hi loves, im so sorry i havent posted in like 2 months, i swear ill start writing again. i had a lot going on in the past two months with like school, practice, etc. anyway i hope you all are doing well and staying safe<3
summary: after a viral pandemic wiped out half of the world’s population, a group of abandoned young adults embark on a life-threatening journey in hopes of finding a safe permanent home. unfortunately, for you and Rin, love is only a temporary option.
genre: heavy angst, unrequited, post apocalypse au, 18+
general masterlist + playlist + official art + group fanart
+ one + two + three + four + five + six + seven + eight + nine + ten + epilogue
hi! if the taglist is open, may i be added to the "a team of lies" and "uncovered lies" taglists? thank you so much!!
hii<3 ofc i’ll as you to “uncovered lies”! for “a team of lies” that was only suppose to be two parts but others asked for another so i made another part!
➙ synopsis - being the team manager for karasuno was really fun overall, but when you forget your phone in the gym and head back to get it some things were said that maybe you shouldn’t have heard. or maybe it was something you should’ve heard.
➙ pairing - tsukishima x fem!reader ; hanamaki x fem!reader
➙ genre - ANGST, fluff:)
➙ word count - 1006
a/n - hi lovelies, thank you for waiting and suggesting for this part <3 sorry if it’s not good i rushed it a little:( i forgot to add this will be the last part!!
The whistle echoed throughout the gym as the game ended. The score ended with 25-22 with Aoba Johsai winning the last match and the game. Cheers rang throughout the gym for the Aoba Johsai team. You smiled brightly at the team on the court cheering for each other and congratulating together.
You waited near the locker rooms for the boys to get out so you could see Hanamaki and the rest of the team. After a couple minutes of waiting you saw the door open and people started leaving the locker room. You watched as the team members of Aoba Johsai exited the room one by one. After a few left you finally saw Matsukawa, Iwaizumi, Oikawa and Hanamaki leave the room.
You ran up to Hanamaki and jumped onto him. Your arms wrapped around his neck while his arms wrapped around your waist carrying you up. You pushed your head back a little bit to look at his face before kissing his face all over. You smiled at him before placing a kiss onto his lips.
‘I’m so proud of you baby!” You told him.
You swore he had the goofiest and happiest smile onto his face. The expression on his face made you forget that it’s not just you and him in the world. It felt like time had stopped around you and the only thing that mattered was him. As Hanamaki felt the same way. To have you in his arms supporting him and congratulating him was the best feeling in the world. The way you smiled at him, the way you did anything, he loved.
He placed you back onto the floor after hugging you tightly. Hanamaki reached into his pocket before realizing he left his keys in his locker.
“Hey love, I left my keys in my locker. I’ll be right back okay?”
You nodded your head as he ruffled your hair before heading back into the locker room. You stood there looking around at the other people. You noticed as the whole Aoba Johsai team was together talking while you waited.
As your eyes scanned the room once more, only this time you made eye contact with someone. As you looked closer you noticed a whole bunch of people looking at you now. It just had to be the karasuno team. Tsukishima was in the front as the others followed behind.
A worried look took over your face as you saw them approaching you.
“Hi,” Tsukishima said.
“H-hi?” You answered back confusingly.
“How have you been? I missed you.”
Your eyes widened as he asked that question. Was he really going to pretend like nothing happened? Like he wasn’t just cheating on you?
“What?” You spat back.
The nerves that carried throughout you suddenly disappeared. Frustration took over as you realized he was really going to pretend that nothing happened. Wasn’t it obvious that you knew?
You looked around wondering when Hanamaki was going to come out of the locker room. The whole karasuno team stood in front of you while you stood there annoyed and frustrated.
The Karasuno team was confused as to what was going on with you. You were never the type of person to give them attitude for nothing. Not only that you had disappeared on them. Without a single word you left their school and Tsukishima. Now here you are with another guy at another school. What happened, they all thought.
