The Syndicate

gonna be real, this interstate is NOT paved with memories right now

[sugarcloud-syndicate]

We are the Sugar Cloud Syndicate.

↪ We are a traumagenic system, discovered back in late 2020 to early 2021

↪ We are very introject heavy. Perks of autism, I guess??

↪ BODY WISE: We are 21+ ╰ If that makes you uncomfortable, please just kindly step away, feel free to block. We have no issues with that. <3 ╰ This blog will not be 18+ as we don't plan on making any NSFW content

↪ This blog is a safe space for us to talk about shit happening system wise. THIS DOES NOT INCLUDE DISCOURSE. ╰ There will be vents posted. They will be tagged and hidden under a cut so you can skip it if you'd please ╰ We will be talking about the good, the bad, the ugly, the silly. Just how we work as a system. ╰ (Some)Face Claims and Introjects ╰ Important DSMP post

↪ This is just us trying to navigate through life, make friends. And we hope that it helps others feel less alone.

↪ Anon asks are on. Behave in the inbox or we will take them away again. ╰ Claimed anons: 💫, ⭐🎉, Love Sender Anon

FREQUENT POSTERS!

↪ Rêve/Dream ╰ it/he/she/they // Mirror Pronouns ╰ Host TAG: 🎭 Dream.txt

↪ Sam ╰ he/him ╰ Protector TAG: 💣 - Sam

↪ Karl Jacobs ╰ he/they ╰ Memory Holder TAG: 🪻- Karl J.txt

↪ Grim ╰ he/him ╰ Role Hidden TAG: 💀 - Grim

↪ K ╰ it/its ╰ Role Hidden TAG: 💾 - Edited By K / 💾 - K (Please Note: K will rarely make a post of it's own. It'll edit or add little notes here and there to make sure things are legible)

↪ Charlie ╰he/him ╰ Role Unknown TAG: 💚- The Gooper.Txt

↪ Anons ╰ This is just the privacy tag. It's for anyone who wants to make a post and doesn't have an official tag yet, or doesn't want to reveal who made the post GENERAL TAG: ❌ - Anon SPECIFIC TAGS: ╰ 👾- Ghost Anon ╰ ☁️ Blurry.txt

MISC. TAGS ╰ # Sugar Cloud Cafe - Any type of post about our partner system ( @/ardor-cafe ) ╰ # Sugar Cloud Asks - Asks ╰ # Reblogs off - Posts that we have removed the reblog feature for any reason. No, we won't clarify why

↪ STRICTLY ANTI-ENDO ╰ We are too fucking exhausted to give a shit what you do elsewhere. But do not bring it here, leave us the fuck alone. ╰ We will not interact with you, we probably won't even block. The only time this will change is if you interact first or STEAL OUR SHIT TO MAKE IT PRO ENDO.

↪ ANTI DISCOURSE ╰ We will not be making constant posts about things happening within system spaces, we do not want that brought to us. We will not comment on it besides the boundary above. ╰ Any discourse comments will be removed and blocked ╰While we understand the importance of discussing discourse, politics, and overall general goings-on, we simply do not have the mental energy. Tumblr is our safe space and we hope to provide a space without all the negative

↪ BE KIND ╰ We're making it day by day, just. Be nice. That's all we ask.

There are not many boundaries. We just want to exist and be goofy and silly.

DNI: Pretty General (Racists, Homophobes, Transphobes, Bigots etc) Endo's and their supporters - Neutrals are allowed, but interact with extreme caution. Radqueers and supporters Anti DSMP but also weird DSMP Fans Syscorse EXCLUSIVE blogs

CREDITS: Profile Picture - sweet.jester Dividers - Bead // PoTO // Royalty - saradika-graphics

[sugarcloud-syndicate]

"hey, before you try to build a romantic relationship with me, I have a lot of emotional baggage and trauma. I just got out of some serious trauma as well."

*a month later*

"you're affected by your trauma and its not healthy. you also talk about [abusive person] a lot. we need to break up."

"okay. I get it."

"you can still vent to me if you want tho."

"no, I don't really talk to exs after we break up. good luck in life."

a real convo I had while breaking up with a partner. sorry we, someone with diagnosed PTSD and was in the process of getting a DID diagnosis, is affected by our trauma that we've been going through all our life.

[sugarcloud-syndicate]

why do people never believe that I know our trauma and what's good or healthy for us?

they act as if we're fagile and are actively trying to not be healthy.

making me sound like a walking victin complex

I'm traumatized, not stupid. I know my triggers. I know what we need to do to keep ourselves safe

"you're talking about this recent trauma too much. it feels too much." okay, I'll stop telling you. but that trauma just happened. it will keep affecting me

I'm not stupid. stop treating me like I am

[the-starry-city]

There's a petition to get r/systemcringe taken down!

