*rolls in the grass like a silly deer*

Avy/Belle/Isa/Starling | She/They/Any | Agender | Lesbian aroace | INFP 6w5 so649 ELVF | I love women Currently my interests include In Stars and Time, Slay the Princess, We Know the Devil, The Magnus Archives/Protocol, Mouthwashing, 8:11, I Don't Want To Be a Magical Girl, Alien Stage, KPop Demon Hunters, Demon Slayer: Kimetsu No Yaiba, Reverse: 1999, Insectarium Alternative March and Alter Ego

[starsfromthedarkness]

Last updated: July 22, 2026

Here we go again-

Welcome to this blog!!

Hi!! You can call me Avy and welcome to my blog~ >:3

I already did the introduction for this blog a few times, but updating them would be pointless, so I'll just do another one!!

I have several blogs, but this is my first and main one, so I'll post here more frequently than anywhere else

Anyway, before we start-

Here's an important post about the visibility of my blog on Tumblr

Also, an important PSA about an uncommon type of scams

My other blogs:

@avy-loves-cupcakes - my 2nd blog. I'm not updating it that much at the moment, but sure, there's a lot of posts too ^^ Not "shadowbanned" currently !

@wheres-my-garlic-bread - my 3rd blog. I don't use it often (like, at all). Not "shadowbanned" currently !!

(21/07/2026: I deleted my DNI because it doesn't seem to be of much use. Anyone who looks at my blog can already realise whether they're welcome here or not. I BLOCK FREELY)

About me✨

Full list of my names: Avy, Leah, August, Isa, Belle, Starling, Coffee, Lumi, Mio, Marsha, etc.

Pronouns: she/they/any

Age: 16

Gender identity: Agender artemian (abigender?)

Sexuality: Asexual arospec lesbian (aegoaroace, lithoaroace, bellusromantic, greyromantic, quoiromantic, nebularomantic, cupiroflux)

Typology: INFP 6w5 so6 649 ELVF

I'm autistic and I have several mental illnesses (self-diagnosed) such as ADHD, BPD, OCD, RSD, anxiety and social anxiety, but I hope that won't be much of an issue !!

I'm also a questioning plural system, and you'll hear me talking about plurality every now and then!!

Marcus (Reverse: 1999) is my blorbo btw. If you see me reblogging a post by girl-blorbo-polls and not specifying who I'm talking about, it's most likely her<3

What you'll see here/My interests:

Lots of stuff!! I ramble, draw, reblog, discuss- Everything!! (There's also tags for a lot of my stuff. See below)

My interests: Celeste, In Stars and Time, Slay the Princess, The Magnus Archives/Protocol, OneShot (not caught up with Solstice DLC), Alien Stage, WonderEnd/0, We Know the Devil, Mouthwashing, 8:11, Heaven Will Be Mine (not caught up!), KPop Demon Hunters, Demon Slayer: Kimetsu No Yaiba (only Infinity Castle), Reverse: 1999 (caught up with the main plot up to ch12), Insectarium Alternative March, Alter Ego, Sky: Children of The Light, Sundy Stairway, Wadanohara and the Great Blue Sea

Music interests: AURORA, Florence + The Machine, Lydia the Bard, Ella Red, Paris Paloma, Yaelokre, AJJ, The Crane Wives, Lemon Demon, Slipknot, Autoheart, various videogame OSTs (ISAT, StP, Celeste etc.)

Kinlist!!

Alien Stage: Sua, Till (and pretty much the entirety of the main cast in some ways, really)

Slay the Princess: Princess and the Dragon, Thorn, Happily Ever After, Damsel

Reverse 1999: Sonetto, Voyager, Marcus, Aima, Jessica, Célia, Fatutu, Liang Yue, Nautika

KPop Demon Hunters: Rumi, Zoey

(will be updated in the future~)

Tags :]

#avy's rambles - I ramble a lot, so you'll see this tag veeery often

#avy rants - *aggressively chewing on a piece of paper*

#avy's memes - all the memes that I'm making myself

#avy's sleepy yapping - ya. Enjoy my veeery sleepy yapping in the middle of the night

#avy unravels their brain - discussions about ADHD, autism, personality types and all that stuff

#avy tries drawing - old art tag (July - November 2024)

#avy does art - new art tag

#avy writes - Listen I just loveee writing so this tag will appear pretty often here and you won't be able to do anything about it. Hehe!!