As Tsukishima was going to speak again the locker room door opened once more as the whole team turned their head with you to see who it was. Hanamaki walked out with a confused look on his face as he spotted you and your old school’s team. As he realized what was happening he came over as fast as he could.
Hanamaki wrapped his arm around your waist and pulled you close to his side. He eyed the team in front of him before speaking up.
“What are you guys doing here?” He asked.
“We just wanted to ask y/n some questions real quickly.” Daichi answered.
“Okay, so what’s up?”
The Karasuno team looked at each other wondering if they should question you right in front of Hanamaki. It wouldn’t make a difference with or without him here right?
“Why'd you transfer schools y/n?” Hinata asked.
You looked up at Hanamaki wondering if you should answer their questions. He gave you a smile and a small nod indicating that you should answer the questions they had for you.
You shrugged your shoulders “I just didn’t feel comfortable or happy going to Karasuno anymore.”
They all shared confused looks to each other and you. Everything was going perfectly fine the day before you disappeared without saying anything to any of them.
“Why are you with Hanamaki, if you’re dating Tsukishima?” Sugawara asked.
You let out stifled laughter before answering.
“I thought it was implied that we break up when someone cheats?” You asked.
“You cheated on Tsukishima?” Yamaguchi asked.
“No, I heard you guys talking in the gym the day before I left. I don’t think playing innocent this time will work.”
A guilt feeling took over everyone as they looked at you. Had they been the reason you left? The reason you disappeared without saying a single thing?
“Anyway guys I have a date to go on so if you’ll excuse us,” you said while tugging on Hanamaki’s arm to leave.
As the two of you walked out Tsukishima’s heart kept on racing. You knew? You weren’t supposed to find out. He was the reason for you hurting and the reason you moved schools. A guilt feeling started eating him inside. Although he did cheat on you, why did it hurt so much to see you so happy with another guy.
Tsukishima was too consumed in his thoughts to realize his whole team was staring at him. He looked so lost in his thoughts while keeping his straight, stoic face he always has. Was this the pain you felt when you overheard?
hey i am so sorry i changed my url from fishstreet69 to koifish69 i hope you can update for the taglist of uncovered lies? thank you for writing i love your works!
hii okay! i was wondering why it wasn’t working 😭 also thank you!<3
I have a beautiful dwarf hamster that means the world to me, he helps me when I’m having a depressive episode and is pretty much the reason why I’m kinda stable. My dad said hurtful things and told me to get rid of my pet so I hurt myself because of the impotence, pain and anger inside of me:( I just don’t want to be here every time he is like this
Can I request some comfort from tendou, atsumu or bokuto? Where they support me and give me and my hamster a place to stay and they heal my wounds😔
a/n - hi beautiful<3 ofc i’d love to help in anyway i can, i’m so sorry to hear that you have to go through that:( i hope things get better and try and stay safe!! also i hope i kind of got what you imagine i’m sorry if i didn’t:(( please talk to me anytime you feel like you need to as well!!
atsumu comfort<3
➙ warnings - mentions of abusive dad, self harm and suicidal thoughts
The day was beautiful, the sun was out, there was a nice breeze, and everything would come together if that didn’t happen. You tried to take your mind off of it by taking a walk, you needed to do something, something good for you. So as you walked you noticed how beautiful nature really was.
Although the walk was nice and calming you didn’t really know how you found yourself in front of Atsumu’s house. You weren’t complaining but a bit confused as to when you got here. You decided since you were already here, maybe he could help you a bit.
You knocked on the door and waited a bit for someone to answer. A few seconds later Osamu opened the door and stared at you. He probably knew what happened, it was pretty obvious. It pained him to see you like this, and he knew it was gonna hurt Atsumu one hundred times more.
“Hi,” he said.
You tried giving him a nice small smile but it didn’t work out so well, so he just let you in and told you Atsumu was in his room. You walked in the house and up the stairs before being face to face with Atsumu’s door.
