Lost in the darkness that's my mind

Somethings just happen for a reason, whether you like it or not. (20's, she/her, INFP, 2w3)

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This is blog is mostly composed of my darker side, in terms of my headspace that is, it's also a hodge podge of anime, quotes and my own works and some sprinkling of Kpop here and there

The other is where I post my fanfic 🖋️

You can call me Dar or Nyx whichever you prefer send me a message here or my other blog.

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...2 mugs of coffee, a couple of cookies and roughly 3 bites of rice..

Shit..its starting again😖

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Hmm 🤔 disappointments come in many forms, got ghosted by the guy I liked since he didn't like the way I looked.

Cried for a bit, but then focused on my friend's homecoming next week.

So to cheer myself up, I had my nails done after 3 months from it breaking 😊

I have man hands when my nails aren't long lol

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I slept in for about an hour today, and every time I do, it's cause i've been dreaming about people that I love and care for dying due to getting sick or getting into accidents or what not.

In my dream earlier, I asked myself, if this was the truth or not..fantasy and reality is beginning to mix in my mind.

Now I'm not sure if they are dead or not

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My anxiety has been acting up for quite some time now and my nails took most of the visible damage since any length I have would immediately be bitten off (I have had nail biting as on of many coping me hs for my stressors, which I finally realized)

My nephew saw me doing it while spacing out and he went and tapped them up since they've been bitten to knubs and are very very close to breaking skin..

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Me having an impromptu concert with myself as the audience 🙂

I feel happy? I get bored staring at the screen for a long time watch the names go by lol

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It's 4:30 and sleep is just not coming to me :( I didn't even drink a drop of coffee today what the heck?!

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When your cold turns to a fever and your tooth just randomly starts hurting again..in time with your fever..

Like hell >,< I wanna be in bed resting rather then up and about running errands

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this hit home soooo effin close especially these days where the urge pops in my head a couple of times a day and the number of plans I've been making in my head is unreal

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Fucking stupid 😭😭😭

I just wanted to eat dumplings with chili sauce 😭😭

But my tummy didn't want it and now I'm sick 😢💯

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Me going back to genshin like I didn't leave for months lol

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Pfft 🤭

My sister says I have a slight addiction..idk what she means tbh 🙄.

It's perfectly normal imo.

They're all very pretty

My "addiction" under the cut. Excuse my thumb...im still growing my nails out 💔

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......i dunno what's with me today but I've been watching nothing but top 10 vids..but the catch is its all creepy stuff 💀

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Ehehe 😅

Life has been worrisome this pass few weeks, with a lot of things happening, people coming and going, anxieties coming to reality...I've been doing my best to not let them bog me down, I've been compensating with whatever and whoever but when plush calls...plush calls 😅 💸 💸 ohh!! And Crystals and about hmmm 6 or 7 rings 😂😂

The waiting game begins yet again 😍😂

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I got forced into actively using my untouched discord account since my best friend hates how her messager updated 😐

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The fact that I have to draft up a break up text to my ex's mom is both laughable and weird.

*sigh* I had so much respect for this woman but the way she guilttrips me into getting back with her son is too much.

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