The 'head' of the family summoned me
28th Oct 2019 Marked the day where my MIL summoned me in front of the whole household. Again, confronting face to face and throws off 'discussion' to my face. Somehow, i felt proud for being able to hold myself in throughout HER whole 'conversation'. So, what actually she's so discontented about? That she forgot to consider how had she humiliate me in front of Everyone. Why did i boycott her? Why did i boycott her since she 'advised' me on the clothes that i wore? She felt dishearten by the fact that she chose the wrong life partner for his son. She claimed that never in her life as a mother that her son acting the way he is after he married me. She questioned what's the use of those little circles that i attend to if i have very poor attitude. She prayed that my sons will treat me the way that i did to her. She said that didnt i realise that she is the mother of my husband? She felt dissatisfied that we spent 99 percent at my place and one percent at hers. She claimed that if my parents have yet time to educate me, she will do so on my parents behalf. She felt dishearten by the fact that me and her could not get along happily. She said that she want to accept me as her own daughter not as a DIL. But those are shattered as i acted the way i did. She felt extreme sad when i 'snatched' my son from coming with her last raya. She apologise to her son for choosing the wrong women. And for saying these out loud. She hope that her son will live happily ever after. And this is the night where i finally heard my FIL said to her please stop, why you saying all these. MIL apologised to her son and husband for this and said she could not contain anymore. She cried everyday on why it has happen the way it does. She said that i belittle her for who she is. She said i come and go, keeping myself in the room with the hphone not mingling with everyone. She said that she apologise if her house was too dirty for my to step in. She questioned that her son even have to pack things up for me before we deoart from the house. She's going on saying things that i have never said.. She questioned her son. Reminding him that he is the man. He should have power over things. But seeing how she emotionally confront me and refuse to back down when her husband said so, it seems that she too is not walking the talk. I looked at my husband. Face reddened. I looked at my feet, the clock on the wall and only catch the glimpse of my MIL during the whole 'discussion' thingy. My heart was calm only rippled mildly throughout. I felt at loss, speechless, and unfair. My 2 months old son was crying helplessly and being coaxed by FIL. My words were only silence. I thought of rebutting. But on second thought, it was no use. Finale, my husband rise and apologise and the scene where his mother hugged her and cried extremely. I thought of dashing out the door. But i rose, salam her and went by without making any eye contact with anyone. Forgot my baby, i immediately stepped into the car. FIL come to me and handed over the baby and said " jangan serik datang sini, selalu2 lah datang" I could no longer reply nor look into his eyes. I closed the door. My heart sanked. I monologued. "Abah, you're too late. I am broken. I will never come back. Maybe i should back away from everyone's lives." May you be granted what you always have wanted.. the best DIL for your only son. I should leave..