You took a deep breathe in before placing your hand on the door knob. You slowly opened the door to see Atsumu laying in his bed sleeping peacefully. A tiny smile appeared across your face seeing him look so calm. The sound of a wheel turning caught your attention from Atsumu. You looked over at his desk to see him there.
You were so glad Atsumu agreed to take your hamster for you when your dad said some horrible things. Although it hurt to not have him with you all the time, you were glad he was in a safe place where you can see him anytime you wanted. You walked over to the hamster cage and opened it at the top.
You took a mug nearby and put it in the cage to get him out. You watched as a tiny hamster climbed into the jar and squirmed around a bit. ‘He’s always so playful’ you thought. You sat yourself on the ground tilting the cup into your hand causing your hamster to fall into your hand.
You gently placed the cup beside you and cupped him with your hands. No matter what kind of day you were having this always brightened it. Seeing him always made it better. You never questioned how or why but you were glad the little guy did so much for you.
You moved him to one hand while still cupping it with the other so you could pet him with your finger. You felt his soft fur run across your fingertips. Your leg felt a little uncomfortable so you moved it causing the mug beside you to fall over making a kind of loud noise.
You heard Atsumu’s breath hitch as he brought his arms up to stretch. A yawn escaped from his mouth as he continued stretching. Atsumu rubbed his eyes before looking around his room. He was a little irritated that something woke him up from his nap. His eyes softened as his eyes met yours.
He always thought it was so adorable how you would come over and see the little guy almost everyday or every other day. He sat himself up and opened his arms for you to come in. You smiled at him and put your hamster back in the cup to be placed back into the cage. After you were done you headed over to Atsumu on his bed.
His arms were still open as they got a little tired from keeping them up. You got on top of him and laid on him. His arms wrapped around you as you felt him snuggle into the top of your head. This was a nice warm feeling. You could feel his heartbeat and it was always so calming.
Atsumu moved his arm weirdly causing you to hiss in pain. He moved it to where something was rubbing against you fresh wounds from earlier. His head lifted up hearing you hiss at something. His eyes widened as he realized a little bit of what was going on. He sat back up and placed you right beside him. Not waiting to do things without your permission, he asked you something.
“Hey baby, can I see?” He asked softly.
You knew he only wanted to help you. He would never even think about yelling at you for this, but for some reason you were still scared. You hesitated for a bit before nodding your head yes.
You gently grabbed the end of your sleeve pulling it up revealing your arm covered with dried blood, scabs and scares. Atsumu looked down at your arm with his eyes starting to water. He hated when this happened. He hates when you get hurt, whether it be you or your dad who causes it. But he knows why you do it, and he knows that the most he can do is be by you and support you and love you unconditionally
He reached his hands out to hold your hand and kiss it. He leaned in closer removing his hands from yours and placed it on your right cheek. His face leaned in on the other side before placing a soft kiss on your cheek and whispering something in your ear.
“I’ll be back okay? I’m gonna go get something real quick.”
You nodded your head and watched him get up and walk out. A couple minutes later he walked back in the room with a first aid kit. He said himself back down onto the bed beside you before opening the box. He took a small bottle of liquid out with some small wipes.
He poured some of the clear liquid into the wipe and took your hand and held it.
“I’m sorry sweetie this is gonna sting so squeeze my hand,” he said.
“Okay, you can go now,” you answered back.
Atsumu lightly dabbed the wipe onto your arm where the cuts were. You hissed as they stung a lot. You gripped onto Atsumu’s hand a lot harder trying to release the pain that you felt on your arm. After dabbing at the cuts a little you felt him gently try and wipe the dried blood away.
He finished up wiping your arms as he placed the dirty wipe onto his lap. He reached back into the box to pull out some bandages. He grabbed your hand once more and made you stretch you arms out so he could wrap around your whole arm.
You watched as he took the roll and wrapped around your arm going underneath and back up. Once he finished up he placed everything back into the box and placed the box into the floor. He looked back up at you before gently pulling you into a hug.
“You know I love you right? You mean so much that I swear I’ve never loved anyone as much as I love you, and I swear I’ll try my hardest to make you happy and protect you.”
