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Dec 7, 2025

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Bucky Barnes x Reader: Sunflower

Warnings: Language, mentions of death, drugging, if I've missed anything, let me know PART 2

Tony Stark didn't have a soft spot for most people in his life. With the exception of Pepper, Morgan, and Peter Parker, there were few people he would go above and beyond for. Once he saw (y/n) (l/n), she was added to that list.

(y/n) was a product of HYDRA. Unlike the witch, (y/n) did not willingly join the secret organization. Even though she was fairly young, (y/n) was a world-renowned botanist who was very well respected in her community. HYDRA saw something in her and wanted to see what they could do to enhance her knowledge of plants. Tony had to give it to HYDRA. They really outdid themselves with the work they did on her.

Tony would never willingly admit this out loud, but he truly believed (y/n) was one of the more powerful Avengers. It was only a matter of time before she realized her true potential.

Tony wasn't one to keep track of other supernatural beings in the universe. He let them do their own thing as long as they let him do his own thing.

One Wednesday morning while he was taking a cup of coffee to the lab for Bruce, FRIDAY started sending him video surveillance of some of the things (y/n) was doing with HYDRA. His interest had been peaked.

She was stealthy, he had to give her that. There wasn't much proof that she was even working with HYDRA. There was very little surveillance on her. Whenever FRIDAY could find something, he noticed this completely blank look on her face. There wasn't a single thought behind those eyes. She clearly wasn't in control of her actions.

Tony never had his mind controlled, but he had heard a little about it from Clint and Loki. He could tell that neither of them really liked to talk about it. So, he rounded up a couple members of the team and their next mission was to save (y/n). He decided to take Natasha, Sam, and Clint to help. It was a seamless mission and absolutely nothing went wrong which was a great sign.

Once the team took her from HYDRA, Bruce had her placed in a medically induced coma for a couple of days while he studied her mind. He was absolutely fascinated by her and after a while he decided that she was safe enough to wake up.

Once she was awake, (y/n) didn't remember anything that she had done while under HYDRA's influence. For the first couple of days, the entire team was on edge around her. They had all seen the footage of her so they had every reason to keep their distance for a little while. Her abilities were intimidating.

Eventually, they became more and more comfortable around her. She became more comfortable around them as well. (y/n) was a total sweetheart. She very quickly warmed up to the team and most of them took a liking to her as well.

***

(y/n) spent a lot of her free time in a greenhouse that Tony had specifically built for her. The greenhouse was a large glass building that had been built in the backyard of the tower the day that she woke up.

He thought this was a good way for her to express herself in a control environment. She could branch out with her powers at her own speed without having to worry about disturbing anyone else.

Once she had walked in on an intense conversation that Steve, Bruce, and Tony were having about her. (y/n) didn't hear most of what they were saying, but she did manage to catch a glimpse of the footage they were watching on her.

She couldn’t believe what she was watching. There's no way that she could treat other humans like that. And why couldn’t she remember any of that? The things she was seeing had her worried.

FRIDAY alerted the boys of presence before she had even seen the worst of it. Tony quickly turned off the tv and tried to call out to her, but she had taken off toward her bedroom.

There had always been this negative voice in the back of (y/n)'s head saying that she was too dangerous to be around. That was when she really started to believe it. Soon after that, (y/n) realized that she could do a whole lot more than look after plants, but it seemed as if Tony didn't think she could handle watching any more of the film. Not after she spent three days locked in her room after walking in on them. (y/n) thought otherwise though. That wasn't something for Tony to decide. She wasn’t a child and deserved to know the whole truth.

***

(y/n)'s greenhouse was hot, but it didn't bother her at all. It was her sanctuary. There was a large array of greenery like flowers, fruits, vegetables, and herbs. The majority of the edible things went to the tower's chef to prepare their meals.

There were things growing that weren't local to New York at all. (y/n) had plants thriving in her greenhouse that weren't even native to Earth. She simply spoke and the plants did exactly what she wanted. She would often dapple in some herbalist work as well. She spent a lot of her time working in the medical bay at the tower.

(y/n) could create potions with all the different plants she raised. There were potions that could make people fall in love, experience insanity, or think that they are an animal.