#avy reblogs - Beep boop!!

#avy announces - If I have anything to announce, about my blogs or other stuff- Yeah (I forgot about this tag lol)

#avy's project - Stuff about the project I'm currently working on :D

#Paths Unwalked - a StP post-canon AU I started working on recently (abandoned, but the posts are there!!)

#identity crisis with avy - self-explanatory. Have fun reading about my crisis I guess?? :D

#important - a bunch of important stuff. Be it positive reminders or PSA or hotlines

#cat - some posts about my kitty Maya + just random reblogs about cats :3

For fandom/stuff tags, see my Tags Masterpost !! (Link below, soon)

Masterposts 🌟

Tags Masterpost (soon!)

Paths Unwalked (soon? Moving from this post)

WIP

Alien Stage photo dumps

Just a collection of my Alnst posts compiling lots of pictures together. Mainly for self-indulgent reasons because they're pleasing to the eye

Contains spoilers❗❗❗

Thank you Animate arts (slight spoilers)

Fed by Hate, Starved by Love (spoilers!)

Main six official photocards

Sua dump + a meme (spoilers!)

Mizi throughout the events of Alnst (HUGE SPOILERS)

Favourite Alnst 3rd anniversary covers (slight spoilers)

The True Face ramblings (spoilers!)

Sua and shading symbolism (spoilers!)

KARMA (HUGE SPOILERS)

Hand in unlovable hand (HUGE SPOILERS)

Important posts

Just a collection of posts that are useful, or posts that are silly. Either way I need them :> (most of these are reblogs btw, all credits for the posts go to OPs)

For bad nights

Supportive bunnies

Breathing post

Why is this heat so hot?

Post corrections memes

Jokes to make after failure that aren't self-deprecating

STUDY your story

[starsfromthedarkness]

You know I find it weird that... People seem to think of me as either too pure, or too sensitive, orrr they just infantilise me too much

And I mean that literally. I went to a bookstore with my grandma recently, and while we were searching through the books, she mentioned Jane Eyre (I gave her my book and she's been reading it at the time). At the moment she was like, halfway or so through the book, and she says "How could you handle reading about Jane's childhood? It's really heavy and dark, how did you handle all that???"

One thing is hearing that from a relative, but I keep thinking back to a time last year when I showed Alien Stage to my bestie while we were at a sleepover. We went through a few episodes, and she was a bit shocked from what she saw so she was practically yelling: "This is INSANE. When I heard 'Alien Stage' I thought it would be something CUTE and FUNNY but turns out it's fucking not. I could NEVER think you would watch something like that"

Okay my bestie's opinion might have changed because she never said anything like that since then but like. Who do people take me for.

I was that one kid who was too obsessed with horror (and only as of very recently I became quite sensitive to it, still trying to find out why), horror games were literally my life and I love it in animation as well!! Also I'm quite mature already to be able to handle reading something like... Jane Eyre's childhood?? Sure it makes me and it can make ANYONE sad but that doesn't mean I can't read that

I'm just wondering why people think of me that way

[starsfromthedarkness]

Okay so ranting about my feelings on the internet can ACTUALLY help

And don't worry, I'm doing better now!! At least I managed to snap out of spiralling I guess

[starsfromthedarkness]

So... Something happened yesterday.

I went to hangout with my friend, who I have not seen in a long while. We took the bus to a park that I have never been to before and were spending time with her friends there– Which, alright, it all was fun, but what was afterwards...

I had to take the bus back alone. It made me really damn anxious because I'm not used travelling by the bus alone (it happened only once a few months back and let's just say. Awful experience because I wasn't prepared) and I do NOT know how they fucking work. Too used to relying/depending on other people so whenever I have to go against that all of a sudden without expecting that beforehand? It gets bad, okay??