Your eyes were now starting to tear up at what he said. You just appreciated him so much you didn’t even understand how you could show him that. You sniffle a bit before saying something back.
“Atsumu, thank you for staying by me. I love you so much,” you whispered, trying not to cry.
Atsumu moved his hand to the back on your head caressing it. All he wished for was to hold you like this forever. To protect you from all the dangers of the world. All he wanted was for you to be happy all the time. Even if there were to come a time where you’d be happy without him, he’d support you all the way.
➙ pairings - tsukishima x fem!reader ; suna x fem!reader
➙ genre - heavy angst, fluff, slice of life
➙ warnings - depression, verbal arguments, mentions of smut, suicide, death, mentions of self harm (i hope i didn’t forget any)
➙ word count - 933
taglist - open
a/n - this chapter involves mentions of bullying, self harm, depression and abuse; also thank you for 200 followers <3
As the next few days went by Tsukishima started spending less time with you as the days passed. You were honestly disappointed as you thought he would truly change, but things aren’t always as it seems.
You two went on cute dates the last couple days. Visiting different parks, going to nice cafes, and many other things. Your favorite moment had to be when the two of you decided to make dinner together.
Golden sun rays shined into your kitchen. Tsukishima and you were in the kitchen with aprons on with your ingredients spread out of the counter. You guys looked at everything you needed and made sure you had everything.
You only had two fishes that you chose, salmon and tuna. Although it is basic you can never go wrong with it. Tsukishima was cutting the fish while you grabbed the rice that just finished cooking. You grabbed the seaweed and the thing to roll the sushi.
Tsukishima finished cutting the fish and headed over to you with the cutting board with the two types of fishes on top of it. You placed the seaweed on top of the thing to roll it and grabbed some rice. You flattened it out on the seaweed and began grabbing pieces of the cut fish.
As you finished placing the fish on top you felt a presence behind you. You jumped a little in surprise but when you turned around it only happened to be Tsukishima. You giggled a bit at his towering body.
“Hi, can I help you?” you giggled.
He looked down at you and gave you a soft smile.
“I just wanna watch you roll it.”
You smiled before turning your eyes back to the unrolled sushi. You placed two hands at the end of the unrolled sushi. Before you were able to start rolling it two much larger hands were placed on top of yours. A light laugh escaped your mouth as you noticed how affectionate he was lately.
It felt like he was truly trying his best to change. This made your heart warm and butterflies appear in your stomach. Maybe things could work out in the end. You both had the brightest smiles while rolling the sushi together.
That’s a moment that will stay with you forever although it’s not much, it makes you remember the good things in life. It’s what helps you push through and make you see another day. Before having Tsukishima there you felt like you were lost. You felt like you lived in a world that had no color, that had no purpose.
Your past is something you’d love to forget about it. Although it makes you who you are to this day, it’s one of your most painful memories.
“You’re pathetic, did you know that?” A girl spat out.
“No wonder your dad left you.”
“If you own father didn’t want you, what makes you think anyone in this school wants you?”
You felt a sharp stinging pain on the right side of your cheek. Did she just slap you? Tears fell from your eyes even before you could blink. Why did they pick you? Was it because you would never tell anyone? What made you an easy target?
You went home that day thinking about all the things that led you up to this moment. You really felt like you couldn’t put up with this anymore. You stared at the mirror in front of you. There it was, you. Not the same you, not the one before all of this happened. The one that was covered in cuts and bruises. The one who only had pain in their eyes but hid it from everyone.
Could anything else go wrong? It’s not like you could get help. Everyone would hate you, they’d think you’re dramatic. You pulled up your sleeves to see the endless cuts, scabs and scars. You felt nothing. The only feeling there was pain.
Maybe it’s my time to leave tonight, you thought. That’s what you originally thought, but no. You’re giving it one last chance.
