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so like.. i have no idea what iโm doin itโs been eight decades since iโve smelled the air of the tumblr rp world ( we wont discuss my brief love affair with twit rp i think of her like a bad ex. NPDCONSDC ) and charlie is still a work in progress truly so please bear with me.. also english is my second language and i donโt have it in school anymore so if anything is phrased weird pls disregard OCNPSDC oh and iโm naj. letโs dive in my dudes.
charlie is notoriously ambitious and puts everything she has into her modeling career and therefore also prioritizes it over silly (in her opinion) things like love, claiming itโs too time consuming but thereโs more to it than that (will get back to this). in regards to modeling, she fell in love with it as a little girl when she would accompany her dad to work ( who is a world famous photographer ). she would be allowed in the dressing rooms and backstage at fashion shows, and started to idolize the models. it seemed like the natural path she was supposed to take, it felt right.
initially, when at the age of 16, charlie worked up the courage to tell her father she wanted to be a model, he was against it. it cut them both deeply, seeing as he had always supported her in anything she did, but his hopes for her were just different. heโd seen how girls were treated in the industry and he didnโt want that to happen to charlie. he knew there was no stopping her when she put her mind to something, but the disappointment in his face is still something charlie will never be able to shake.
although deep down she knows itโs probably futile and that her father will always feel the same way,ย she wants to prove she can be the best and that her choice was worth. which is why she works so hard and often forgets to take care of herself as well as she should.
she also developed a love for photography early on but ultimately hides it, seeing as she knows sheโll never live up to her fathers talent and fame in this area, so sheโd rather not be in his shadow. posts pictures online anonomously, when she can seem to find the time.ย
charlies mother ( a famous model at the time ) died during childbirth, she was mourned deeply but charlie never truly felt the loss because she never knew or met her. her mothers mother stepped in and helped her father raise her, so the motherly figure was always there. she would always hear stories about her mother and idolized the idea of her as a teen, hung up some of her pictures etc. but ultimately she had a loving and kind upbringing with two step-siblings rolling around as she turned 13. she frequently sends them small gifts and letters, but would never tell a soul outside her family that she cares deeply for them.
has always had a knack for winning arguments and discussions, would probably be a lawyer if she hadnโt found passion in the modeling industry. it probably lies in the fact that she wants to stand tall and confident, but has cut corners in the past:
at the age of eighteen, slept with someone to land a really important brand deal that put her on the map, and has led to her massive fame at this point in time. itโs still a complete secret and charlie keeps telling herself itโs no big deal, that itโs just sex. but she truly feels differently and itโs slowly eating at her. she probably also puts everything she has into her work just to not think about it and feel like she has still earned her spot fairly.
in regards to love and relationships, she hasnโt allowed herself to be in one since that happened. she will tell people she just doesnโt like getting caught up with people and forget her work, but really she has begun a path of self-loathing that she cannot get off, and deep down doesnโt believe sheโs worthy of it. that she has screwed up too hard to be loved.ย ย
is very consequental and wont stand for bullshit. if youโre not straight up with her, sheโll feel like her time is being wasted and thereโs nothing she hates more than having her time wasted. the people who do get close to charlie, will sometimes feel like itโs a battle, seeing as she will continue to push away affection, but a few have managed to crack this shell and get to the core, which is so warm and loving you wouldnโt believe itโs the same person.ย isnโt mean towards people she hasnโt let in, just keeps them at arms length and doesnโt really give them much to work with in regards to getting closer to her.
IM LIKE.. PASSING OUT NODCPCONDS thereโs more to her but this is all i can muster rn and surely gives yall a good idea of her.. idk i always kind of develop my characters on the go so i also donโt wanna lock her in more than this, but if thereโs something you want to know more about pls ask iโll feel out what i think is right for her.. pls plot with me even though iโm basically a born again rp virgin COPNDDNSC