One thing that (y/n) wasn't completely aware of was the fact that she had complete control of every plant in the universe. Anything that participated in photosynthesis would bend at her will. She had a good idea, but she wasn't completely sure just yet.

"This is amazing (y/n)." The metal armed soldier said in awe as he walked into the greenhouse. He always knew where to find her. Most of the other Avengers didn't visit (y/n) in her greenhouse. They usually said it was because of all the missions and meetings they went to, but she knew it was because of the temperature.

The warm temperature didn't bother her at all. (y/n) liked being alone. She felt like the plants were her home. The team didn't really trust her on missions just yet so this is where she spent a lot of her free time. But then there was Bucky Barnes who always managed to take time out of his busy schedule to come down and visit her.

Bucky wasn't sure why, but he had always felt a pull toward (y/n) ever since she was brought into the tower. When she was first placed in a coma by Bruce, he would come sit with her. Bruce suggested that Bucky read to her.

Bucky asked if she would be able to hear him and Bruce admitted that he wasn't positive, but there was a chance. So, he took a chance and read to her. He had never been able to bring himself to ask (y/n) if she remembers any of that. Maybe one day he would say something to her. He was too scared to tell her that he had been reading to her. He knew that (y/n) wouldn't cause a scene, but he didn't want her thinking that he was weird.

When (y/n) awoke, Bucky was the first person she saw. She greeted him with a smile before passing out. Bucky thought that he had done something and completely freaked out until Bruce told him that everything was fine. She had gotten overstimulated and should wake up later in the day.

(y/n) was soft and warm and kind. Maybe that's why he had taken such a liking to her. It had been a long time since someone treated him the way she had. Like a proper human being. It seemed like some people in the tower walked on broken egg shells around him. It was as if they thought the Winter Soldier would just randomly appear one day. Of course Bucky couldn't blame them. There was the possibility of that happening.

Even though he had a troubled past, it was nothing (y/n) held against him. She never even asked him about his past. The two of them would spend a lot of their free time together. They would watch movies and cook some of their meals together. Everyone on the team was happy that (y/n) easily adjusted to normal life again.

"You don’t have to make such a big deal every time you come in here Bucky. I grow plants. It's nothing compared to what some of you guys can do." (y/n) was crouched over a plant whispering to it. Bucky was almost positive that he had seen those plants growing in Wakanda during his time there. He knew that those plants shouldn’t be able to grow anywhere else in the universe, but here they were. There were under the intense care of (y/n).

"Well from what I've heard, you can do a hell of a lot more than just grow plants." Bucky shook his head at the pretty girl.

"Thanks Bucky, but I promise it's not that cool. I mean think about what Strange can do. And Thor is literally the god of thunder. I'm just me."

"Why do you always do that to yourself?" Bucky questioned walking around and admiring all the plants. They were beautiful. Just like her.

"What do I do?" She walked over to the sink and washed the dirt off her hands. Once she started washing her hands, he knew that she was done in the greenhouse for the day.

If he wasn't caught up in some last minute mission debriefing, Bucky would come down to the greenhouse to walk with (y/n) back up to the tower. He rarely missed their greenhouse walks. It was the highlight of his day.

A couple of times he cut a training session short with Steve to walk with her. Steve told Sam about it and Sam told him that he was "whipped". Bucky had absolutely no idea what it meant.

"You’re always downplaying yourself. There's no need to do that. We're all different in different ways." Bucky tried explaining to her. He had self-esteem issues as well so he knew where (y/n) was coming from. It could be hard sometimes, but if (y/n) needed someone to remind her how amazing she was, then he would do just that.

"I'm just being honest. I mean it's hard to be confident in myself when I'm walking amongst gods and super soldiers. I mean Tony won’t even let me go on missions with you guys. He treats me like a child. I think he would let Morgan go on a mission before me."

"Maybe it's for the best." Bucky knew how he felt himself when he heard about all the awful things HYDRA had made him do.

(y/n) angrily glared at him and he felt one of the plants that was sitting by his foot slowly start wrapping itself around his leg and making its way up his body. He didn't really notice it at first, but it did start to become a little uncomfortable once it got around his stomach and chest area.

Bucky didn't think that (y/n) knew exactly what she was doing. She had turned her back to him and now she was packing up her belongings. So this is what happened when you made her angry.

