Hello again. No this isn’t going to be how I want you back blah blah blah. This is to say, well done, you hurt me more than I ever could have hurt you. You’re right to say the relationship was shit, we argued a lot, and if that’s all you remember then that’s your problem not mine, I’m not going to try and make you remember the good parts anymore. I’m going to go back to being the care-free, happy girl that called you at 4am drunk on a Monday morning to leave a voice mail saying I hope you were okay. Instead of the ex who would do anything for you, even offer to pay for your hair cut. And you can go back to being the lad who chats up girls on tinder and does whatever he wants whenever with whoever.
I am going to hopefully get therapy(long waiting lists), and I am going to get better. For me.
Yes I still hope we meet up in the future and we're two different people and we can do everything we talked about doing together, I do still hope you're my soul mate and I will spend a life with you. But right now, you are not the boy who I was in love with. People change I understand. But the way you’ve hurt me, so many ways, I am silly thinking er could be together again soon and I know that. I’m still thinking about the mike who bought me roses 🌹 and who came to my house to hug me after my first day at sixth form because I was crying lol.
Truth is, I don’t miss the arguments either. I love not arguing every day, I miss the new us, when we first got together. Life changes, we move on with it. That boy will have a place in my heart forever. I’ve been so desperate to be loved and give love, to have someone to take care of and watch grow but I don’t need that. For now, the only person I need to love is me.
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