A year in the reveiw; 2017.
2017. Its been one hell of a year. I started this year an anxious wreck, years of undiagnosed Anxiety had caused me to push away everyone i care about because i felt i wasnt worthy of the amazing people im lucky enough to call friends.
Thanks to councelling and medication im a lot better than i was in january this year and leagues infront of where i was when diagnosed with Anxiety in mid 2015.
This year has been a year of advancement and new friends. Ive met some truly incredible people thanks in no small part to the phone game "Pokemon Go" which has helped me get back out into the world and meeting people.
Ive met so many incredible people thanks to that game. People id otherwise never have met. People who have their own issues but are overcoming them with help from the game.
Thanks to pokemon go, ive walked around 170 kilometers a month since i got a new phone in August. I average 4 kilometers a day now having gone from walking nothing prior to PoGo being released. I have lost roughly 20 kilos since 2015. So im a bit more confident in myself this year too, but ive still got a ways to go in the self esteem department. On top of that i started working out as often as i can handle it and despite being sore most of the time, i actually have biceps for the first time in my life, so thats fairly nice.
This year was also a year of mental personal growth as well as physical growth. I had my first ever experiance with dating, something id previously dismissed due to low self esteem and anxiety making me feel like im not worthy of love. This has meant ive had some dizzying heights as i experianced feeling wanted by another person for the very first time. It is incredible to feel that way. I can see why people have been chasing that feeling since they were young. I regret not starting earlier if im completely honest because during that time was the best ive felt in years.
However all good things must end and so did that relationship, and for the first time of my life i learnt how it felt to breakup with someone. Something i really haven't enjoyed if im completely honest. Ive been down, depressed and lonely since then and experianced some of the lowest lows ive felt since highschool.
It was hard to move past but im getting over it one day at a time and im finally getting back to a good place. I regret nothing about the relationship, including how it ended. I'm still friends with her and see her all the time which can be difficult but that is life. I dont miss her romantically anymore. I just miss feeling close to someone...
So 2017 has been a year of ups and downs. So many amazing memories and ive not even touched on the music ive found this year. Musically 2017 has been spectacular. In the metal world it seems like every month a new album drops that is simply magnificent. Amazing albums from "Beast In Black", "Bloodbound", "H.E.A.T.", "Eclipse", "Art Nation", "Pride Of Lions" "Bonfire", "Tokyo Motor Fist", "Place Vendome", "One Desire", "Last Autumn's Dream", "Revolution Saints" and so many more.