Learning to Cope

This blog is my way of learning to live with my depression and anxiety through quotes, nerdy pictures, and writings of my own.

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Nikita Gill, from “Great Goddesses: Life Lessons from Myths & Monsters,”

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Dropping shit I don't need in my life, like a bad habit.

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“Abusers don’t abuse every day. They have good moments. Days when they do the right things. Moments when they say the correct words. when this happens, the key is to remember that it is just an abuser having a good day, but still an abuser based on all the other days.”

— Shannon Thomas

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Speechless

I have so much I want to say to so many people. Yet I feel stuck. Cut off. In a word: speechless. I'm screaming inside, but can't muster up the courage to say any of it out loud. Why don't I say any of it? No one will listen.

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I Don't Know

I don't know what I want. I don't know what I want you to do.

At least...that's what I say.

I know exactly what I want.

I want a lot of things.

I also know I can't have any of them.

I won't ask for what I know is just a pipe dream meant for someone else.

I want things that just seem impossible, but they shouldn't be.

I want to be able to communicate, but when I've tried it fell on deaf ears.

Actions. Actions speak volumes more than words ever could.

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Heaven Help...

Those around me when I finally decide to stop accepting the short end of the stick.

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He gave superpowers to every outcast kid that read his comics. He gave us origin stories and alternative endings, multiple universes and infinite outcomes.

He was an outspoken advocate of equality and of the value of comics as an art form.

Out of all his characters, he was the greatest superhero.

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I Don't Know How to Stop It.

The feeling inside keeps building and building.

I try to express myself to someone who says I can, but it doesn't change anything.

They just make it worse.

I can feel it building in the pit of my stomach.

Rising and rising.

I don't know if I can stop it.

Maybe I don't want to stop.

Maybe the monster needs to be unleashed.

Maybe then I'll be taken seriously.

Maybe then they'll actually listen.

I don't know how to stop the anger.

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Priorities

It's becoming more and more clear to me that no one in my life is going to make me their top priority. I honestly can't remember the last time someone put me or my needs first over something or someone else. Hell, I don't even do it for myself. I try to take care of everything and everyone else first. I will sacrifice what I want if I know stating it will negatively affect someone else. I put my own needs on the back burner while I try to make others happy. Just once I wish someone would do that for me. JUST ONCE.

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#peoplealwaysleave #amithereason #oth #aloneandhurt

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Just Once

Just once, I would love to have a supervisor that actually believed in me.

Just once, I wish I could actually tell my supervisor what I'm thinking without fear of retribution.

Just once, I wish that I didn't dread going to work.

Just once, I wish that I didn't have to drag myself out of bed because of that dread.

Just once, I wish I had someone else to confide in at work without fear that my supervisor would eventually hear what I said.

Just once, I wish someone else would give me a chance.

Just once, I wish I was given the same opportunity as others.

Just once is all I'm asking for. I don't think that's too much. You might be surprised at what I can actually achieve.

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— i can’t escape myself // k.s.

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Book of the day: The Light Between Oceans by M.L. Stedman

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