TW: ED

active 8.24 | she/her | 25 | cw: 96 gw: 80

[ra1ny-waif]

my friend got me a call about a job with her company and it went so bad I’m so embarrassed im going to pass away

[ra1ny-waif]

Made it through a shift without any near fainting episodes, but I think I need to eat “normal” for like a week or so so people don’t worry about me and they can all just leave me alone again

[ra1ny-waif]

So almost passed out at work again and they made my mom come get me to drive me home and she finally mentioned that I’ve lost weight but honestly I don’t even think the passing out thing is related to the 3d because I’ve literally eaten everyday this past week (normally I ⭐️ve on days I work at the restaurant) and like yesterday it was junk food before work so I was not setting myself up for success but today I had a roast beef sandwich so that should’ve provided me plenty of nutrients to not pass out. Like I think it might be because I got my period yesterday after not having it for a while so like maybe that’s messing with me. But I can’t have my mom start worrying about me losing weight because I am not skinny enough yet

[ra1ny-waif]

So I picked up extra hosting shifts since I got fired from my other job and tonight I was like dying. I was getting out of breath just walking across the restaurant, I was busing tables so slow just like struggling and it’s not a hard job and we were not busy tonight. And I was literally thinking like am I just this weak now that I’ve been consistently losing weight like what is going on and then I literally almost passed out walking back to the kitchen so I sat down against a wall cause my vision had gone all black and my manager came up to me to see if I was okay and I literally puked as a response sooo… not sure if that’s a ana thing or if I’m just sick but they let me go home for the rest of the night

[ra1ny-waif]

Managed to lose a pound while I was traveling even with all the eating I had to do so I’m taking that as a win

[ra1ny-waif]

Im visiting some friends this weekend and I’m going to have eat meals with them and so far everything I’ve eaten has left me sick to my stomach I don’t know how I’m going to get through dinner later

[splattersk1nny]

Why it be like that tho

[nclsny]

sorry for eating that wasn't very i’m willing to do whatever it takes to reach my ugw of me

[unethicalraven]

[amayaormai]

My Th!n$piration <3

[4n4y3sii]

[st444rvedcunt]

becoming smaller is so freeing

[crxnberrykxng]

when my stomach growls directly after telling someone i'm not hungry

[escuerzoresucitado]

[barbiedaisy]

Do you want to know the actual way to lose weight and keep it off?

Changing. Your. Mindset.

-So, here are, your daily thoughts:

"This won't keep me full"

"I need a dessert after this"

"I'm not a workout person"

"Why don't they make bigger sizes?"

"I already ruined my diet"

"They just have fast metabolism"

"It's genetics"

Can't you see? This way of thinking keeps you fat. If you actually want to lose weight, first you have to destroy these voices in your head and replace them with the right ones like:

- I don't live to eat, I eat to live.

- I replace my need to snack with video games, reading, chewing gum, vape or smoke (don't if you haven't started to last one btw).

- Workout isn't the most enjoyable thing in the world, but I make it fun by buying fancy workout clothes, making gym friends etc.

- I buy every dress or cloth without worrying if it will fit me because fashion is fun and I don't want to miss it.

- I didn't ruin my diet just because I ate this cookie. I will have a salad later and make it up.

- You only gain weight due to overeating and lack of exercise.

- It's not genetics if you eat 3000 calories a day.

See? Just change your mindset. It's the key to lose weight. Your mindset shapes your thoughts. Your thoughts becomes action and you binge constantly.

Fake it until you make it. Then you'll become the person you want to be.

[vanillagirlie111]

This is going to be my body

[karlvsn-deactivated20240312-dea]