Tsukishima was always a boy you had admired. He was hardworking in school and volleyball. He didn’t put up with shit that people gave him. You wanted to be with him. You wanted to be like him. So this was the last chance. The next day you’re going to confess, and based on his response, you’ll know if it’s your time to leave or not.
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It was always hard for you to stand up for yourself. You were always known as a pushover. Today was the day you were going to change that. You are going to break up with him, and you’re going to leave. No exceptions today, no excuses.
You had so much hope for the change that he promised. Good things always end, you guessed.
-
“Tsukishima, I’m leaving.” You said sternly.
“W-why?” He said quietly.
“You promised. You promised you’d changed. Changing for a week won’t cut it. It was your last chance. I love you so much, but I know what I deserve. So, I’m sorry but I’m leaving, and I’ll have all my stuff packed tonight so you can take the apartment.”
Tsukishima looked at you with watery eyes, before he even knew it the tears were falling down his face.
“Okay,” he whispered.
“Maybe in the future things can work out for us, but not now.”
This time he didn’t protest. He didn’t beg you to stay. It hurts you a little bit, but maybe things are easier. Maybe we can work out in the future.
➙ pairings - tsukishima x fem!reader ; suna x fem!reader
➙ genre - heavy angst, fluff, slice of life
➙ warnings - depression, verbal arguments, mentions of smut, suicide, death, mentions of self harm (i hope i didn’t forget any)
➙ word count - 498
taglist - open
a/n - sorry this part is a little short
Your eyes slowly opened as you reached your hand to the other side of the bed. A little sigh and disappointment came to you when you realized it was cold and empty. ‘I thought Kei was going to at least stay in bed the next day.’
You turned around and hopped out of bed and started heading to the bathroom and clean yourself up before making breakfast. As you finished up in the bathroom you headed towards the living room and kitchen when a sweet smell hit your nose. You looked into the kitchen by the stove to see Tsukishima standing in there.
He was not wearing a shirt with an apron around him and some pajama pants. You smiles to yourself knowing maybe he was actually going to spend more time around now. You missed having him around a lot. Before letting Tsukishima know you were there, you pulled out your phone and took a quick picture.
Silent footsteps traced into the kitchen as you wrapped your arms around Tsukishima’s torso. You snuggled your head into his back before whispering to him.
“Good morning Kei,” you said smiling into his back.
“Good morning love. I’m almost done with the pancakes if you wanna get plates?”
“Okay.”
You pulled away from him as you walked over to the cabinets with plates in them. You took two out and placed them next to the stove where Tsukishima was. After placing them down you walked to the drawers and pulled out two butter knives and two forks.
You took the utensils and placed them on the table where the two of you would be sitting. You took a seat and waited for Tsukishima to come and join you. After a few minutes of waiting a plate was placed in front of you. Tsukishima sat on the opposite side of the round table with his plate in front of him as well.
As you both are you caught up on some things about each other’s lives that you weren’t able to talk about before. You both finished up and you headed to the kitchen to do the dishes, while Tsukishima stayed at the dining table and wiped it down.
The two of you finished and sat down on the couch in the living room.
“ Hey Kei, do you have work today,” you said while looking over to him on your right.
He shook his head no and raised his left arm for you. You smiled at his gesture and scooted over to him and snuggled into his left side. His arm lowered down and wrapped onto your waist. You guys picked out a movie to watch as you finally got to spend the day to yourselves.
This was a nice feeling. Something you wished could happen every day but you know it can’t, not with the two of you being busy with work and other things. But this was nice, this was something you’re gonna enjoy in the moments.
➙ pairings - tsukishima x fem!reader ; suna x fem!reader
➙ genre - heavy angst, fluff, slice of life
➙ warnings - depression, verbal arguments, mentions of smut, suicide, death, mentions of self harm (i hope i didn’t forget any)
➙ word count - 928
taglist - open
a/n - sorry i haven’t been posting lately i have WAY too much school work;(
The sun shined through the window of your bedroom. The birds were loud as ever this morning. You slowly opened your eyes to see you had fallen asleep in bed.
