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lately ive been feeling extra hopeless about having debilitating anxiety and not even being able to leave my house the majority of the time for years on end

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theres this spot behind my ear that started swelling a bit and i currently wish for nothing more than a total loss of all ability to feel pain because i so very much want to just take a blade and cut it open so whatever weird fluid collection nonsense my body is doing right there can stop immediately. for reasons explained in depth in my personal wikipedia page in my head i would rather not have this be a doctor visit sort of issue :/

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rewatching mononoke and while i do enjoy it i wish i actually understood symbolism and metaphor beyond things that are blatantly obvious cuz despite being able to tell whats going on i dont feel like i really "get it" if im just taking things at face value

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my drill has been totally stuck for a while but after unscrewing it and opening it up then deciding there was nothing i could do and putting it back together its fine?

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deep cleaning my vacuum to keep myself occupied while theres a bunch of people in my house and theres like years worth of caked on dirt & dust around the rolling brush on the bottom + the hose area leading from it and im doing everything i can to avoid getting things wet to clean it but i may have no choice since it doesnt seem to be made to be disassembled for that u_u

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tried baked quesadilla and the taste is serviceable but the texture is off and its sooooooo crumbly. while that is probably avoidable with different preparation its presently killing the vibe of this meal time

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i find myself increasingly often wishing i were "normal" despite in my experience at least normal people are still quite miserable. i guess i want some of the "useful person" attributes that come with living "normally" as while i try often painfully to be useful as far as my circumstances allow i know my existence is more burdensome than not and i suppose i have a selfish desire to have actual value to the world around me so that i might feel good about my own worth as a person

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whenever i see stuff about trans women in sports i feel like im going insane because people make all sorts of arguments about unfair genetic advantages or whatever when the only way youre actually avoiding that is by having all the players be clones and like i think the truly most important reason that none of that stuff even matters is because sports are a game and if youre going to pretend that any sort of trait a player possesses that causes them to not be exactly average by every measureable degree means they win automatically you may as well have no one play at all and just give everyone a stat sheet to look at and decide who wins there

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i was going to attempt the battle tower but after the first 7 matches i was already bored and my interest in competitive pokemon is nonexistent so i think im pretty done with the game. after finishing it im still of the opinion theyre overall disappointing remakes

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All congratulations screens from Super Smash Bros. Melee that feature characters related to the Mario franchise, extracted from the game's files (please zoom in to view details).

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thinking the finalized team will be smth like:

crobat

honchcrow

togekiss

skuntank

pachirusu

gyarados

the last is probably the most filler of the 6 but i cant decide between gallade or roserade to take that spot

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i ended up switching gyarados for blissey but what im noticing with my options is theres a severe lack of Funny Little Guys as team options

[stardustspeedwayzoneact2]

thinking the finalized team will be smth like:

crobat

honchcrow

togekiss

skuntank

pachirusu

gyarados

the last is probably the most filler of the 6 but i cant decide between gallade or roserade to take that spot

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i think im feeling very sad over things i cant change and i know i shoudlnt but even without the constant reminders i dont think i could change how im affected mentally

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having what is maybe a minor Mental Health Occurrence and ive decided to restart pokemon brilliant diamond(with the intention of finishing this time no matter how peeved i get). hopefully the familiarity/disappointment with help soothe/piss me off into a state of lucidity

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having extra trouble sleeping recently and while not directly related to the constant feeling of an impending tragedy i think that feeling may be contributing its own seperate share of sleep difficulty

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thinking of playing fe echoes again just to listen to some of the music

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i cant wait for the weather to be cold and gray again