Have you ever had your heart broken over and over again?
You continuously forgive this person and only blame yourself for all the arguments in the complicated situationship. You want to be with this person, you crave for their attention, for their security, for their love. However, it is not your fault. It takes two to tangle and you weren’t the only one to blame. In fact, both of you are to be blamed in some way because you decided that this was where the relationship was going to go with our any clear boundaries of needs and wants.
Now, I understand you two weren’t in a committed relationship because he has trust issues and too much other issues like commitment, mommy and daddy issues, and so much more. You too have your own issues of trust, insecurity, and jealousy. A relationship without any commitment will never end well.
When people said love makes you blind, or love makes you crazy, it’s true. I used to scoff at books and movies and people thinking how dumb can they be. Well, I had my first taste of it and realize I’m also dumb, if I looked at myself from an outside lens, boy, I am dumb as fuck.
I would probably take back that person instantly if they came back and really told me that they want to be with me forever. I’m that dumb person who would do that even though I cried for days to get over the heartache, even though I thought I was better dead than alive, even though, I felt like the world was ending.
So, just know, that person isn’t coming back, ever, and if they do, don’t give in. You went through heartache for this person who casually moved on with their life, dating other people, while you sat around crying your eyes out. Remember how that person made you feel.
This will be a super excruciating time for you because your first heartbreak hurts the most. However, just know that the amount of pain you feel now, there will be a time later in life where you’ll experience double the amount of joy, peace, and love from the universe, someone else, life, or in general.
You are a super amazing and strong person, and I believe that you will get through this hard time. It’s not easy, nothing ever is. Just know that at the end of this dark tunnel, there is light and sunshine.
I love you, and you’re doing so well trying your hardest to find yourself again.
- Anonymous
