What sort of nsfw things are you excited to indulge in, now that you're able to? Have you ever considered opening a kink sideblog? Those are rlly fun on here :)
Yknow I’ve been wanting to write down my experiences because I think it’s nice to remember the people who I let inside my body lol
As someone who is self experienced but not as experienced with others, it’s interesting to see how these situations play out and how they make me feel, so that’s why I wanna write them down.
As for what I want to indulge in? Oh my gosh, what don’t I want to indulge in?? Lol, I strongly believe that I would try anything once.
Also, if I do ever open a kink sideblog, you’ll never know it’s me 😈
hey dude. I’ve heard how you’ve been going through some mental stuff and I’m super sorry. It just baffles me how somebody could look at their romantic partner drawing Nsfw stuff and think “oh they’re cheating!” Like with what?? A tablet?? There’s nothing wrong with drawing NSFW, becuz you’re a grown adult and you can do what you want. In my opinion, even if you do draw non-con stuff, that’s just what you do. You don’t deserve death and rape threats that are constantly thrown your direction 24/7, because you can draw that stuff without supporting it. I hope you’re doing okay with whatever has been happening in your life🫂❤️
Hi, you are so sweet for sending this message to me ❤️
It wasn’t the drawings that bothered him, or me drawing porn. It was the fact that I would talk about nsfw art and nsfw ideas to someone who was another man
The fact that I talked to another man bothered him and made him go as far as to accuse me of cheating on him. And then he decided we can’t work it out, so he left me.
BUT THEN
He actually ended up reading my messages and found out I was fucking another guy, and got SO pissed off he moved all his shit out within 3 days (give or take the piles of random clothes and crap he still needs to grab)
He’s like “I still loved you!” And “you couldn’t have waited until we moved out??”
One, I am SINGLE NOW. YOU broke up with ME. WHY DO YOU THINK I WANT YOU AFTER YOU TOLD ME YOU NO LONGER LOVED ME??
Two, I wasn’t fucking him in the damn apartment, and I was trying to be courteous about it, he decided to go searching for a reason to be upset with me.
He wanted validation, he got it. He’s convinced I cheated on him, and that I moved on as soon as we broke up, but that’s far from the truth. I never cheated on him, never even considered it. And I have been grieving for MONTHS before he told me he doesn’t think we can make it work. He accused me in March and we canceled the wedding, and the night before my wedding would’ve been, he dumped me. AM I FUCKING WRONG FOR MOVING ON?!
Sorry I just needed to vent LOL
Whatever the case may be, I am safe, and SO much happier already than I have been, and I already know I’m gonna have a fun summer 😘
Also as for the threats and whatever from random anons, it honestly just makes me laugh. It’s hilarious that someone took the time to say that to me lol
I’ll keep it under here for the people who don’t wanna read LOL
So more or less a life update. As some of you may know, I was engaged to marry my fiance who I have been with in an 8 year long relationship on May 31st.
Unfortunately, back in March, we had a conversation and he decided that the way I communicated with people who were male (especially since I am a woman who draws nsfw art) was seen as cheating. He couldn’t move past it, and the night before our wedding would’ve been (it was canceled back in March so it wouldn’t have happened anyway), he broke it off.
At that point, I’ve been left in the dark for more than 2 months trying to figure out if this man still loved me. I was just as hurt and confused as he was and never felt like I had the right to be upset about it, since my actions were the cause of this. But as time goes on, and as people start to tell me the truth, I realize how much I wasn’t treated the way I wanted. (I would say the way I deserve, but I’m not there yet). I realize that I never had any connection to anyone romantically, and if he got that upset about me talking to a friend, then the problem isn’t me.
We have a month and a half left of our lease. It’s been awkward to say the least. Living with him and still sleeping in the same bed. It’s almost like he still wants to be friends, but I really don’t know if I can be his friend after everything we’ve been though.
I will be honest. Judging by my nsfw art, you guys know I’ve got a particularly kinky mindset. I’ve had the same fetishes since I was 12 (of course more grew on but the stuff I’ve always liked, I never wanted to hide) and while my ex was okay with indulging in some of them, most of the ones he would indulge in only benefit him and his pleasure, not so much my own.
And so, I do what every desperate kinky person does and look for communities or people I can trust to introduce myself into the community (because the kinkiest thing I’ve done was little space and roleplaying cnc, never even tied me up.) but I am bright eyed and bushy tailed at the thought of being apart of community I only ever dreamed of.
I posted on Reddit on my towns page about kink groups and got a message from a guy who has had experience, and we basically instantly hit it off. He’s been satisfying my cravings and we haven’t even met a whole two weeks.
I feel like I’ve been missing this my entire life, and I’m actually really grateful things had happened the way they did, because I did feel like I was settling and changing myself to be someone my ex would prefer. But being myself, and indulging in my kinks with someone has never made me feel more freeing.
I just wanted to share, because I feel like I never had the chance to be in depth with my life, especially my sexual side. I’ve always been positive about sex and I felt like being in the relationship with my ex made me feel wrong for wanting it.
Thank you for coming to my ted talk. Feel free to ask me ANYTHING because I’m an open book and have no more restrictions
There could still be tickets available! I was surprised my local theatre still has plenty of showings open right now, but its up to you what you wanna do
I think I missed the window, but I will wait patiently for the YouTube release. Maybe I’ll stream it too?
There could still be tickets available! I was surprised my local theatre still has plenty of showings open right now, but its up to you what you wanna do
I think I missed the window, but I will wait patiently for the YouTube release. Maybe I’ll stream it too?
oh thats awful :( i'm so sorry you're going through this. however you feel like coping, whether its posting/privately creating more for distraction or if you need to take a break from stuff, just let yourself feel out how you need to grieve and know there's not a wrong way to do it. it can't be easy to say the least but i hope you are able to go easy on yourself and find some sort of peace 🌱
Hey Jay, sorry we weren't able to chat as much. I heard news about what you've been dealing with recently. If you ever need to reach out and chat I'm open. I'll support ya.
<3 thank you Omnii. I hope things are going okay for you, I appreciate you being supportive ❤️
oh no im so sorry! its not easy and its a lot to go through, but I hope you can find some strength, support and motivation outside the relationship to help keep you going. You do deserve to feel happy and at peace. Easier said than done but you really do deserve it ❤️ vent it out however you need to.
thank you <3 I've been distracting myself with work and family mostly. everything now is just so unknown it's just too much mentally.