Bucky tried to speak, but the plant was crushing his lungs so tightly that he wasn't even able to get a sound out. He managed to free his boot and kick over a plant causing the pot to shatter when it hit the ground. (y/n) whipped around and her eyes widened in horror at the sight before her. The last thing she wanted was to hurt Bucky. She didn't want to hurt anyone.

"Stop." (y/n) calmly spoke and the grip on him loosened as the plants returned to their original spot. "Sorry about that. Sometimes when I get angry my mind goes blank. I lose control of the plants."

"It's okay." Bucky managed to give her a weak smile. "I didn't know you could do that."

"Every day I'm learning more and more about what I can do."

"I know you wouldn’t have let this happen, but could those plants have killed me?" He instinctively reached up and rubbed his chest area. Those plants must have squeezed him tighter than he thought.

"Yes." (y/n) simply stated. "It would take a little longer than it would to kill an average human, but eventually they would have. It would be the same way an anaconda constricts to kill its prey. I'm so so sorry Bucky. I promise I didn't mean it. I would never try to hurt you."

"I promise it's okay (y/n). It's going to take a little bit more than a couple of plants to take me out." Bucky gave her a weak smile while wincing and rubbing his ribcage again. He had a feeling that a couple of them were cracked.

Tony was right, she was scary. But Tony was not right to keep her in the dark about her abilities. That made her even more dangerous. She needed to know the extent of her powers or that could be detrimental to the entire team.

"A couple of your ribs are broken. This should heal them, but you might not want to talk for a little bit." She walked over to a cabinet and pulled out a vial filled with a deep red substance. It kinda looked like blood which made Bucky shudder. She passed it over to him. He felt like some people would be wary of (y/n) giving them something to drink, but he would trust her with his life.

"How do you know my ribs are broken?" He took the top off the bottle and sniffed it. It didn't look the best, but it smelled like strawberries.

"I know this is a little weird, but I felt the plants break your ribs." She eyed the vial in his hands and gestured for him to drink it. "I promise it doesn’t taste that bad."

"So you mean to tell me that you could feel the plants breaking my ribs?"

"Yeah." She shrugged as if it was no big deal. "Whenever I move plants, I feel them as if they are a part of me. I could never pinpoint the feeling until those plants almost choked you. But stop talking until your ribs are healed. I know you're in pain."

Bucky rarely saw eye to eye with Tony and this was one of those times. He felt like that footage was something (y/n) needed to see. She was bound to do more than grow exotic plants and fix up concoctions to heal broken bones.

Bucky took the backpack from (y/n) and placed it on his back. It wasn't heavy at all, but whenever he was around (y/n), he always found himself doing simple things like that.

Of course (y/n) deserved someone who would go above and beyond for her, but he didn't want to come off too strong. Most of the walk back to the tower was silent, until Bucky finally spoke up.

"I was wondering if I could ask you something?" This had been something that had been weighing on his mind for the longest. He had always wanted to have a flirtier relationship with (y/n), but he couldn’t bring himself to do it because he wanted to be respectful toward her.

"Of course." (y/n) looked over to him as they entered the compound. "It sounds like your ribs are doing better."

"They're doing much better. All thanks to you." Bucky grinned. He was amazed that she could make something like that. If he had gone to the med bay, it would have taken a few days for his bones to mend themselves back together. She was able to mend his bones within 15 minutes from the plants she grew that came from all over the universe. He wondered if Banner knew what kind of gem he had living under his nose.

He tried to push the negative thoughts away, but his mind started wandering. If she was able to make potions heal people, were they able to do the exact opposite? Bucky knew the answer to that, but he didn't want to accept it. If she could trick someone into drinking one of her potions, she could make anything happen to them. Good or bad.

"I didn't mean to change the subject. What was your question?" (y/n) cocked her head to the side studying Bucky's features.

"Do you have anyone special in your life?" Bucky nervously asked. He had no idea why he even worded it like that.

"Do you mean like a romantic someone special?" (y/n) giggled looking over at him.

"Yeah. Obviously I know that I am someone very special in your life. But I meant like a romantic partner."

