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lauren, neil josten enthusiast, my AO3

[risha-png]

Hello tumblr, we're so back you have no idea. Have another kevjean wip I forgot to post here :)

[melita-m]

“He'd come to the Foxhole Court every inch a lie, but his friends made him into someone real.”

I’m not gonna lie it’s borderline embarrassing how long I’ve worked on this that I’ve spend 2 days tryna figure out how to caption it to make it less embarrassing but oh well. It also made me realise the banner says exy ncaa instead of ncaa exy but at this point that’s none of my business

Short of being inside Nora’s head here is a (mostly) (I think) biblically accurate and to scale model of the Foxhole Court and Nora I have a several questions.

Also rendered so many images of this I had like 50 cameras in the scene would y’all care if I just did a photo dump.

God I have so many things to say about working on this I had to restart like 8 times it was a mess but if I start I won't be able to stop Imao though if anyone's interested in a breakdown of all the sections and materials I would be more than happy to make a post yapping about it.

Viewport renders below

I really wanna expand this and add the ticket both/ food stalls as well as all the behind the scenes areas like the locker room, foyer, foxes lounge, ect. I’ve been slowly mapping out where everything is so shout out to Neil for being overly anxious and needing to map out the layout and exits of every room he walks into.

Everything modelled, rendered and composited in blender, textures painted in clip studio paint.

[nonglukest]

A+ friendship ✨

[huayong]

abo desire as text posts 7/?

[redstonedust]

love characters who are like "this is how the world works. this is how it has to be (because if i'm wrong i have to face what i've done // if i'm wrong i have to face whats been done to me) "

[tlbodine]

This trait is much more endearing in fiction than in my mother.

[redstonedust]

love characters who are like "this is how the world works. this is how it has to be (because if i'm wrong i have to face what i've done // if i'm wrong i have to face whats been done to me) "

[tlbodine]

This trait is much more endearing in fiction than in my mother.

[yzzichess]

I don't know if we realize how important the scene where Neil fights with Kevin in the bus bc he wants to sit with Andrew is FOR ANDREW.

Imagine being Andrew and meeting this kid who's all twitchy and beautiful and thinking he's an illusion but he's there. And he's giving his game to Kevin Day bc for him Kevin Day is everything there is to be and you know that Kevin lost it all but now there's this kid who listens to him ramble about exy and actually pays attention and cares about it when nobody else does and you know Kevin feels like he has something now so you are just waiting for that to happen like "just kiss already".

But you notice that the kid is also looking at you. And he's listening to you and watching. Always watching. Learning your language, getting what you mean without you having to explain. And that is just unsettling bc "what in hell is this guy doing?" What about Kevin?. So that just reaffirms that he's an illusion bc he's not for you.

He. Is. Not. For. You.

And then you're in the bus heading to another game and you know the kid's excited and will probably ramble about it with Kevin for the whole ride so you're ready to just sleep thru it but wait. Bc he is heading to you. And he's arguing with Kevin Day and shutting him down bc he wants. To sit. With you.

And then you realize. You will give Kevin Day everything but not this. This is for you. This is for you bc he CHOSE you.

You're just this kid who always wanted but never got it so you stopped wanting bc "what is the point?". But now this illusion is here and he is choosing you so you will take it. You will take it and fuck everyone. This is for you. You get to have this.

[franzkavkas]

I think kafka’s diaries are the strongest evidence that journaling is not necessarily good for your mental health

[a-suffusion-of-yellow-deactivat]

it's because he didn't use washi tape

[absolutegibberishandnumbers]

jokes to make after failure that aren’t self-deprecating:

I’m the best to ever do it

Nobody saw that (best if said loudly)

No one’s ever done it like me

I could be President/they should make me President

Behold, a mere fraction of my power!

The public wants to be me soooooo bad

I’m an expert in (thing you just failed at)

How could this have happened to god’s favorite princess?

Nothing ibuprofen and a glass of water cant fix

I’m being sabotaged

[knownqueerbaiter]

and the thing is. he literally missed his best friend so much. he had to hook up with his ex about it. he missed his “platonic” best friend so much. he had to have sex with someone else about it,

[syn4k]

i like the phrases "it's not for me," "it's not my thing," and "i'm not the target audience" because they're the most concise way to express "this thing that you enjoy has merits but idgaf about it" without being aggressive

[mono-red-menace]

the two genders are yes or no

[mono-red-menace]

and im STILL nonbinary!

[mono-red-menace]

so call me maybe

[carnage-cathedral]

my partner said something that kinda rocked my world

[your-internet-bf]

[forgetting I am mentally ill] why do I feel so Bad

[gayfrenchtoast]

[Forgetting I have physical health issues] why do I feel so Bad

[omtai]

[love2much]

i wanna get stoned and cum twenty times

[ghxstboii]

Oh, my poor baby, are you that needy? Just relax and let daddy take care of the rest.

[love2much]

i’m going to kill myself

[dominiknene-art]

Two golden retrivers and one black cat 🐶🐱