☆starrie.loser☆

!!minor!! js silly guy who likes stars

[starryl0ver]

Introduction X)

name: starrie, val don't rly have a preference

i don't rly have any preferred pronouns call me whatever<3

I'm an enfp :}

aro/ace RAAAAAH

Stuff i like/fandoms: anime, music specifically ptv waterparks, lndh, mitski, Greek mythology, writing poetry, tbhk, graphic novels, school bus graveyard (webcomic)

I like blue and stars mostly OH and snoopy

i wanna get into more fandoms like pjo buut i never find the motivation to lol

i'll try and be more active cuz i rly want to be but I'm not used to using tumblr all that much BUT I WILL TRY

[kadiumz]

Hatsnoopy Miku🎶

[ghostieblog]

AROMANTICS

IKEA ACCIDENTALLY MADE PRIDE FLAG BLANKET

(Not sponsored or anything just thought it was a neat coincidence!)

:O!

[starryl0ver]

I WANT THIS SO BADLY LIKS I NEEEEED IT

[starryl0ver]

so i built my first Lego ever (it was the chrysanthemum one) and it was actually so stimulating and fun like b4 this I'd call my friend who reaalllyy likes Legos a nerd but....i understand him now

[starryl0ver]

i tend to think back on what i thought my first real crush was. i was at a family friend's quince and one of the guests table was in front of mine, i saw him walk in and i thought it was a mind crushing experience. i became so infatuated with him and i thought "truly this is was a crush would feel like" legit could not stop staring but there were never those "butterflies" i just thought he was so beautiful and handsome. i think now it was my first encounter with gender envy lol, like i wanted to be him. i wanted to dress like him, i wanted to give off the energy he gave off. i admired him and still do so dearly. i feel like now especially i know who i am and I'm I'm aromantic but that one "encounter" felt like there was a chance i wasn't. what it was then was admiration and envy if anything but i do still hope to see him one day

[starryl0ver]

i just remembered a while after techno's death i was rly struggling to sleep like smth I've never experienced b4 and while i was scrolling mindlessly thru yt i found a video of him talking abt Greek mythology. something about that video not only knocked me out after a while but my head felt so clear, i never rly watched him during my dsmp phase but after it was over I'd find myself playing that same video while doing hw and whatnot. it was a really nice feeling for a while and still is now

[jermafan2003]

an excerpt from a conversation with my partner i thought was funny :3

[starryl0ver]

i rly hate when ppl stereotype aro/aces, like calling aros heartless or aces inhuman. it honestly messed me up mentally cuz my sister labeled them as psychos. there were times i felt so lost and ik i wasted so much time by pushing away these feelings and not embracing it sooner. if I'm being honest reading abt others experiences and the positivity made me feel so secure abt my identity and i rly don't know where id be if i kept myself shut and alone :} i think this would be the first real time i felt comfortable with saying I'm aromantic. just your reminder that you're valid for who u are

[starryl0ver]

there are two wolves inside of you...one is singing 'should've been me' and the other is singing 'once more to see you' by mitski . i rest my case

[starryl0ver]

miku can fix me.

[starryl0ver]

when "once more to see you" by our beloved mitski hits so hard you start to feel a visceral backhanded slap to the face

[starryl0ver]

when you start actually tweaking cuz ur Spotify blend percentages start going much lower than what they usually were

[starryl0ver]

i can't keep lying to myself SU songs go so hard and FOR WHAT?? like 'drit away' starts playing? throwing myself out the window. "It's over isn't it?" starts playing, throwing. myself. out. the. window. mfing "here comes a thought " starts playing? THROWING. MYSELF.OUT THE. WINDOW. like how can i act nonchalant and mysterious when these absolute bangers are playing in my headphones UGH I CAN'T.

(the term "throwing myself out the window" isn't supposed to be smth negative, to me it's a positivity overwhelming feeling yk and all them songs give me that)

[starryl0ver]

i don't think anything can compare to how 'CLOSER' made me feel. when i heard the song for the first time i felt something in me change, the viewpoint of relationships and whatnot made me feel so understood. it was such a positivity overwhelming feeling ive never experienced before. and when i first heard it live i felt complete. on another note, ever since my first listen I've headcanoned the song as aromantic coded but that might be me

[starryl0ver]

the peak of a friendship(at least for me) is making a music blend w them/showing our music taste to one another. sometimes i feel like showing someone my music is a form of vulnerability js cuz music is such a deep and important part of my life and overall shaped me as a person

[starryl0ver]

everyday I'm reminded of my love for pierce the veil, they are quite literally the best thing to ever happen to me

[starryl0ver]

rip intellectual property, it'll be missed

(if i feel up to it ill possibly post my analysis on the album, its imagery and the chronological order of each song lore wise)