Turns out I walked the wrong road out of anxiety and took the wrong fucking bus and had to get off after a few stops and then later try and navigate from there. I was panicking, my father was trying to give me directions on the call but I didn't understand any of it so he decided to come and pick me up from wherever I fucking was. Oh and it also got very dark (8-9 PM) by that time so

I got home eventually. Cried, tried to forget about whatever the hell I experienced but just couldn't

So what?? Should I blame my friend (who hurt her leg btw) about all that?? Of course not, but I'm still mad and upset about how fucked up everything went. I got lost, couldn't ask anyone for help (felt embarrassed and anxious to) and didn't understand any directions

Now I know I should be asking others for help more but I can't fucking stand people thinking of me as someone lesser or weaker (I feel like they would). But, I had several choices– Communicate properly about my anxiety and be safe or take the risk out of embarrassment and possibly end up in a dangerous situation. And it seems like my choices led to the latter happening

It has something to do with the fact my parents never gave me much freedom to learn things by myself, but also– Trauma. The fucking anxiety and shame that I have to carry with myself. Somehow

Genuinely don't know how to tell my friend I experienced that, or even explain my feelings to her– But I feel so scared having to travel by the bus anywhere now. I wish it was easy for others to understand that but turns out it's not. Or, again, I have to communicate. Now, if only it was that easy for me to communicate!

I seriously don't know what to do. It just fucking sucks.

[girl-blorbo-polls]

If your top two girl blorbos had to do a partnered dance, would it turn out okay?

Yes, they would both do well

They could keep up, even if one is obviously the better dancer

One is great, the other isn’t

They’re both just kind of mid

They both are not doing great

Depends very heavily on the sort of dance

Other

Remaining time: 4 days 14 hours

[starsfromthedarkness]

I'm having a bad bad "Stub My Toe 2026" year

1) Accidentally tripped onto the edge of my parents' bed and got a really bad hematoma that made walking really painful. It was Sunday, and the next week for me was CRITICAL because I had 3 important tests at school AND a school project smeared in the middle of all this shit. So 4 busy days and I only skipped Thursday to have a chance of normal recovery

2) Accidentally tripped onto the same edge AGAIN the following week, only this time we managed to treat it faster so it didn't really make the situation worse. But it did hurt more, yes

3) Accidentally tripped onto a fucking metallic chair with my other foot. It didn't hurt much nor was it lasting but I was maaaaaaad

And now just as I woke up to feed my cat, I tripped onto the floor scales and it hurt reaaally badly (even my cat stopped walking and turned around looking at me like "you okay buddy??"). Luckily this time I remembered we have (alternatives to) cold compresses so I pressed an ice cream to my foot for a couple of minutes. Now it hurts less

[starsfromthedarkness]

WAIT I FORGOR PARIS PALOMA AND FLORENCE PERFORMED LABOUR TOGETHER AT A CONCERT THIS YEAR HOLY DAMN.

[starsfromthedarkness]

Squishes her like a plush toy. Throws her against the wall. Hugs really tightly. Squishes. Throws her against the wall. Hugs and cries. Throws her against the wall. Throws her against the wall. Throws her against the .

[tomb-mold]

the problem is i really do love staying up until one billion o'clock. it just cant be helped

[44-axyer-44]

NOTICE FOR PSYCHOTIC PEOPLES LIKE ME AND THE NEW TOMODACHI LIFE: Please please pretty pretty please be careful while playing Living the Dream, esp if you’re currently unmedicated!!!

The game treats the Miis like they’re real people and makes zero mention ever that they are not, and only ever refers to them and their POV as if they are real and you are their caretaker! While playing this honestly messed with my head pretty badly at times and made me worry a lot on if I was hurting real people/not doing enough for real people while I was playing!

I cannot imagine how much worse this would be for someone who’s unmedicated, non-dormant, or experiencing breakthrough symptoms! Do please be careful and PLEASE remember to have a way to reality check yourself while playing the game!!!

Also: If you’re not psychotic, please reblog this anyway!!! It may not seem like a big deal to you but these kinds of things are REALLY important to know for us psychotic folk in a world that is both hostile and negligent to us and our needs!!!

[starsfromthedarkness]

Oh wowww I can search up the Thing that I like!! Huh but I wonder if hate spaces of the Thing will pop up– Actually who cares it'll be totally fine!!! Am I right??

*10 seconds later*

... Why am I not surprised.

/The Thing in question includes but is not limited to: plurality, yumeshipping, asexuality, aromanticism, etc. Aka pretty much everyone who gets hated on for simply minding their own business

[mercyseb]

one of my favorite tropes of media is fate and when it comes to their lessons on how you deal with them

[starsfromthedarkness]

Me trying to be normal: Oughhhhhh oh my goodness godddd *covers face with hands* fieggwgsushsvshsjiwwkgebjosuwfgklahv *screams* SO CUTEEEEEE *clutches hair* please oh my fucking god I'm not okay.