"No." (y/n) nervously tucked a strand of hair behind her ear. "I mean, I haven't really had time to do all the romantic things like that, you know? I was super involved with my research before all the HYDRA stuff. Then I was locked in a cell for a while and now I'm here. I've had a few partners here and there, but I don’t really get out much Bucky. Especially not now. Tony lets me go to the tower and to my greenhouse. I don’t think I'm allowed to go anywhere else. I think that he's scared I'll hurt someone."

"I think he's more worried about you hurting yourself." Bucky suggested. He knew how (y/n) was feeling. Tony had him in this exact position a couple of years ago. "I think I could convince Tony to let you leave this place for a couple of hours. Is there anywhere you'd like to go?"

"I just want to go to a zoo."

"A zoo?" Bucky's eyes shot up in surprise. That was not what he thought she was going to say.

"Yes." (y/n) confirmed. "I want to go to a zoo. I've never been before."

"Okay, I think I can make that happen. Next week, if you're free how about we go get lunch and then go to the zoo? That is if you want to. No pressure or anything." They had reached the tower and headed to the elevators so that they could ride it up to the kitchen.

"Are you asking me out on a date Bucky Barnes?" (y/n) stopped walking and stared up at him. He was blushing and doing everything he could to avoid her piercing gaze. It had been so long since he had asked anyone out.

If she told him no, he was going to take himself out of the dating game forever. He couldn’t handle the rejection from (y/n).

"I am, but if you don't want me to, then no. We can still go to the zoo and lunch as friends if that would make you happy."

"Going to lunch and the zoo as friends would make me happy, but making it a date would make me even happier." (y/n) grinned at the brunette. This was going way better than he could have imagine.

"Sounds great." He nodded. "So, uh when are you free?"

"I'm always free." (y/n) shrugged. "Just let me know whenever you get some free time."

Bucky opened his mouth to respond, but he was stopped when Tony came down the hallway. He looked between the grinning (y/n) and the blushing Bucky not sure what he had just walked in on. He had never seen either of them like this. Tony didn't even know that Bucky could blush.

"I don't know what I just walked in on, but I need to talk to Sunflower about something." Tony grumbled walking over to the fridge to grab a bottle of water. (y/n) rolled her eyes at the nickname he had given her.

"Can this wait until after dinner. I'm hungry." (y/n)'s eye flicked over to the table where the rest of the Avengers were sitting. This was crucial bonding time for (y/n). The other Avengers were so close and she knew that she would never be as close at the other ones, but she wanted to be friendly. Dinner was the best time to make that happen. Even if it was only for an hour or so, everyone let their guard down while they enjoyed a meal together.

"I promise it won't take more than twenty minutes. Bruce and I want to show you something in the lab that we've been working on."

"I'll give you ten." (y/n) grumbled before taking her backpack from Bucky and heading off behind Tony. She was pissed. It was Friday night so that meant Loki was cooking. The tower chefs got the weekends off so the team took turns cooking during those days. This was not known until recently, but Loki was a wonderful cook. It smelled as if he had made tacos.

Tony shot a suspicious look back at Bucky as they walked off toward the lab. He was going to be having a serious conversation with him later. There would be no funny business with Sunflower allowed.

"What's up?" (y/n) walked over to Bruce who was looking at something under a microscope. This was nothing out of the ordinary. Tony and Bruce were always working on something in the lab that they needed help with.

They were always asking her to come up some potion or spend the day in the med bay helping Bruce after an intense mission. Last week she helped him come up with a sleeping potion that tasted like hot chocolate. Apparently Peter Parker had been having nightmares and Tony wanted to help him have a dreamless sleep.

"We're leaving for a mission on Monday. We shouldn’t be back later than Thursday. Which means you're in charge while I'm gone. Anyway, I don’t know all the details, but something about some Vikings up north that are stealing intel from SHIELD. I was wondering if you could take a look at a couple of medications that Bruce and I have been researching. Of course they're not FDA approved, but it's not like they're being created for the general population."

"Sure." (y/n) happily nodded glancing over at Bruce. She was always happy to help the men that saved her life. If it wasn't for them then she doesn't know where she would be. "What would you like the medication to be able to do?"

"Before we get to that, I do have a question." Tony raised an eyebrow. (y/n) nodded to let him know that she was listening. "Do all of your creations have to be taken orally?"

