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[stanleighhh]

I just wanna be part of the middle class. it's actually so depressing...

[stanleighhh]

I miss you. I think of you when I pass by the areas we strolled through when you were with me. As we held hands walking home that night... It was so magical at the time...

[stanleighhh]

Stay by my side.

Ever since this drama debuted, I have felt nothing but joy. From it's unconventional concept, wholesome energy, to it's very attractive leads. I haven't been this happy about something in a long time.

[stanleighhh]

[stanleighhh]

I'm just trying to find someone who I can look at and feel the need to just rest my head on their shoulder. To be so into someone to only see them in the room. To smile when you think of them. I thought I did, but both of them ruined me.... I hate it.

[stanleighhh]

When you're just casually at work being productive and your emotional baggage just hits you... But you gotta remain professional...

[stanleighhh]

If I can find a cute guy that I'm not mutuals with... Please and thank you 😮‍💨🥺

Like why do you follow literally everyone I fking know and I doubt you even talk to them on a regular. I'm so turned off at the sight of "followed by J...L..."

[stanleighhh]

Moments during my day I suddenly pause and stare blankly with these intrusive thoughts....

You made my heart feel so cheap.

My emotions were so expendable.

You made me feel like an after thought.

Even though I was so good to you...

It was so easy for you to do it like it was nothing

Winnipeg men are so awful to me - You and Him.

And.... then I zone back right in and carry on after.

[stanleighhh]

I remember when we talked about that topic... When you asked me that question... Even though it wasn’t anything signifcant, an FAQ really. I remember where it was, and when and how your curiousity showed. It was one of those things that I wasn’t very open about in comparison to everything else. I responded with something along the lines of not wanting to talk about it. Something you dont hear often from me... Rather much more from you...  

winnipeg men really are awful. You and him. 

[stanleighhh]

Nick names just stick with you... Stann, little Stan...

[stanleighhh]

I make really poor decisions if I get emotional... Impulsive really. Ones that I know I'd regret. Boundaries that I swear I'd never cross.

The same way people make poor decisions when they're intoxicated but they're just under the influence.

[stanleighhh]

When you're only spicy when you're in your feels. 😮‍💨

[stanleighhh]

I feel so disgusted with myself after these incidents after thinking it would solve anything. Honestly I need therapy.

[stanleighhh]

Tbh. I've been on an emotional rollercoaster since last Thursday. I was brave and frustrated for Thursday and Friday. Then Saturday-Monday I tearing up at the thought of you. Tuesday, I'm feeling a little rage and confrontational and impulsive but overall still tearing up thinking about you.

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04/16/2023 - 17:05

I don’t wanna be that person when you come to my city and you would just have dinner with me to catch up. I also don’t want it to be a reminiscing session. I wanna be that person that plans a whole day of fun activities that we would do together. I wanna make new experiences and add ever lasting memories. I’m selfish. I want all your time or none. I saw how it was with you and your other friends. I don’t want that at all. 

[stanleighhh]

I don't ever wanna think about you or talk to you ever again. If you really want my company, then sure I'll give you a moment. You'd really have to convince me why you deserve that moment.