Even if you aren't a system, every sign helps!! Bullying people with disorders isn't okay

Sign the Petition

Shut down R/Systemcringe for good

I am anti endo but my DNI doesn't apply to this post, however respect my boundaries beyond this post

[sugarcloud-syndicate]

being a system is SO UNSERIOUS for being a serious trauma disorder

one of our bozos/aff sent our partner sys's partner (partner in law) an image of a "sexy hot dog costume" with no comment, no tag, not even any way to track back to who it was

who the fuck is sending him these things. what the hell 😭😭😭😭

[sugarcloud-syndicate]

real life system event

why is the big serious trauma disorder so unserious?

we got to see friends and our co-host, (yes, that IS a Ranboo live drawing by mushroom21888), started screaming One Day More from Les Mis

I HATE IT HERE. GET ME OUT

[sugarcloud-syndicate]

we have a bad obsession with trying to figure out if something is real, from a movie, or a dream. and heres what our therapist said:

"it doesn't matter if it was real or not. what does matter is the effect on you"

its something we replay a lot, have it on a sticky note on our front console.

[sugarcloud-syndicate]

warnings: sickness (nausea, dizziness, fuzzy head), e/d, venting, abuse

we've recently been dealing with a lot of dizziness and nausea, especially after being up for an extended period of time

Dream recently put together that its probably the lack of food and water thats making us feel like such shit. one "partner" encouraged the habit, another is trying to help us break it.

it makes us sleepier, zone out and dissociate more, and just not want to exist

this actually fucking sucks and we wish we could break out, but at some point your body just can't eat as much

[just-someones-stupidity]

"sysmed" what if i genuinely bash your head with a metal pipe what about that

[sugarcloud-syndicate]

*minor inconvenience happens*

*whacked with the no-more-reality stick*

*dissociates*

[sugarcloud-syndicate]

we: getting better!! therapy helping! meds helping!!!yippee!!!

life: throws repeat trauma back at us again

we: gets worse again. back in a constant dissociative state

why does this happen. why repeat trauma to cause the disorder to disorder?

[sugarcloud-syndicate]

my face when the trauma disorder is protecting me from trauma by dissociation

[aoyena]

When ur dissociative identity disorder dissociates you from things that do identity things I can’t read this sentance

-O

[sugarcloud-syndicate]

100% accurate representation of me 🙂‍↕️

[oursystemblog]

well i guess that's fine

[sugarcloud-syndicate]

my face when the trauma disorder is protecting me from trauma by dissociation

[sugarcloud-syndicate]

lemme tell you a story :)

for context; Hello. I am Dream. yes. I am a DreamWasTaken introject. specifically from the DSMP (era?) no, I am not happy with it. I know how probematic he is, and I know I can't control it. I am a fuse of a previous Dream headmate and the Host

(please ignore the spelling error, I was exhausted at the time of making this + suffer with dyslexia)

now for the others in the story. our partner sys @\ardor-cafe and Trick. (fake name, but if they saw this, they'd know who they are.)

Trick, at the time of my discovery, was a partner. started out with the previous host, then me when I subtly formed.

I did love Trick. and I was supposed to trust them... right?

finding out who I am was incredibly hard hitting. I hated myself. it took me months to tell our partner sys, even tho we trust them with EVERYTHING. because I knew the information that I am that Dream could and will change peoples outlooks on me

I eventually told Trick, and everything was fine and dandy

but then, there was a fall-out.

Trick went to my friends, one of which has ADOPTED ME AS THEIR KID. and actually talks about me like I'm their child. tells irl people I'm their kiddo. they told this friend that I was evil, and an abuser. and manipulator, all because of who I'm sourced from.

I told everyone, when I revealed who I was for my own sanity, that I struggled with revealing because I didn't want to be seen as my source. it is a guilt I deal with every day

and Trick tried to destroy my relationships just because I'm sourced from someone horrible.

this is the second time someone has tried to destroy my relationships through lies.

why am I telling this story?

cause frankly, I'm still pissed about it. it sucks that someone I trusted took my biggest insecurity and guilt and tried to use it to make me end up alone

there is so much shit that this person did to me that I am not even going to get into because it is so personal and so fresh.

stop treating us as if we are our sources. you do not know how much guilt someone could be holding onto.

we should not have to fear if our support system is going to turn on us.

if you read this, thank you, I appreciate it.

much love.

Dream.

[syscultureis]

Sys culture is previously thinking you might have bipolar but getting confused cause you switch between the "moods" way too quickly

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