alice♡twenty♡tw; ed

𝓂𝓎 𝒹𝟣𝑔𝟣𝓉𝒶𝓁 𝒹𝟣𝒶𝓇𝓎 she/her ⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀:¨ ·.· ¨: ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ `· . ꔫ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ `· . ꔫ

[starvingpixiewhore]

˚ ༘♡ ⋆｡˚ general info:

Active April '24 ⭐️

♡ name: alice

♡ age: 19

♡ pronouns: she/her

♡ currently diagnosed with: borderline personality, major depressive, bipolar, & anxiety.

♡ fun factzz: some of my favorite artists are mazzy star, cocteau twins, korn, sun kil moon, alice in chains, radiohead, & jason molina / songs ohia :) i luv writing poetry, yoga, and nature. i've recently converted from paganism to christianity.

♡ i've always struggled with body dysmorphia + issues concerning my self esteem, since I was about seven or eight, but it developed into a full blown eating disorder around fifteen.

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˚ ༘♡ ⋆｡˚ disclaimers:

♡ this blog is used solely as a safe place for me to vent about my struggles w my ed.

♡ i am not pro & i'm not attempting to glorify or romanticize the life that i live in any way, shape, or form. i love you all so much & i want each & every one of you to be safe & okay.

♡ please block, don't report. this blog is the only outlet available to me for my mental health at the moment.

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˚ ༘♡ ⋆｡˚ stats:

♡ height: 4"11

♡ sw: 156lbs

♡ cw: 125

♡ gw1: 130lbs

♡ gw2: 125

♡ gw3: 115

♡ gw4: 105

♡ gw5: 95

♡ ugw: 90lbs

some if my fav inspo below

[skinnihope]

Coming back to anablr is like resting your head on someone’s shoulder.

Ana won’t leave me when I fail. I can always come back

[yayobabydoll]

getting light headed when i stand up makes me feel like an angel fairy sparkles magic princess doll that makes flowers grow beneath her feet

[lavenderpumkin]

[ice-lover1]

Honestly weight loss and being skinny does feel way better than anything could ever taste

[starvingpixiewhore]

i want ana friendz :( i've never successfully formed a friendship with anyone here :< i want to so bad tho lolll anyways! if any1 sees this n wants to be friends msg me!!! :0

[fallenangle08]

[starvingpixiewhore]

hour 17 into my 48 hr fast : 3 yayyyy

[rqdominique]

[backgrounddegenerate]

In case anyone else is here, I have something to say to you. If you've gotten off track, especially severely off track, please read! It's gonna be ok. Whether you gained a couple lbs or 10 or even more, that isn't going to stop you. All it can do is slow you down. You are stronger than you know, and it'll be ok. Just do your best, take it slow (or jump straight in if that's how you work) and you'll get back in time. I know how much it sucks to relose weight you've already lost, especially a significant amount, but it's possible and the only way to make progress is to start. So start!

[starvingpixiewhore]

what do you guys think is the average step count for a person! i'm currently unemployed, n i just go for walks to keep active but i'm only getting to about 3,900-5,400 steps a day, but i know it isn't enough >.<

[starvingpixiewhore]

bodychecks from 2yrs ago > . <

[cigarette-ahegao]

etheral sp° (kinda)

all pics from 📌terest

(dm for credit or removal)

[the-voices-got-too-loud]

Reasons to lose weight

Will be visible:

Thigh gap

Collarbones

Rib cage

Wrist bones

Cheekbones

Hip bones

Jawline

Hourglass figure

Waist

Muscles

People will:

Put you on their lap

Give piggybacks

Lift you up easily

Compliment you

Be jealous of you

Ask you how you did it

Buy you clothes without hesitation about size

Worry about you

Give you more attention

Bring you food/want to buy food

Your body will be better:

Clear skin

Less celulite

Bigger eyes

Bigger lips

Small hands and feet (even if you have a big size)

Less sweaty

Healthier

Legs look longer

Less stretch marks

Cuter bellybutton

It will be easier to:

Shave or wax

Buy clothes

Feel full while eating

Exercise

Avoid cravings

Put together cute outfits

Socialize

Eat out

Stay fit

Get into new hobby

You'll feel so small and comfy while:

Driving a car/bike

Sitting/jumping anywhere

Playing on a playground/funfair

Having sex

Passing by any small spaces

Borrowing other's clothes

Lying naked in bed/cuddling

Taking a bath/being in a spa

Being carried by someone

Wearing oversized clothes

You'll stop worrying about:

Weight limits

Crowded restaurants

How you look in certain angles

Getting sweaty and smelling after long walk

Your fat rolls showing

Activities in school/college like PE

Getting touched

Eating with family/friends

Showing skin

Summertime partying and trips

[starvingpixiewhore]

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[starvingpixiewhore]

i deserve to be skinny i deserve to be skinny i deserve to be skinny i deserve to be skinny i deserve to be skinny i deserve to be skinny i deserve to be skinny i deserve to be skinny i deserve to be skinny i deserve to be skinny i deserve to be skinny i deserve to be skinny i deserve to be skinny i deserve to be skinny i

[meeenx-deactivated20240618]

(please understand this was after a day) but omg yall pickle juice.

pickle juice is kinda an acquired taste. i love pickles. the juice ain’t my beverage of choice.

THAT SAID

if you like it, and/or don’t mind because you are struggling with appetite/b!nges.

take some sips during the day/during a fast and let me know if you also aren’t feeling any hunger at all - so i’m 20 hrs in, normally i feel a little hunger and want to eat, and i have been just drinking water and after, sipping a little pickle juice (approx. a tablespoon) from a non-expired jar in the fridge i had and i have had a delta 9 edible, i had a smoke on a second walk (w33d) and i’ve exercised, period is about to start, i am still not hungry. not even a desire to think about it even…

i want to try this again tomorrow and get high again, but yall im freaking out because this is working???

there was a girl that go t-w0rded on here and reblogged the fact that she lost the ability to gain weight because her bf said “drink some pickle juice” and she’s been maintaining her lw since and not even by choice - she recovered months ago so i looked it up online that it has some appetite suppressant qualities but to be safe and not drink like jars and shit of it because the sodium content is so high and bad in the long run, but i’m planning (and you should to) to just have it when i have cravings during a fast and want to go longer on a fast, not eat as much, etc. and im not gonna be one of those girlies to gatekeep shit if it works for me, because it could work for someone else and if you are safe, as i’ve asked you all to be…do with what this info what u will