An update on my life:
Alot has happened, my parents are crumbling mentally and emotionally.
I am not studying now as I just... Struggle? I believe this may be due to the possibility of my having add, I tried to look into it but SO many problems happened and now I'm scared to try again.
I'm not suffering from PTSD at this time from being abused in my childhood... So that's a plus
I'm still living with the man I love and OH we got a cat, her name is squid ♥️ she's absolutely ridiculous!
I now have a factory job in manual labour until I can work on getting assessed for possible add (since it's just too rough to study)
I also came to a huge realisation, that living with this man is the only time in my life that I'm not anxious about being unsafe or financially struggling! I'm not scared of being evicted from home(mum never paid the bills on time because drugs were more important) foster care.. well that's it's own thing. I'm not living on the edge of panic, I don't feel like I need to eat the cheapest food or buy the cheapest cosmetic products... I feel free and safe and comfortable. I didn't know people could just feel this way and it snuck up on me. But my god I was living so badly before and I didn't even know 😭
But I'm so happy now, I'm okay with being alive, I'm happy to spend it with my boyfriend and I look forward to the future ♥️










