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💬 NIKS.

ZEKE: dead that, since you just said it wasn't truth.

ZEKE: when have i ever fucking said that? but alright. it's more like you, constantly tryna tell me all the ways i'm fucking up my life. good fucking god, nicole. don't fucking dare come at me about "ripping it away" when i was ready to go through with it the last time. you were and have been the only person i wanted a fucking life with and YOU ripped it away last time but cool attempt at making that my fault again. you know what? you don't get to sit there on your high ass pedestal and judge me for trying to live my life as fucking normally as i can knowing damn well there ain't gonna be anyone else after you i'm propose to? you walked away, it wasn't on me to repair that more than a friendship. i ain't ask you to wait on me, or anything like that. i asked you not to throw a fucking fit with me because i'm not going to slide into your relationship and ruin that shit. i decided? i decided? bull fucking shit. you decided, when you walked away and i chose not to throw all my chips back in to watch it fall apart three damn times. you could actually make it down the aisle for this dude, why would i ruin that for you? it's what the fuck you wanted. people don't just say yes for no reason. you think i wanted to make you look like a fool? well, i'm not even surprised by how lowly your opinion is of me. i shouldn't have to fucking jump through hoops the same way i'm not making you jump through hoops? i wanted you, only fucking you but we ain't married cause YOU walked out last time so i got the fucking message. but that was another cute attempt to make it about me and who the fuck is temporarily in my bed. i was ready to throw that all behind and marry you, you walked away... we both were obviously not looking to go for a third round. if YOU wanted to marry me so damn bad, if i had "all of you" the way you keep fucking saying, you're right. we'd be married right now but we ain't. you got ya new dude. i never made that decision for you? that was you, walking out, getting with someone new, saying yes. all YOUR choices, i'm just not stopping you. i'm not saving you from ya own choices, ya own desires, ya own needs and wants. i'm done hearing about how it was ME and MY doing when you're the one who walked out, and gave ya heart to someone new. that's something i ain't do, i ain't even think about doing. but whatever. doesn't matter, it's always gonna be on me and how i'm always playing a game. even though with you? it was never a fucking game for me. you were it. all i fucking wanted. again, it doesn't matter cause it don't fit your story or your aesthetic so i'll be the bad guy. always fucking am for you. that's all i got to do ain't it? enjoy my life. but that's a problem to.

ZEKE: another tick on shit i do. he'll see el on christmas eve, there's no need. you can see el on christmas eve, too. i'm fucking over the whole conversation, wanna talk about not listening? as you do the same fucking shit. fantastic nicole, glad to hear it. super happy to hear that.

NIKKI: wait a damn minute, not zeke telling me what to do when he just said he wasn't gonna do that 🤨🤔

NIKKI: really? you didn't just send a text full of how it's not you who fucked us up, it was me? mr. perfect couldn't possibly do any wrong. never. i wasn't talking about the way you're fucking up your life? and why would it be a crime if i CARE about you enough to fucking tell you when you're fucking up your god damn life? you think i just magically stopped loving you, you inconsiderate asshole? no. i will always fucking care if you try to self destruct. because together or not? i'm always going to need you. fighting or not. pissing each other off or not.idk how long it's gonna take me to shovel down everything we've been through or how i'm going to be able to figure out how to just be friends with you because i look at you and see the fucking world, still. as disgusting as that is. on my part, because you're right. i tossed in the towel and walked away. i stopped waiting, i didn't say anything. i got with theo. i said yes to marrying theo. but i care if you fuck up your life. i was talking about how you fucked THIS up. which was redundant, because you're gonna always blow over the fact there wouldn't have needed to be a second engagement if you didn't walk away from me from the first place? we're one for one here? but had you not walked away? every other time? every other person? every other mistake? wouldn't have happened. because i would've had you. i put it out there i was ready to throw all of this away, you can hide behind "why would i ruin this for you blah blah blah ol' dude this that" all you want. i meant when i said that if you wanted us again, i would've given theo back the ring and came back. you said no. as shitty as that is, as shitty as that makes me? when it comes to you? there wouldn't be a second guess. so what was that? you wanted to see if you could see if i'd tell you no? to fuck off? that we're better at just being friends? because we're still arguing? no matter what happens, zeke, you will always be that fucking person to me, the person i would do anything for. but if that was just a goodbye thing, you should've fucking told me. because now i have to figure out how to not want you. how to look at theo and know that the day he asked me to marry him? the first thing i did was run to you.. when it comes to you, you selfish asshole, there are no questions. no hesitation. no logic or reasoning. i'm too tired to fight with you and we've fucked whatever this is up enough. fighting over where zeus is going to spend christmas on top of whatever the fuck else we can spit at each other, isn't doing us any good. i apologize, okay? i'm sorry i walked away, i'm sorry i fucked this up, i'm sorry i piss you off. i'm sorry. enjoy yourself, live your life, fuck whoever, do whatever, drink yourself into a mess. but i'm here, and i always will be and i will always be sorry. and you don't get to take away the meaning behind me saying you have all of me because you're pissed off. because you always have, isaac, and you always will. no matter how much of a selfish prick you are.