"Nope. I can create powders that have the same effect, but they’re much harder to control. You have to take in account the wind and other elements. I would suggest a serum that can be put into a dart gun."

"Excellent." Bruce nodded coming up from the microscope. "We wanted you down here because Tony and I were doing some researching and there are a couple of things we'd like you to look into.

"Sure. What were you guys thinking about?"

"How about something where the receiver's blood suddenly stops pumping. Or their body turns to stone? Maybe even one where they lose all their senses. Or how about-" Tony had started rambling. This is what happened when he got excited about whatever he was talking about.

"I don't think I've worked with anything like that Tony." (y/n) said after a moment. She was lying. She knew could create just about anything he dreamed of. There was no doubt about it, but all that information was locked away in her brain and Tony was the one with the key. All the knowledge was stored somewhere in there. She had a feeling that watching the film and reading her files would help bring all that information back.

"You've done it before (y/n). I know you don't remember a lot of your time while you were with HYDRA, but there's so much you can do Sunflower. You don’t even know the half of it."

"I don’t even know if I can touch the plants I would need to create potions like that." She smoothly lied. She already knew what Tony was going to say before the words even left his mouth.

"You're immune." Tony simply stated. "You are completely immune to all plant toxins."

Yes. She knew that. She had been playing around with some toxic plants the past couple of weeks just to test her limits. All she needed was those files and she could bring someone like Thor to his knees.

"I feel like you know me better than I know myself." (y/n) angrily muttered looking away from Tony. In this moment, she was furious with him. Why would he keep this all from her. If it came down to it, she would sneak a truth potion into his coffee and force him to tell her what she wanted to know.

"Your statement isn't completely false. You can do so much more than you know. You see those trees over there." Tony pointed to a couple of trees that were swaying at the edge of the compound. (y/n) nodded and looked at him not sure where the conversation was going. "Turn the leaves yellow."

"I've never tried to do anything from this far away." Another lie. She was constantly doing this. She wanted to see how far away she could be and still control the plants.

"You can do it. I've seen you do it from father." Tony shrugged. It was the middle of the summer and the leaves were a bright green. Watching the leaves turn colors was as if (y/n) fast forwarded through time. They were yellow, then orange, then brown. They died and slowly fell to the ground. It didn't even take much thought for her to do that. She had done more than what Tony asked of her.

"I'll make whatever it is that you and Dr. Banner want, no questions asked if you let me watch that film. I want all the files as well. That's all I'm asking for."

"No can do Sunflower. You're not ready."

"If you don’t let me see them, I'll..." (y/n) trailed off not sure what she would do if Tony didn't let her watch that film. She needed to think of something quick.

"You'll do what?" He cockily raised an eyebrow. He penitently waited on (y/n) to say what exactly she would be doing if he didn't show her that film.

"I'll ask Loki."

"You wouldn’t dare." Tony's cocky grin dropped. Even Bruce's eyes widened with shock.

Tony knew that Loki wouldn't just fetch the film for her, but he would help her retrieve her memories as well. He would do it just because Tony had expressed to the team that he would let (y/n) see the film when both him and Bruce thought she was ready.

In all honesty, Tony was feeling a little guilty. (y/n) had no idea what all she could do and it was his fault. She could create a drink so powerful it healed Bucky's bones in minutes. She didn't know the full extent of what she could do. Eventually he would let her watch that film, but today was not the day. She was just a child.

He knew that it wasn't fair to see her as a child. She was far from it. She deserved to know.

"Watch me Tony. I'll give you until you leave for your mission to come up with a decision." (y/n) gave both of them a smirk before heading back toward the kitchen. She was starving. The last thing she wanted was to argue with Tony. Especially since this conversation had gone on way longer than she wanted it to.

When (y/n) arrived back in the kitchen, the entire team was gone. That was everyone besides Bucky. He had been waiting on her to come back so that she didn't have to eat alone. He had even fixed a plate for her and left it in the oven so that it would stay warm.

"You didn’t have to wait for me Bucky." (y/n) gave him a warm smile as she walked over to sit down beside him.

"I know I didn't have to, but I didn't want you to eat dinner alone." He smiled back and took his seat across the table from her. The two of them ate and laughed and talked about their day. Eventually they got on the topic of (y/n) wanting to see the film of her when she was with HYDRA.

