Just another confused system

Bodily 17 (2008) || Endos DNI || they/he

[starschoir-sys]

Welcome to the Stars' Choir !

This is a DID focused sideblog for @dukeoftears that serves as a journal of sorts in order to allow me to safely explore how my mind works & the people within it. It also acts as a place for other alters to freely express themselves without needing to mask or pretend :)

I may go inactive on this account for long periods of time due to factors like denial, periods of low headspace activity & simply forgetting that I'm a system.

Our simplyplural is starschoir. We accept all frqs.

BEFORE YOU INTERACT:

♪ -- TERFs, radqueers & proshippers DNI ♪ -- I am anti endo. Endos DNI. I don't care for syscourse nor do I involve myself in ANY kind of system-related discourse. Please do not involve me in it. ♪ -- I am bodily a minor. ♪ -- Boundaries can vary from time to time, please be patient ♪ -- Do NOT refer to us as plural or multiple, please. ♪ -- I use we/us and I/me interchangably ♪ -- I don't often relate to system "culture" and while I'm kinda trying to mimic it here since I have no idea what else I should do for a sys blog, I can't keep track of alter count or fronting status or anything fancy like that.

[syscultureis]

System culture is learning youre a system and then forgetting and learning youre a system and forgetting and learning youre a system and forgetting and learning youre a system and forgetting and learning youre a system and forgetting and-

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[pocket-trinkets]

I swear to god every system I have ever interacted with very specifically has an alter who happens to be ALL of these:

adult-presenting

masculine-presenting

british

is a gatekeeper

at least mildly an asshole

has had an unreasonable amount of power within/over the system since the beginning of time

enjoys tea

[starschoir-sys]

yes

yes

American, not British

Yes

No, he was an absolute sweetheart

Yeah!

Yeppp

[starschoir-sys]

1x1x1x1 fictive who hates shedletsky not in a source memories way but in a "holder of the anger and hate we have for our abusers who are our parents" way and the easiest way to release that is to project it onto a fictional character who i feel i'm meant to hate anyways

[starschoir-sys]

Every time after we split I always get something I like to call "post-split system clarity". I'll know who's fronting, I'll know who is where, communication is easy and if I really, really try hard, I can make someone else front. It only lasts for around a week to a month though, depending on what caused the split and its severity. I'm always a little sad when it goes away. It's only in those moments I feel like a "real" system

[psychodipshit]

shout out to those alters that fronted once then dipped🙏🙏

[sugarcloud-syndicate]

been having that guilt gnaw at me of "Why am I splitting the characters that I hyperfixate on" and then have to remind myself that that's how our autism interacts with the DID

[starschoir-sys]

why did we just split? Nothing stressful's happened...

Edit: found out why. Oh my god. That's funny.

[starschoir-sys]

you know if I don't count the dormant alters and the fragments and the npcs then I have less than 10 alters and I'm pretty proud of that

[starschoir-sys]

this no longer applies :(

[oursystemblog]

Shout out to me and the other co-host who are going through the same crisis except in the opposite directions ("Oh no I'm used to stress how do I deal with daily life" vs "Oh no I'm used to daily life how do I deal with stress")

[dizzy-pops]

“People who claim to be endogenic are misinformed about the nature of systemhood, have most likely buried their traumatic childhood memories, and are usually not just faking” AND “I don’t want endos or their supporters anywhere fucking near me,” are statements that CAN and DO coexist, btw

[sysboxes]

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[syscultureis]

Sys culture is being a transmasc system using our gender neutral birth name is the name for all of us as a whole, while each individual alter have their own personal name that reflects who we are. Our birth name doesn't make us dysphoric, but it doesn't reflect us, so I decided to view this name as the body's name, not our personal name if that makes sense

-orange soda system

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[starschoir-sys]

you know if I don't count the dormant alters and the fragments and the npcs then I have less than 10 alters and I'm pretty proud of that

[starschoir-sys]

hi, we just wanted to say you're really cool and we'd love to be mutuals if you would! We adore your theme so much it's absolutely gorgeous

aaah I'd love to be mutuals!!! :D thank you so much <3 hehehe

[starschoir-sys]

I think we have an Aphrodite fragment. Oops.

[sysboxes]

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