NIKKI: since we're just not listening.. so christmas with you? sounds good. and when you're done being pissy you can let me know if i can take eloise and zeus with me to disneyland with ellie and her football team.

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text || nickel

ellie: i can't even smell whiskey without dry heaving.

ellie: i want to believe that he's not this careless, but he is. he's still the kid he was when i met him and it pisses me off that i'm the bad guy with our son. i'm the one he screams at, i'm the one he says he hates, i'm the one he says he doesn't want me to be his mom. because his fucking father can't be a grown up, get a real fucking job, and stop fucking around with his friends and drinking. he'll never admit it, but he has a damn problem. and you know what he brought up? "how come you can take axel on tour but i can't" even though i've explained it before. yeah, maybe it's a double standard, but it's the right choice for me and my 23048932084 kids. i KNOW how shitty he feels, my mother's the worst mother in the world. everything else was more important than me and alyssa, she constantly missed recitals and games and didn't keep up with her promises. i'm sick of seeing my kid feel like that. gabby? she used to idolize travis, but now she's upset with him because her little brother is hurting. you know what, we're doing it. we're taking the kids to fuckin disneyland, if travis can make axel wait, then me and axel can make his ass wait and we'll see how he likes not being notified until the last minute.

nikki: that's like me... and vodka. not a good time.

nikki: look, if anyone can feel you on the wanting to believe someone's something they aren't it's me. okay? i live in the land of denial. i'm the queen of denyitall-land but travis? he's not it. he's never gonna change, not for you, not for the kids, not until he falls on his ass and his retro 2006 band is done and he's in rehab. PERSONALLY, i say we go over to his place, break a window, dump all his bottles down the sink and wash our hands of him. maybe he'll realize he's a piece of shit when he's more upset over him having nothing to drink so he can act a little bit MORE like an idiot. i can almost say i can promise you he'd be more upset over his drank being gone then he was about letting his child down and yet again making YOUR life harder. that way we can focus on getting axel back in a better place which is more important then travis anyways. uh? i wouldn't trust travis with a fish on tour, let alone a child? you? being as you're the dependable parent, i don't see why he would think there's any why he could compare you to him? because ON WHAT PLANET DOES HE THINK HE'S HALF THE PARENT YOU ARE? joke. fat fucking joke. i say threaten him with filing for full custody? because you'd get it? without a blink of an eye. no judge is going to give him custody over you. YEEEEES, i'll snag the passes now. and i'm currently fighting with zeke, but i'm gonna toss it out there and see if he'll stop being pissy with me enough to let me steal eloise. probably won't, but, i'm gonna shoot my shot. us and the little humans take disneyland.

nikki: but i am gonna come over tonight because i need to drink and cry and i told theo i was going out with you so, get the babies down because bitch i got tea.

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💬 NIKS.

ZEKE: great, fantastic, glad to hear it

ZEKE: yet every fucking time i try to do that with no issue, it’s “sus” so we gotta make sure i know what the fuck i did wrong. yeah, well that ship sailed when you decided none of it mattered time to marry someone else. sorry not seeing the whole “I picked you and woulda kept picking you if” but whatever nicole. oh really? because I’ve been here, my phone ain’t changed it’s been very fucking possible for you to communicate with me. how tf was i supposed to know you’d still wanna talk to me? oh, wait... you don’t? you just wanna point out every thing i did to fuck up in your eyes. that’s fine. like i fucking said, who the fuck am i to make your decision for you? you said yes, you wanna marry him. who am i to stand in the way? i never once not ever said or intentionally made it seem like you were one of them other bitches. and it doesn’t matter what I think about “if” you thought, it’s the fact that you were ready to be someone else’s mrs. 🤷🏼‍♂️ so go live that dream. and quit blaming me for that choice you made and me not jumping in to shut it down cause I’m not gonna fuck up what you want in life.