Bucky knew that she needed to see it, but at the same time, maybe she would be better off not seeing it. Tony could just explain everything to her. She didn't need to see it. He remembers what it felt like when he saw that film of himself. He wouldn’t wish that feeling on his worst enemy.

***

The following days leading up the mission, it was clear that Tony had been avoiding (y/n). He hadn't made his decision about her seeing the film. Him, Bruce, and Steve had gone back and forth about it for hours. Yes, (y/n) should be the one making that call, but he didn't want to ruin her. She was so lively and innocent and the last thing he wanted was for that to change.

Once Tony's bags were packed, he headed down to the greenhouse to tell (y/n) goodbye. He could never leave without telling her goodbye. She was like his daughter. On his walk down, he decided how he was feeling about the files. She wasn't going to see them before he left. He wanted to be there when she saw them and if he wasn't going to be there then she couldn't see them. She was not going to be happy, but he would deal with the consequences later.

"Please don’t kill me." Tony raised his hands in surrender. "I just want to be there when you watch everything and I can't be with you for the next couple of days."

"You will feel my wrath when you return Tony Stark." (y/n) hissed staring at him. Tony made sure to keep an eye on all the plants around him. The last thing he wanted was to die at the hands of a Venus fly trap.

"Look, I know this isn't ideal, but I think this is best for everyone. You're in charge of Barnes and Mischief until I get back."

"Oh so now I have to babysit." (y/n) crossed her arms and rolled her eyes.

"Just keep an eye on Loki please. For some odd reason, he actually listens to you and Barnes is sick so just keep him comfortable. I don't know what he has. It seems like the flu or something. I haven't seen him because I hate sick people. You're immune so could you please fix him something?"

"I don’t think there's much I could do for a super soldier." (y/n) grumbled. "I could probably create a couple of potions to help with his symptoms."

"Please try not to kill him Sunflower." Tony joked.

"Did Bucky tell you that?" (y/n)'s eyes widened in horror. "I promise I didn't mean it Tony."

"It's fine, I was just joking. I know you love your greenhouse so don’t forget about him in the tower."

"Oh I promise I won't. I'll spend as little time as possible down here. We'll be fine."

Tony just nodded at her response. He felt guilty. He kept telling himself that eventually he would tell her. He would let her watch the all the film he had on her, but not today.

Once she heard the jet take off, (y/n) knew there was someone she needed to see. Someone who never sugarcoated anything he said to her. Someone who would be honest no matter what.

She softly knocked on the god's room and patiently waited for him to answer. They weren't the closest in the tower, but he was one of the very few people who somewhat knew what she was going through. He also knew what it felt like to have the whole team avoiding you because they were scared of you.

"Come in." Loki called out. He was lounging on a loveseat while reading a book. (y/n) cocked her head to the side silently studying him. He always had a book. She wondered how many he read in a single day. If he read well into the night once everyone else had gone to sleep. Did he even need sleep?

"Hi Loki." She whispered walking further into the room. (y/n) had never been in Loki's room before, but she decided that the room suited him very well. It calmed her. Like he did.

"Hello (y/n)." His eyes shot up in surprise. She was one of the last people he expected to enter his room. "Is there something I can help you with?"

"Yes. I want you to help remember."

"And what exactly do you want help remembering?" His book closed with a soft thump and he leaned forward towards (y/n). He knew exactly what she was asking him for, but he wanted her to say it. He wasn’t going to put words in her mouth.

"I want to remember what happened to me before I came here. I just feel like there are these gaps in my memories and I want you to help me fill them."

"Do you not remember anything at all?"

"I know I have dreams about what I did, but when I wake up, I don’t remember anything at all. I need to remember Loki."

He silently wondered if people in the tower had been talking to (y/n) about what his powers were. He hadn't really exchanged abilities with the young Avenger before. In all honesty, he wasn’t even sure what all she could do. He had seen some of the footage of her and he had to admit, he was impressed. Stark told him that wasn't even the tip of the iceberg. If what he knew was only a little bit of what she could do, Loki was very happy to have her on his side.

He often did wonder why (y/n) didn't help when they went on missions. Yes, she was young, but she wasn't that young. She wasn't a child like the Spider-Boy.

