Finch

18 🚫Don’t report 🚫 🩻On my own journey🩻 (if you don’t like it leave)

[al3ssa]

skinny feels better than the food you’ve craved for five minutes.

[stargirl3333]

if only you were your gw…

(divider @leafsea)

[canyouholdthephone]

[self-hatred-h00die]

breakfast lol

[srryforbeinghere]

i want to tell someone anyone that will listen that i don’t want to be here anymore. like i’ve spent my whole life never meaning anything to anyone. my dad left when i was very young and it was very easy for him to just make a life without me. my mother is just one of the most abusive and manipulative people i have ever met. god i hate sounding like a sob story but i have no one else to talk to. my family loves to sweep things under the rug and never talk about anything we bottle our emotions and we just keep pushing. i have spent this whole summer alone. not one person has called or texted me and said hey. lately i find that i am always trying so hard to make things up to people or make they feel special and loved when none of that happens in return. i think about how if life is just like this then i don’t want to be apart of it. i hate my life and i hate who i am and i don’t blame anyone for not wanting to be around me like why would they? i was going through my old texts and i would just over share so much but it was because i felt like i had to because if i didn’t people would just think i was some type of asshole or someone who didn’t want to be an active part of their lives. i ended up just ruining everything and now i have no one. i spent my whole high school career trying to make these friends because i never really had any and that never worked out because i was just awkward and i never knew how to just be a friend. i have this feeling like the whole world is against me because of the shit hand i’ve been delt. i’m just so tired i need someone anyone to understand how tired i am and how i never wanted to be a part of any of this. srry

[anamagazinefr]

Big text to remind me what I found on TUMBLR to keep my ed diet

Some excuses to not eat whe I am with people around (from @ana-girl0) - "Sorry but I am not hungry" - "Sorry but I don't like this ___ food" - "Oh I ate a very big breakfast this morning and I am still full" - " I have a stomach ache" - "I will eat at home to save on money" - "Sorry I am busy right now, I have to go for something important" - " My doctor put me on a special diet so I can't go and eat at the restaurant"

Some motivation quotes (@4n4-m14 @blndsundoll4cbale) - What you eat in private, you wear in public - Don't reward yourself with food, you are not a dog - You are in control. You have the control - You are not hungry you just bored - Skip dinner, wake up thinner - Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels -They don't care unless you'r skinny enough - Don't binge it's cringe - No Food no binge - Eat for the body that you want, not for the body you have -Junk food you have craved for an hour or a body you have craved for a lifetime ? it's your choice ! - Think it, want it, Get it - Feeling cute even when I am dressed in sweats - Being able to wear tiny tank tops - My face slimming out - Finally being the skinny friend (what a goal) - People asking me how I lost weight - People talking to me more and worried a bit for me at least - Getting drunk/higher quicker - Pretty priviliege - Taking cute instagram photo

Ed shows : (desac) - To the bone - 13th - girl interrupted - Starving on suburdia - Pretty little liars - my skinny sister

May add more in the futur

[strvlight]

Yes omg

[oatmilkylatte]

[gh0st-0f-s0rr0wzz]

spoiler alert: it doesn't get better.

[deadlyxnightshadex]

I want to be so skinny that my bf is able to lift me up without any effort. I want to be so thin that he's getting really protective cause i seem so weak

[irisbones]

don't eat the snacks don't eat the snacks don't eat the snacks don't eat the snacks it's literally like being tempted by the devil oh my gods i see why christians are so hard core 😭

[collectivelysuffering]

Ed Not Sheeran hack: don’t eat lmao

[collectivelysuffering]

Need someone to physically reach into my body and take all my digestive organs out so I can’t eat anymore lol

[l0vedbr4t-deactivated20230614]

it’s so sad when you eat as much as you do, you’re never going to be ur gw if you keep acting like this, are you even ana if u binge this much :(?

[our97s]

just imagine! you’re with your friends, hanging out, and then you notice how you’re the thinnest, most beautiful one out of the group. everyone else is average, chubby even, not you though! you’re skinny and stunning!!! so keep going and don’t give up <3

[macilentenvy-deactivated2023110]

some of my faves

[november-will-be-perfect]

Disordered stuff I found on xiaohongshu in like a minute

[thisismydisorderedconfession]

259) One day I binged so much it felt like my stomach was about to explode. I went to the bathroom to purge but I began choking. I couldn't catch my breath for the better part of five minutes and I laid on the floor gasping for air. Honestly, I think I almost choked myself to the point of no return. I was close to calling out to my parents for help but then I decided that this is something I must get through on my own, because they didn't know. Eventually, I was able to cough up the food. But my chest hurt so much, and my voice didn't sound right for a week. I have learned nothing from this, except to drink more water before a purge.