ZEKE: no. I’m not doing this again. you said he should and immediately fucking argued when i tried to keep shit easy. it’s Christmas Eve that’s that. you ain’t the sole decision maker to shit so get over it, you wanted Christmas with him? you got it. next time just say that instead of throwing a fit and then tryna play the “nah you can do Christmas with him” cause I’m not playing a game with spending the holiday with zeus. I’m not. I got Christmas Eve, just fucking stop already. Don’t know why I thought we could figure shit out smoothly. got it. you piss me off just as much, dear nicole. have a good ass night.

NIKKI: anything for you, always, my favorite person 😘

NIKKI: you wrong? when? because according to you, that's always me? you can't flip script on me like that now, that's so unprofessional of you? jesus christ, so... what? you wanted me to sit around and watch you fuck this that and the other until you decided you had enough meaningless mindless drunken one night stands and you wanted to take your turn promising me the world just to rip it away again? who did i send my birthday with? because it wasn't the guy who proposed to me. so yes, zeke, above all else, you say jump and i say how high - you decided it wasn't enough for you. i still picked you. get off your high horse. it wasn't me saying yes to him, it's not me trying to give someone else the scraps of whatever you left for me to give to anyone else. it's about you not being able to be the one who gets to leave me standing around looking like a fool. if you wanted this so bad, if you wanted me so bad, if i wasn't just like every other girl you get to just toss away (which you do so well, there should be an award)? you and i? we'd be married. right now. there wouldn't be a theo, we'd probably be fighting - but not about this. you made that decision FOR ME, why stop there? why is it so easy for you to say, "no i don't wanna mess this up for you" after giving me the slightest impression of hope that you were done playing whatever fucked up game this was? but leave it up to you zeke, only you can wreak havoc on my life and walk away like it's absolutely nothing to you and have me on hands and fucking knees for you. i can't do it anymore, you win, i toss in the towel. you want me to give scraps and pieces to someone else while you do you while keeping all of me? that's fine. enjoy yourself.

NIKKI: whatever, you never listen to me anyways. be stubborn. i'll drop him off for a little bit on christmas too so he can see el. oh, my night's gonna be a blast, now i know you actually have the capability of feeling at least something for me still, even if it's just getting pissy. i'm all warm and fuzzy now, love you too babe 😘

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💬 NIKS.

ZEKE: always do 🤪🙄

ZEKE: at this point, I don’t know what the fuck you want from me? try to be easy for zeus and still I’m in the wrong? I’m making the point that you clearly want to have a life with ol boy and that’s great, congratulations but don’t sit here pissy with me because you made your choice. it IS about you wanting someone else, cause that’s what tf you’re going after ain’t it? don’t come with that bullshit either cause you came back after deciding you were gonna marry someone else. AFTER. I was ready to go, I fucked up the first time but I was ready to sign up for a whole life with you. it didn’t work out so I’m not gonna stand in your way from making it happen, actually happen. so no? whether what happened mattered or not didn’t factor into the fact that I said no, actually. you chose someone else. you.

ZEKE: nah it’s cool. you can have new years too. he’ll see eloise on christmas eve and you can swing by to see her too then. it’s all good. good, I’ll be oblivious and you can be pissed about it. I’m not gonna change someone’s mind cause they decided they were gonna be with someone else. that’s a choice.

NIKKI: good i'll rest easy tonight knowing you're living your best life as always 😊

NIKKI: truthfully, as of now? the only thing i want from you is to be here for zeus, because everything else is pretty much dead in the water don't you think? zeke, i picked you time and time again. would've kept picking you because as sadistic as it is, i will always love you. always. even now, when i don't want to, i do. i even waited for what? 7 or 8 months for you to come back? so excuse me for not thinking that you being someone to "pick" from was even on the table. and to top it off, petty king, even after almost marrying you twice i said i didn't want to figure what life was without you? you kinda forced my hand on figuring that out after fucking me and leaving me? after i told you all you had to do was say something and i'd turn my ass around and tell him i couldn't do it? you turned me into one of your little toot it and boot it conquests. i'll be a lot of things for you, but i will not ever and i mean EVER be one of your little bippity boppity boo chicken head ass bitches that you get to fuck then bounce on. right bitch, wrong story. you think if i thought if even for a second there was a chance in hell we'd come full circle, i would've said yes, you don't know me at all. that speaks volumes to me.

NIKKI: i already said he should be with you? he should be able to spend christmas with eloise. this isn't about me or you, it's about them. stop being a selfish pain in the ass and just take christmas because we both know i'm gonna do this my way anyways? and i fully plan on seeing eloise on christmas anyways too, so you can deal with that. i'll keep him christmas eve and you can have christmas. looks like you got all that figured out? you've been oblivious and no one pisses me off the way you do. always a pleasure doing business with you, isaac.