You flipped over to the side, and to your surprise there he was. Actually laying in bed with you still sleeping. You were still stuck in a bit of a tired state so you rubbed your eyes making sure you weren’t seeing things.
After opening your eyes once more, you saw he was still there. No matter how much you wanted to just snuggle into him you knew what you had to do. You made up your mind last night. You knew when enough was enough.
One morning of staying in bed does not make up for the weeks he’s been gone without a notice. You really questioned if you were important to him, if you really even meant anything.
All of those wonderful memories you’ve always cherished just didn’t make up for the fact that he is barely with you anymore. It felt like you were living alone, and at most you lived with a stranger.
In the beginning you brushed it off. He was busy with work, he said, and you believed him. Why wouldn’t you? He had never done anything to betray your trust. So a few days passed and you hadn’t seen him.
Once again, he was busy with work right? You knew he probably felt stressed and tired so you couldn’t bother him with how you felt. He knew how you are. He was probably extremely busy then.
A week goes by. Still barely any signs of him. You noticed his dirty clothes building up in the laundry basket. ‘So he was still coming home’ you thought. You walked over to the basket of clothes but an unfamiliar scent ran into your nose as you picked up the clothes. Was this a women’s perfume?
It surely wasn’t yours. You hadn’t seen him in a week and you didn’t own this scent. This was the moment your insecurities started eating at you. The bad thoughts were coming back in.
So as the next couple of weeks go by you try and suppress this memory. Although it was hard you tried your best. Tsukishima would stay home for a day or two before disappearing once more. It was for work right?
A tiny noise brought you out of your thoughts and memories. A groan escaped from Tsukishima’s mouth. You sat up staring straight in front of you. ‘Stick to the plan.’ And you were according to the plan in your head.
You looked over at him to see Tsukishima rubbing his eyes and trying to wake up. A few noises came from him here and there while he was slowly waking up. As soon as you saw his eyes begin to open fully you turned your head to look straight in front of you.
“Hi baby,” Tsukishima said in his morning voice.
You didn’t respond. This was weird, he thought. He thought maybe you’d be happy you guys finally get to see each other but he guessed that wasn’t the case.
“Hey are you o-,”
“We need to talk,” you cut him off. He looked at you confusingly while sitting himself up next to you.
“Um okay?”
“Listen, I think we should break up.”
Tsukishima looked at you with confusion and worry on his face. He felt his heart pick up its pace. He felt a panic feeling set in place.
“W-why?” He stuttered out. You looked at him and sighed.
“It’s like we aren’t even together anyway. We just happen to be living together. You’re never home and you never call or text. I feel like this is the first time I’ve talked to you in a month and a half.”
Tsukishima didn’t know what to say. You were right. He hasn’t been home at all lately. He had his own reasons for why that is, but he could never tell you why.
“Hello?” You said.
This pulled Tsukishima out of his thoughts. He remembered what was going on right now. He didn’t want you to leave him. He needed you. Whether he had in him or not he was going to get you to stay.
“Please don’t leave.” He said softly.
“Kei, you haven’t been around lately what even is the difference?”
“Please, I promise I’ll be better, I promise I’ll come home and spend more time with you!” He pleaded.
You thought about giving in. He sounded pretty genuine, but was it enough to make you want to stay? You thought about it. He had never begged like this before. Did this mean that he still loved you?
“I love you, please don’t leave. I’ll change.”
You took a deep breathe in and let it out. Your eyes shut tightly as you thought about the next words you were going to say.
“Fine. But if you do it again I’ll leave for real.” You said sternly.
Tsukishima gave you a small nod before going in and hugging you tightly. You felt his heart rate slow down a bit as he squeezed you tighter. Tsukishima calmed down a bit knowing this was his last chance with you.
You pulled back from the hug and cupped his face with your hands. You giggled while squeezing his cheeks a little. A little pout came onto his face when you squeezed his cheeks together. His lips pouted out as you leaned in and gave him a small peck.