This is mainly a fandom blog but sometimes i reblog serious posts about real events so just be aware of that.
(i realized I haven't said this yet but i tag 18+ posts with suggestive, nsfw or nsfw text so just be aware if i post anything of those matters and filter them with those tags if you want)
I don't want terfs, proshippers or radqueers on my blog I'm sorry
I used to draw a lot over the years but i only recently started posting art here.
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More under cut:
Some of my current interests are:
• Object shows (I've watched hfjone, BFDI, Inanimate insanity, 5sos, bean's show, The nightly manor, Love of the s*n, It's time for the, Animatic battle, showvember, excellent entities, ppt2, object invasion, object lockdown, the daily object show, korfc, battle for pincode, BFNIF, Twilight orchards, battle for circle, the infamous object show, OAC, bfpor, EOS, OBC, ORBIT, etc.) (i watched a bit of cfmot but i stopped.)
• pmmm
• pokemon
• cookie run ovenbreak
• yume nikki
• kirby
• legend of zelda
• a hat in time
• undertale
• deltarune
• splatoon
• collinlock16 continuity
• Minecraft
• Little goody two shoes
• great god grove
• Ib
Etc. (i might've forgotten some)
• 13 cards
• precure
Some tags for references:
#moonlight rambles: where i talk about stuff
#starry's art: where i post stuff
@starrysgachaocarchival <-my gacha oc account
Just be respectful and treat me like a human being even if you disagree with my opinions please
trans poc, please i beg of you get transition inspo of people with your ethnicity
i was incredibly dysphoric about my round face and softer features until i started looking at the faces of hispanic men and realized that those features weren’t feminine at all, they were ethnic features white supremacy had conditioned me to see as less masculine
your ethnic features are beautiful, and you do not need to look european to look masculine or feminine
Shoutout to my First Nations bitches. May your Resting Indigenous Face strike fear into the hearts of white people, who will now worry they said/did something racist.
They should invent a cry for help that has zero negative effects on anybody and also that makes everyone treat you like a little animal in a cardboard box. But everyone’s cool with it because you’re a cute little animal and not an adult human that needs to get their shit together to stay alive
nyways i dont wanna think abt tpot 24 but to establish how its rewritten in my head for future ref
-pencils behavior in loops is Very Strange.shes notably paranoid, clingier n moodier, she often fawns heavily bc now shes realized she was the problem shes terrified of being it again, but this desperation has her rejection sensitivity n persecutory beliefs worsened by a 100, so ironically her issues w assuming things n overreacting r worse, shes V prone to panic n impulse looping bc even a slight joke remark can make her spiral shes losing control n therefore everyone bc everyone hates her n she sucks n she deserves it n she needs to restart bc she screwed up
-she DOES have a lot of moments where she yells or acts too angry, n the issue focused on here (since tpot 19 already did her learning this is bad) is she panic loops immediately, this is bc she has no reference how to actually improve or apologize, the concept of that doesnt even exist to her bc she cs her anger issues as unforgivable if she doesnt find a way to erase them but not only is that not possible, she doesnt understand where they come from.shes trying to improve while barely understanding her own fears or herself or how relantionships Actually work.bc 2026 bfdi is obsessed w parallels this can be a nod to early tpot book not knowing what to do w herself or others anymore.me when i learn im the problem but the way it went was so harsh idk what to actually do w myself bc ik im the issue, but how do i change.i dont understand why im like this i just am.idk how else to exist.i just dont want to be alone again.
-i think the timeloop should rly have focused also on like.a pencil whos developed past benefiting from freesmart having to face how bad it actually was.fs shouldnt stand around helplessly n sad they should like.Actually react n by that i mean not care enough.i want pencil to stare at her old safety haven in the face n think "why do you let me hurt you?" EVERYONE in fs wanted a safe space from their abandonment fears, so they all enabled "never leave, never fight, n we can all be happy", i want pencils development to actively include her realizing she not only needs to learn letting go but also specifically what shes trying to go back to doesnt exist, bc it was always hurting all of them
-also mandatory ptsd i think she should have moments where shes Off or refusing to do things bc they remind her of the exit n everyones raising an eyebrow.this is just exit food bc tpot 24 is playing pretend it didnt happen save for like.2 scenes
-only non pencil fix can the moon guys actually look uncomfortable theyre w 4.it doesnt have to be a fight can they just actually look at least a bit inconvenienced theyre trapped w that guy.yall hated that mf a week ago what happened
-i think after accepting she needs to let go n the fs she remembered just wasnt real n everyone moved on for a good reason, she should Not try seeking out match, actually i think she should avoid her, shes faced n accepted she was the problem n she needs to learn let go but she hasnt faced her issues w "everyone hates me" r she struggles w a fear of rejection, n that making a mistake wont make ppl leave you forever, i DO like the core alliance trying to be better together its just i want pencil to actually struggle w her tpot 17 claims everyone must hate her now n her tpot 19 discovery she hurt them.i want her to be sooo fucking scared theyre there to yell at her they hate her too.i want match to find her n pencil to genuinely apologize but w a "ok now you can yell at me or go idk just Go" attitude.ALSO OH MY GODDD ADDRESS THE BUBBLE IN THE ROOMMM her hurting bubble is what kickstarted this whole arc 7 years ago !!! i want bubble to v firmly go "you hurt me" n THEN say she wants to try again if pencils willing to change bc she wants to give her another chance bc she knows she can be better.i want this to be a thing of the alliance reunion being abt "you did do that.you absolutely did that.i still want to help you in SPITE of that bc ik we were all struggling n you can be better", icebook leaving is abt pencil accepting ppl Can Leave n you cant stop them, the timeloop n the alliances absence is her learning she cant cling on forever even more, n the core alliance comeback is her learning abt her issues coming from feeling ppl leaving or doing smth wrong will be eternal n how that Also isnt how it works.she needs to learn ppl can leave but also often its just not forever.she cannot understand either or tell the difference n thats where all this came from.she needs to understand how often misunderstandings n feeling hurt arent from ill intentions n a "1 mistake its all over" kinda deal.please can we teach my autophobic writing utensil nuance n forgiveness including towards herself.n no srly address the bubble in the room man.