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text || nickel

ellie: yeah i hope to god it doesn't happen again, which is why i'm not allowed to drink alone anymore

ellie: just cut me open, pull it all out. and don't puke, i don't need any infections

ellie: we're not, but we WANT to. you know what he did? so, he takes tate to baltimore for thanksgiving to visit his parents and take him to a game. idk what game. just a game. no biggie. but we switch days for axel on sundays. also no problem. THE PROBLEM IS he waited until SUNDAY NIGHT after axel was already in bed after throwing a bitch fit, calling me the worst mom in the world, and screaming at ME that he hated ME because HIS FATHER didn't show up to pick him up. BECAUSE HE'S STILL IN FUCKING BALTIMORE, WHICH I DID NOT KNOW UNTIL THE LAST MINUTE. like, i don't ask much of him, okay? i just ask that he picks him up when he's supposed to, choose his kid over whatever bullshit he has going on, and have the common fucking decency to tell me at an appropriate time that he can't take him for whatever reason. axel brought him notebook back out, and it's getting fuller. it pisses me the fuck off

nikki: you have me, and i vowed to myself after 8543531 drunk calls and 4 lbs of bonbon weight, i told myself i wouldn't drink alone either. so we'll drink together.

nikki: ...i'll do my best lmao

nikki: he's an actual man child? the fact he FAILED to inform you that he was leaving is one thing, to make axel wait for his father only to be disappointed? careless on travis. zeke's a lot of things but one thing he wouldn't do? let zeus down, even if it's just picking him up or explaining to him BEFORE he doesn't show up when he's supposed to. emotionally that's so devistating to a child, especially on a father son level. then as always, you have to clean up the mess? fuck that. if he can't be there for the children he had a hand in creating and bringing into the world? he shouldn't be allowed to cause emotional turmoil in their lives. like can you imagine how shitty axel must feel? girl. no. now i wanna slap the taste outta this man's mouth. i mean if you want, we can have a fuck it day tomorrow? take all the kids to disneyland or something, get ax's mind off of everything?

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💬 NIKS.

ZEKE: keep telling ya self that and maybe you’ll believe it. I don’t

ZEKE: apparently not cause I just tried and that was the wrong thing to do? since we’re tallying shit up, how bout we NOT so conveniently forget the fact that you said yes. that was on ya own accord, why the fuck is it my responsibility to decide for you that you don’t want someone else? maybe you’ll actually make it down the aisle for ol dude

ZEKE: are you sure? you ain’t gotta send him christmas. thought I’d make it easier not argue but forget the whole christmas thing. I’ll take christmas eve, problem solved. that’s on you. really disappointing you thinking I’m the one who did that, when you the only one marrying someone else? 🤔👀 but yeah, fine. i sealed the deal, whatever you say.

NIKKI: if it helps you sleep better tonight, you, isaac king, can think whatever you want.

NIKKI: at this point, i'm fully convinced you get some elated sense of pleasure out of having the ability to make me wanna smack some sense into you? are you trying to get to some point where your trying to say you live on some planet where... you in your mind think in some universe i wouldn't say yes? i wouldn't have said what i said if i didn't mean it. this was NEVER about me wanting anyone else? i thought i found my person, isaac. life, future, planned. wedding or no wedding. i came back after i left and said i'd do it all again, because i would. you said no because you didn't "want to mess this up for me" like what happened previous to that didn't mean shit to you? ...so fuck you for that, and the low blow. appreciate it though. always nice to feel the love.

NIKKI: just keep him for christmas, i'll take new years. because i'd like to see eloise too and i don't want him not seeing his sister on christmas. next year we'll switch off. what's never disappointing? you being absolutely infuriating because you are absolutely oblivious, like always, to what was literally right in front of you. because you're stubborn.

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💬 NICOLE.

CAM: I almost feel bad for the girl. think she was tryna impress her friends or something.

CAM: wouldn’t want anyone to yeet themselves off the face of the planet, but wouldn’t wanna relive tonight either

CAM: and I’ll forget it in a couple of months, so lucky me 😬

NIKKI: ...yeah, we'll go with her friends and not cameron nelson lmao

NIKKI: see, another reason why i'm amazing (or a fan girl same thing) wouldn't happen to me so i feel bad for her.

NIKKI: houston, that sounds like a problem 😬😂

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💬 NIKS.

