﹒⪩⪨﹒| you and chloe always watched the sunrise together at the light house. until one day you have to watch it alone.
﹒⪩⪨﹒| takes place in the ending where you sacrifice Chloe | romantic | Mentions of death | mentions of vomit/throwing up | Smoking | reader is going through it | bittersweet ending | Reader never moves on |
“The sunrise looks super pretty today” You comment while staring at the slightly pink but mostly blue sky. Chloe nodded as she let out a long breathe.
“I have to go soon. I have important shit to deal with. We can meet back here for the sunset if you want to.” She asked while giving you the damn soft smile. You give her a smile back, the last smile you would ever share with her.
you nodded as she stood up from the bench, punching your shoulder softly before making her way down the hill. You smile as you watch the rest of the sunrise. You suddenly felt weird, like something wrong was going to happen but you brushed it off.
if only. If only you knew what she was dealing with. You went home and spent the rest of the day waiting for her text. nothing. Weird? not even something to say she won’t be able to make it. You told yourself maybe she was just super duper busy and had more things to do she didn't mention.
you hated being left in the dark so you go to her house. Nothing. not until david came home. He looked like he knew something he wish he didn’t. He sat everyone down before explaining what had happened. different emotions splattered his face as he stuttered over the words and took long pauses before finally getting the words out.
as the three words you were always afraid of hearing slipped from your mouth, you felt your whole world come crashing down in a matter of seconds. Chloe was dead.
just hearing that made you want to throw up. You knew Chloe did some dangerous things. You always scolded her and she would just brush it off saying she would deal with it. Her way of dealing with things always got her in more trouble.
You didn’t know how to properly respond to it. You told your parents you wouldn’t be home and asked joyce if you could stay the night. She could see how hurt you looked, The way your eyes seemed dim so she allowed it.
You didn’t know how to go about this, Walking up the steps without her boots following after you. Opening her bedroom door to be hit with the smell of the blunt she had smoked before leaving. Her desk messy and covered in different papers.
you laid in her bed, the same bed you guys shared endless conversations talking about leaving and random topics, shared each other’s deepest darkest secrets, took 3 hour long naps in. Now you were all alone.
it hit you like a ton of bricks as you realized how many things would change. No more waking up early and sneaking off to chloe’s house in the middle of the night, Hearing her complain about david’s antics that day before she would listen to you rant about your day, no more watching the sunrises and the sunsets together it was all gone.
As you sat on the cold feeling bench, all alone as you stared at the sky you could feel the tears heating up in your eyes. Was she really gone? surely this was a bad dream. Maybe you would wake up and she would be next to you on the comfort of the bench.
You hadn't come to terms with the whole idea of Chloe being dead, it didn't seem right in a way. Yes, she was reckless but the thought of her being dead was just something that made your mind spin and your throat get dry.
The days leading up to her funeral were absolute pure hell. You spent most of your days looking at the photos of you two that you had saved on your phone. You tried to smoke but the feeling was weird without her. You forced yourself to go dress shopping with Joyce to bond some more. Yesterday you slept all day in her bed, clinging at the sheets that started to smell more like you then her.
her bed. cold and empty. Her body wasn't there to keep it warm, and you were left with a broken heart as the tears pooled down your face when you laid in her bed.
You looked down at your watch as you took in a deep breath, nearly it was time. You stood up from the bench before jumping at the sight of Max standing there.
"Sorry! You looked so peaceful, and I didn't wanna disturb you" she said while you gave her a sad smile. You knew a good thing or two about Max due to Chloe talking about her a couple of times. She always sounded so excited to talk about when Max when would come back.
"It's okay, I was just about to leave. I'm assuming you're also going...to the funeral" You say while looking down at your shoes. Max nodded before taking in a deep breath. "I feel bad for not being here all this time." Max said as she turned to look at the sky.
