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it rots putting me in a spin

but that was yesterday

today is here and she said

it’s gonna be alright

just one bite at a time

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elephants

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still here, almost

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only sometimes not all the time

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something about us

d.b.a

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capsules fix it

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making friends

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It feels empty inside

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Unknown, Nature Documentary on American west,  1970s

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Jackson Pollock. No.5, 1950 oil on canvas Unframed: 136.5cm x 99.1cm The Cleveland Museum of Art Cleveland, Ohio, USA Leonard C. Hanna, Jr. Fund

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Is she taking her power back?

Playing pretend?

Is there merit in the berry on her right foot?

Will her worth make a guest appearance?

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Where did I go? Am I still here?

Why won’t she cry?

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River weeping

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protective order in place,

the relief

the calm

the peace

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more to come remember how strong you were

remember you’re worth it

the little one inside is looking up to you

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You keep me holding on

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The first day we were together, normal

The second day, gun in pocket.

Phone plans.

My home was next.

Something cold against my back,

it’s dark just entering: if you tell anyone, I’ll kill you.

Grabbing my face, smacking my face: you’re fucked I’ll kill you if you leave.

Sweet to get my money,

Spoke like a demon in garbled tongue

After / the bed, the bathroom, the kitchen

Dangling sex over my head, like I wanted it

Old versions spilling out and up - play the part

Survive. Don’t kill my cat when I leave.

Please don’t kill my cat when I leave.

I’ll come back I swear.

Waited 3 to report.

DNA at my house,

his shit on my sock.

The humiliation

The relief

The fear

3 of them, with badges: tell us this

Timeline it. But you can’t. I can’t.

It’s blurred between the blood bw my knees

It’s floating just out of reach.

Disassociate.

It fades by like burnt worms

dried from the sun

it’s just a carcass now.

I am a carcass now.