Ducks in a Row
Many things have happened since my last post. I’m just going to be direct about the three things that have brought me joy, anxiety, excitement, confusion, deliverance, and insight these last few weeks.
Industry Event. For all graduating bachelor degree students we’ve received an opportunity to perform in front of invited talent agents, managers, and casting directors. Exciting right? Yes, mostly. I mean I’ve always sucked at ironing so making sure my coral dress shirt was perfectly wrinkle free was kind of a struggle, but that’s such a trivial thing to bring up. What did I have to prepare? A scene by Neil Labute and a monologue by Richard Greenberg. I’ve been preparing these for a while and I was anxious beyond belief, but I was ready. At the end of the day this is what happened. My scene was fantastic, my partner and I were lucky enough to have received the only laughter from the audience that day. My monologue, well, that’s a different story. It was just one of those moments where I was coming down from one character and transitioning into the other. I said the second line of the monologue instead of the first. God help me. But because I’ve been trained how to handle these kinds of situations I covered it wonderfully. As you can assume, when I walked off stage I was pissed, but my performances were grounded, whole, sensitive, open, and funny. That was what I desired to deliver and that’s what I did. So I’m proud of that.
Showcase + SHUT UP!!
The entire graduating class depending on majors have been divided up into groups for a senior showcase which will be a selection of material to be showcased the day of graduation. From the beginning of the semester we had the opportunity to pitch material and were also given material by our directors to rehearse and pitch for them. It’s week 13 of 15 and we’ve had our final line up of material chosen for a few weeks now. I’m not a huge fan of the stuff I’m performing, but it’s my directors show and all I can do is take this opportunity and SLAY. As of right now though, I’m frustrated. Showcase feels disorganized and incomplete, but all I can do is just give it my all and stay positive. The only thing that is driving me fully insane is this week I’ve noticed since we had our industry event EVERYONE cannot shut up about asking, “have you gotten a call yet”? “has an agent called you yet”?, “Do you have any interviews lined up yet”? OH MY LORD, SHUT UP! Can we just be professional and not act like we’re in high school. I don’t think people realize that when you ask that question over and over and over it just seems like we’re doing a show in educational theater and people are asking have you seen the cast list. This is real life now, respect privacy and please shut up.
I’m feeling positive and pray things will go in the right direction. I just know in my heart and soul this is what I’m meant to do and all I can say is I’m being a pineapple.