ZEKE: even cuter when you speak lies but it’s okay, i know nikki.

ZEKE: for zeus? yeah pretty much down to agree on whatever for the lil man. last time we agreed... like ya birthday or our last engagement? cause you the one that walked away last time on the latter🤔👀

ZEKE: was i supposed to fight you on it? feel free to pop up all you want, you can grab a plate if you really bad 🤷🏼‍♂️ I ain’t even pressed as you seem to be? what’s disappointing is you thinking I’m “getting rid” of you lmfao

NIKKI: that i know too, too bad i wasn't lying?

NIKKI: i think can manage to agree for zeus. oh no, my birthday. the LAST engagement was me (the first was on you). i was talking about the part where i told you to just say something and i'd drop everything... and you said "no" but with a little dash of bullshit to lessen the blow. hence "you" and "favorite" don't go hand in hand so much these days 🤨

NIKKI: a little "no niks, you sure? it's christmas" wouldn't have hurt? so i'd say yeah, kinda. might stop by, to say hi to the kids. if i don't end up eating at liv's i might not live past christmas so, darling offer, but it's not the greatest idea. really disappointing is you thinking you didn't seal that deal when you walked away from me? on my birthday.

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CAM: ran into a random "fan" who thought it would be cute to pretend she knew all the lyrics to all my songs.

CAM: when i threw a curveball name out there she came with the "yeah, that's my favorite" so i had to ask her to sing a little bit for me

CAM: never seen someone go bright red so fast lmfao.

NIKKI: i'm physically ashamed for this person? fuck fake friends, no fake fans? that's just... wrong.

NIKKI: 😬😬 i would... probably yeeet myself off the face of the planet? but i do have to say a+ on the putting her in her place real quick

NIKKI: she'll no doubt live with that for the rest of her life LMAO

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💬 NIKS.

ZEKE: did i lie, hampton? cause i think tf not but that's cute you'd try to deny

ZEKE: yeah, less confusion and less issues later. i figured we'd come to that sort of an agreement, yeah.

ZEKE: either way i can work it around so he gets some time with eloise, but that works.

NIKKI: that assumption held validity up until real recently? but you got the cute part right. i tend to stay cute.

NIKKI: 🤔 us, agree? last time i thought we'd agree on something you walked out on my ass on some bullshit ass tip, but alright, yeah let's agree on something.

NIKKI: you really jumped on that quick. now i might have to pop up and see the kids on christmas. you thought you could get rid of me that easy... and that i'd let you win and sound happy about it? c'mon now, z. that's disappointing.

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💬 NIKS.

ZEKE: look who it is? your favorite person sliding in to talk about zeus and christmas.

ZEKE: i don't know about you but since it's 25 or less days away, we should get it out the way now rather than later.

NIKKI: favorite person might be a reach? like that's big bold, even for you, king?

NIKKI: that's probably a good idea. less confusion. we can do christmas eve with one of us, christmas day with the other?

NIKKI: he'd probably wanna spend christmas with eloise so maybe christmas this year should be with you?

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text || nickel

ellie: I SWEAR TO FUCKING GOD

ellie: IF I HAVE ANYMORE KIDS WITH ANYMORE BOYBANDERS

ellie: YOU BETTER CUT ME IN HALF, TIE MY TUBES, YANK ALL MY SHIT OUT BECAUSE I'VE HAD ITTTTTT

ellie: i'm going through the feels, tie me up somewhere so i don't fly to maryland and kill him

nikki: 🤔

nikki: okay you're married, so we're gonna hope and pray that we won't have ANYMORE drunken excursions??

nikki: i'll see what i can do on keeping up my end of the deal on the whole giving you a home hysterectomy??? i might pass out??? bitch i haven't seen enough grey's anatomy to cover an entire procedure

nikki: do you know who your talking to? when are we flying out to maryland and killing travis's ass?

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[sent drunk text] I’m may be allergic to nuts, but not his. - jackson

xx answered here !

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𝙄𝙉𝘾𝙊𝙈𝙄𝙉𝙂 𝙄𝙈𝙀𝙎𝙎𝘼𝙂𝙀 — 𝘽𝘽𝙔 𝙅𝘼𝘾𝙆𝙎𝙊𝙉 🥂

JACKSON: I’m may be allergic to nuts, but not his. - jackson

NICOLE: 😂😂😂😂😂😂

NICOLE: MY JAW JUST H I T THE MFING FLOOR.

NICOLE: can i just say how proud i am of your impending hoe-isim?

NICOLE: 😌 just for that drinks are on me tomorrow.