[libdibs]

If You Were a Fictional Character

I've seen a few moots doing this and it looked fun!

* Make this picrew of yourself

* Take this uquiz (How Fandom Would See You If You Were A Fictional Character)

...yeah that seems about right 😅🫠

Not sure who's done this already so tagging the besties @thetumblingmoron @redheadsramblings @woundedsoul12 @the-bear-and-his-sunbird @aurorabiggs @thepalehorsevictoria @kiir-do-faal-rahhe and anyone else who would like to play!

[churchedcannibal]

this feels fitting

@awkwardlyexistinginacorner @themonthguy @that-bisexual-manuscript @warrengodby2

I uh. Don't like tagging too much so anyone else can join and also nf anyone I tagged to join ofc!!

[howardlyexisting]

Fitting but also surprised me a little! Anyways, go my moots: @thetravelingfrogwizard, @featured-the-creature, @ramdomassaccountname

[ramdomassaccountname]

Thx for the tag moot!!!

Yeah that checks lmaooooooooo

Love the picrew!

@lemonwater37 @theforgottennarrator @vibrantly-yours @bylercocaine @curiositykilledthecat37 @baskabytheanglerfish

And anyone I forgot!

[theforgottennarrator]

Woah thanks for the tag!!

Woah guys are you all really in love with me thats crazy/j

Uhh im kinda a liar the green in my hair is mostly gone and I’m literally planning on re-dying it pink this week but it’s not gone yet so it stays, also in the process of growing out my hair because god it’s fucking freezing outside everyone should be allowed to have long hair in cold countries Jesus Christ, anyway!!

Uhhh no pressure to any of y’all but I gotta tag some homies

@fallingstanleypines @a-crow-dont-know-the-smell-of-co @performance-system @fractoluminescence @kaihasmoreswagthanyou3 @holyfuckingskyblue

[entity-system]

Imma dilf apparently????? I mean it makes sense but still

by the by, I look nothing like the picture irl it’s just my persona. I sadly do not have a million piercings :[ the eye bags are acurate tho

@bloody--keys @clownfish-casino @abel-draws332 @mushroomtiefling

[clownfish-casino]

Doing picrews is always so weird bc they usually don't end up looking like me at all 😭 it looks so petite

HELLO ??? WHY DID I GET NEURODIVERGENT CODED I'M KRILLING MSYELF 🦐🦐🦐 /silly

@churchedcannibal @wretched-corvid @jadealaide and anyone else who wants to join, I am struggling to remember usernames rn !!

[jadealaide]

I’m aro but this is Funny

@skenkyskunk @phantonarant @an-ace-on-the-case @willis-willis-willis @themodernkronos @themonthguy @justamoonstar +anyone else who is interested!! I’m sorry if I didn’t tag you I still love you I promise <3

[justamoonstar]

Thanks for tagging me!!

XD seems about right

@pixelpawsisaweirdname @wretched-corvid idk who else to tag

[pixelpawsisaweirdname]

yep...

@wretched-corvid @deathby-stardust @sstrang3crypt1d @jadealaide @cosmicbrown1es

[sstrang3crypt1d]

yea uh ok :3

@pirulated @dear-interceptor @august-racoone @b1ll-c1ph3r1031 @cecil-speaks @momomomorin + open tags :3

[darlingazrael]

Aa ty for the tag!!

Open tags because I'm lazy

[starsfromthedarkness]

YAYYYYYY FINALLY I GET TO DO THIS I COULDN'T OPEN THIS PICREW FOR MONTHSSSS (had this in my drafts since February)

ALRIGHT THAT'S SO ME HAHA don't get me started on how that last sentence made me cackle–

Actually it's fun getting different results every time!! Even if on total accident lmao

Also, open tag?? Feel free to do this challenge if you see this post– But no pressure!! ^^

Edit: adding this link here for comparison from 2 years ago. Purely for myself

[leilani-main]

Happy birthday Kiperina

[starsfromthedarkness]

Trying to be sane and cool but I can't believe in the fact I'm cool and I've never been normal about anything

[jinsutaadraws]

on the rare occasion Sophia gets sick