, even if only to myself, even if it's in the stunted sort of language that I wind up using on here most of the time. the past few months I've contemplated why I bother continuing to post here, because sometimes it seems counterproductive; but I think ultimately I do value having a place like this to both share my experience and take a peek into the experiences of others... I don't have anywhere else quite like this in my life at the moment, it does fufill a need of sorts. anyways this is the same conclusion I come to every 2-3 years when I think "should I bother to keep posting on tumblr"

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I'm admitting to things and sharing my experiences and observations. idgaf

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I'm less and less interested in Gender Roles both in heteronormative culture and queer culture; queer culture having more genders and therefore more gender-related boxes (identities) but in my anecdotal experience being as prone to outside categorization as heteronormative culture. I'm a lot more interested in what an individual's natural inclination is, how can they channel and express that in a healthy way, what that makes them interested in, how that interacts with their social groups... I mean for both heterosexual, cisgender people and for queer people. maybe it's because despite my frequent inner turmoil I've come to accept and enjoy my physical form, I'm interested in my internal inclinations and curious about where they lead instead of agonizing over what it means or how much at odds it is with whatever script I'm supposed to be using. gender diversity is normal and helpful and that's a comfort to me, and it's a comfort to think that to some extent this version of me was inevitable. maybe it's my homosexual privelege speaking lol but there's simply no way for me to have ever fit in as a heterosexual without compromising my personal integrity, there's no way for me to have pretended my way through a job that requires different skills and interests than the kinds of jobs I have now, and I've been lucky to be generally encouraged in finding my way through that particular maze. I'd like for avenues of self-acceptance and self-actualization to be available to more gender diverse people instead of this current focus (as it seems to me from my limited perspective) on physical appearance primarily. having those outlets is important and material culture is beautiful but why is it almost exclusively based on aesthetics, body modification, clothing, etc... and because this is the piss on the poor website I mean I'd like to see more self-acceptance in queer culture in addition to having access to things like surgeries, HRT, clothes, etc

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new motto: July Is Not My Fault

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the peanut gallery

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efforts towards a "positive vision of masculinity" or whatever are so funny because what these guys are trying to figure out is literally "what's a way of being a good person that's Not For Girls™"

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weird weather today, in a heat warning but the smoke and isolated thunderstorms blowing through have kept the temp down, started the crew at 6am today for a big harvest. we'll see what happens

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i be like “it is what it is” then be pissed off for like 4 years