"Chloe used to think you left her and would never come back for her. but I always told her to have some hope and one day you would show up" You said.
if only Chloe could find out Max was here all this time. The two of you stood in silence as you started at the sky. "We should go soon" Max spoke up as she placed a gentle hand onto your shoulder. You looked at her with a gentle nod as the two of you made your way down from the lighthouse.
You offered to drive Max since you had recently gotten Chloe's truck. She always said that if one day something happened to her, she wanted you to get the truck. It was weird to sit in the seat the both of you guys once ate food, talked and napped in.
It stilled had the smell of her cheap cigarettes, The sound of her laughing and overall, everything about her. touching the wheel was weird. you broke down into tears when you first sat in the truck the day you got it and took a nap in it just like the two of you used to do.
You told max small things about Chloe as you drove the both of you to the cemetery. The way you spoke about Chloe made Max realize that even when she was gone, Chloe had someone with her. as you neared the cemetery, you could see people slowly walk up the hill.
You felt hot, you wanted to pull off and leave but you knew Chloe would want you to be there. You parked her truck as turned it off before sitting there and collecting yourself. Max gave your shoulder a gentle squeeze as she opened the truck door and climbed out.
You took in a deep breathe before opening the door and stepping out. Slamming the door as you took tiny steps. You couldn't bring yourself to even think about the fact you were about to bury your girlfriend.
It didn't seem real. It couldn't be real. Max took your hand and gently guided you. Each crunch of gravel brought you back to reality. This was really happening, you were about to your final goodbyes to a box.
You had zoned out that you didn't even realize how close you were until you saw Joyce and David. You looked over before your bottom lip started to shake and quiver. That casket held your girlfriend. You wanted to cry but barely any tears came out.
Joyce instantly noticed you as she frowned and opened her arms wide for you. You gently let go of Maxs hand before crashing into Joyce as the Tears finally fell overboard. You sobbed in her arms, you couldn't hear anything, not a single peep from anyone. you wanted this to be over.
You sat on the ground next to her gravestone. Everyone else left to go to Joyce's for a repast. "I'm so mad at you" you said, Voice raspy from the crying. "I told you shouldn't be doing all this dumb shit" You added while leaning your head on the stone. It was silent again as the only sound being the birds chirping and the crunch of grass from squirrels hopping across the land.
You used to watch and feed squirrels with Chloe whenever you brought trail mix with you. "David never told me how you died...but i found out eventually. Fucking Prescott I don't think I'll ever forgive him for what he did." You said while balling your hands into fists as you shook your head.
"And then Rachel...oh god. You never found out but...I'm sure wherever you are...the two of you are together." You said with a small smile before it dropped as you brought your knees to your chest and rested your head on top of them.
A blue butterfly fluttered down, landing right on the tip of your shoe. You payed no attention to the insect as you checked your watch. You should head over to Joyce's...but you also didn't wanna leave. your eyes looked at the sunset, the bright orange and pinks clashing together. "We never watched the sunsets together...only the sunrises..."
You smiled as you unballed your hands, placing them on the ground as you slightly rock your knees side to side, The butterfly flying off your shoe and instead landing on the gravestone.
"Hey Chloe...I'll always come down here...and we can watch the sunrise together still. Just like old times" you said while looking at the gravestone before placing a hand on it, patting it and putting your hand back down. You sighed before standing up.
You looked at her one last time before blowing a kiss towards the grave before making your way down to where you left the truck.
You made sure that every day you went down to her grave. sometimes you would get caught up with work or even finding it hard to get out of bed in the morning, but you always made an effort to see her in the morning.
You would sit down and tell her your plans, then would light a blunt or cigarette depending on how you felt that morning before sitting in silence as you watched the sun come up.
Once you were done, you stand up, blow her a kiss goodbye and make your way back to the truck. You never changed anything about it. You slowly came to terms with her being gone. You made new friends, helped Joyce out at the diner and grew closer to max. But you never started to date anyone again.
You barely thought about dating anyone else as you couldn't see yourself with anyone but Chloe, nobody could give you what she gave you.
you always looked for Chloe in the sunrises, knowing she made them pretty just for you.
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