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im just here to look at fanfiction. This blog is also like my diary, not looking for followers haha

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An update on my life:

Alot has happened, my parents are crumbling mentally and emotionally.

I am not studying now as I just... Struggle? I believe this may be due to the possibility of my having add, I tried to look into it but SO many problems happened and now I'm scared to try again.

I'm not suffering from PTSD at this time from being abused in my childhood... So that's a plus

I'm still living with the man I love and OH we got a cat, her name is squid ♥️ she's absolutely ridiculous!

I now have a factory job in manual labour until I can work on getting assessed for possible add (since it's just too rough to study)

I also came to a huge realisation, that living with this man is the only time in my life that I'm not anxious about being unsafe or financially struggling! I'm not scared of being evicted from home(mum never paid the bills on time because drugs were more important) foster care.. well that's it's own thing. I'm not living on the edge of panic, I don't feel like I need to eat the cheapest food or buy the cheapest cosmetic products... I feel free and safe and comfortable. I didn't know people could just feel this way and it snuck up on me. But my god I was living so badly before and I didn't even know 😭

But I'm so happy now, I'm okay with being alive, I'm happy to spend it with my boyfriend and I look forward to the future ♥️

[cassandraclare]

Q&A time jump

ohnotoomanyfandoms said: Hi Cassie! We loved COI, and we can’t wait for COT. You said the third book starts in 

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Hey Cassie! You said no more than a week, but aren't they only in Paris for 2 weeks? Don't get me wrong I want to know everything that happens(and I also don't because it's so devastating). Does this mean we won't get saucy details from the slight time jump?

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So I have started studying again, I finally decided to follow my dream to try and become a zookeeper.

Problem is I think I ask too many questions and answer too many questions in class. Some girls have taken to glaring at me whenever I speak, I try to ignore it and I also try to not answer the questions but when nobody else does what's a girl to do.

But today one of the girls I talk to told me somebody else wants to sit next to me because I seem to enjoy learning and that I seem "smart".(not true, but sweet to say anyway)

So good and bad but mostly good update :)

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What's a dad?

I should be thankful I even have a dad that I know.

But I have never thought of him as my dad or even calling him that, or anything at all for that matter.

He never wanted a girl so, he left.

He refused to have anything to do with me for some years of my life and only really messages me to ask me what I want for my birthday/Christmas (both late Dec). He does it it bitterly every time, but it's the only time I see him. I don't love him but I feel like I should milk him for all he's worth because he's given me so many issues.

I also have always been poor, so anything around Christmas especially is welcome because it might be all I get.

After my brother was born he said "I failed with you, I will try harder with your brother" he recently stopped putting effort into my brother.

I know he will never love, appreciate, support or care about me and it honestly hurts so much to never have a real dad.

I always see people with their dads happy or bonding. The only "bonding" I got was going fishing with my mum's ex who was a pedophile (since he was around for 8 years).

When both of my aunt's got married, my pop was so happy, he cried in their dances. I know I will never get that. I doubt he will even come to my wedding. He never cares about boyfriends or what I was doing so why does it hurt?

One day I will stop talking to him, it will be the right thing to do, I'm sure be won't care. He's still got my brother...

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A friend

So I have the one friend, we have been friends for a few years and I have only recently realised what they've been doing.

I have been getting pretty badly manipulated by this person in a way to make me feel insignificant, and since they're always having mental issues (anxiety, depression that kind of thing) you never think that, they might be in the wrong with why's they say.

For example, if I do something and think of it as an accomplishment and share it with literally anyone I'm being an attention seeker. If I do something I enjoy that they might and don't invite them because they didn't seem that into when we talked about it, they get offended and upset.

Like I think I'm being friendship negged, they're always telling me I am not nice for ignoring people I don't want to talk to and not caring about people that I don't think deserve it and that I'm a terrible person.

Just wanted some rant :D

[solitairians]

tumblr took destroy dick december a little too far

[taebaelee]

@staff

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Kirby is in tumblr jail for not wearing any clothes

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WHAT

[tamamita]

Should have seen it coming, bih

[ladyshinga]

“lol the only people mad about the tumblr announcement just want porn lol”

Yeah, no.

Tumblr blocked the tag “chronic pain” in this mess for no reason

They’re flagging commonly used tags by queer people, sex educators, and artists who make their fucking LIVING on tumblr

They’re gonna take down genuine sex workers because they didn’t curb the problem with spamming porn bots YEARS ago when tumblr users REPORTED OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND *OVER* that it was a problem

Tumblr IGNORED the bots, IGNORED the problems, and honestly treated it like NOTHING until their app was taken off a store due to it.

They’re fucking over a shit-ton of REAL PEOPLE who rely on tumblr for community and/or income because they ignored users’ complaints about shitty porn bots for YEARS until it had financial consequences

I can no longer even talk about chronic pain without the post being blocked from searches

I have drawn one or two nude pieces on my art tumblr which is 99% safe for work but now I’m worried the blog will be taken down entirely because Tumblr won’t bother differentiating between spam and REAL PEOPLE just trying to live their goddamn lives

And god forbid I want to talk about bisexuality or sex or kink in just… MY LIFE. As a normal-ass human being who just wants to TALK ABOUT HUMAN THINGS

No, their solution to nuke a problem they’ve ignored for years is to take us all down at once

So maybe don’t laugh about “oh no not my pornz” because 1. plenty of that ~porn~ is made by actual humans making their living and 2. WAY MORE than “just porn” is being targeted

This along with Facebook continuously upholding white supremacy by letting nazi shit fly by while they ban people for speaking out against their oppressors and it’s basically like we’re running out of truly free places to just… BE

[brucesterling]

*Meanwhile, on Twitter

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Updates

Been a while since I have been on here yikes.

I'm still as happy as ever and with the man I love,

We are still living together and have been for around 4-6 months.

I finally have found a job I really like, it's an amazing feeling when you find something you feel you could still be happy with in 5 years time, there isn't anything quite like it.

We may have to move houses soon over issues with housemates but as long as I have this amazing supportive caring man with me we can do anything❤❤

[silverhawk]

i was rly bummed out and then i saw this picture and im cured now

[silverhawk]

[infectiondefective]

*Kirby inhalation noise*

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Update

I haven't been on here in quite a while. I am still with my wonderful boyfriend that makes me so happy I can't contain it. There's some family issues going on but as long as we have each others support I feel like I can move mountains. That's the way life is, we are still madly in the honeymoon stage 9 months in and will be moved in soon. Mentally I'm feeling fantastic though I resigned my job recently and am searching for another, I never knew how happy somebody who was inexperienced in all things relationship and even general social life could make me. We are learning life together :)

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I almost couldn't believe I could be happy with somebody again. He makes me feel so loved and spoilt and God I don't deserve this sweetie, but man do I love him...

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So apparently I’m aromantic… I find people hot and I desire sex, but I don’t desire love, romance, affection or emotions

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BOI WAS I WRONG