Loki thought that if he was human, the two of them would be around the same age. He also learned that (y/n) had a PhD so she couldn’t be that young. Loki assumed that she hadn't gone out into the field yet because it had something to do with her not being able to completely control her powers yet. Hopefully she would be able to go onto some missions soon. She would be a great asset.

"What makes you think I can help?" He hummed.

"Because you can do cool mind shit. Or am I thinking about the wrong person?"

"You are correct (y/n)." He let out a deep sigh. "I am the one that can do cool mind shit."

"Great." She happily grinned.

"Did you tell Stark that you wanted to remember?"

"Yes, but he doesn’t think it's a good idea. He would kill me if he found out I was talking to you about this."

"He would not kill you dear (y/n). You are his Sunflower. He would kill me if he found out I helped retrieve your memories though." Loki chuckled shaking his head. He couldn’t have the old man hating him even more than he already did.

"That's why we're not going to tell him." (y/n) responded. "He's gone on a mission for a couple of days."

"He will know."

"How will he know?"

"Because (y/n)," Loki let out a sad sigh. "What you find out about yourself is going to alter you. For better or worse, I don’t know that. When you find out what you did, it's going to take some time to process. I wouldn’t be surprised if you locked yourself in your room for a while again. Tony will know that you know. Then he will come for me. He will kill me."

"Can you die?" (y/n) shyly looked over at him.

"Yes."

"I was just wondering because I was reading up on you guys and I read that you faked your death."

"Did you do some reading on all of us?" He was curious now. Loki had never read anything about himself that Stark had on file.

"Yeah." (y/n) nodded. "I spent a lot of time in the med bay while Bruce ran some test on me. I got bored so I just read about you guys. You were the most interesting."

"And why was that?" His eye shot up in surprise. He never thought there would be anyone who was interested in him.

"Because I've never met a god before." (y/n) chuckled. "I mean I've read about demigods in Percy Jackson and stuff like that. But from what I've read, you're so much cooler than them."

"Percy Jackson?" Loki slowly repeated. He had heard about the books, but he always though they were children's fantasy stories.

"Yeah. I have the whole set. I'll let you borrow them sometime if you want. But now we're getting off track. I just feel like everyone in the tower is avoiding me. I tried asking FRIDAY what happened, but I think Tony set up some restrictions against me."

"Maybe that is for the best."

"No." (y/n) snapped. The couple of plants that Loki kept in his room started inching toward him. He nervously eyed them and (y/n) lazily waved her hand causing them to return to their original position. "Sorry, that happens when I get agitated I wouldn’t have let them hurt you."

"Are you sure about that? I heard you almost killed Barnes last week."

"Fuck. Does everyone know I did that? Did Bucky tell you that? I didn't mean to do it. I've gained more control of my powers since then."

"Well that's good that you're controlling your powers. Maybe once Tony sees that you have complete control then he will show you."

"I'll never have complete control until I know exactly what I did. I can't control what I don’t know Loki. Would you rather have not known what you did in New York?"

"I honestly don’t know (y/n)." Loki rubbed his temples. He was not planning on having this heavy of a conversation today. "Look (y/n), I want you to take some time and think about what you're truly asking of me. Give it a couple of days and get back to me. If it's something you still want, then we can reevaluate."

(y/n) happily nodded. She thought that was a pretty good deal. As she exited Loki's room, she was met with none other than Bucky Burns. She let out a yelp of surprise when she ran into him firm chest. He wasn’t supposed to be out of his room. He was sick.

"What were you doing in there with Loki?" Bucky croaked out and suspiciously raised an eyebrow. He was clearly not feeling well, but he was trying to hide it.

"We were talking about Percy Jackson." (y/n) mumbled looking away from him. She was looking anywhere but at him. What she told him wasn't exactly a lie. But it wasn't the whole truth either. She wasn't very good at lying to him.

"You were asking him to help you get your memories back."

"I need to know Bucky."

"No you don’t. Have you ever heard the saying that ignorance is bliss?"

"And have you ever heard the saying that ignorance is an enemy, even to its owner." She glared up him. Even though Bucky wanted to disagree, she was right. She had no idea what she could do. She was someone that could have given him a run for his money when he was in his Winter Soldier prime days. "You know I'm right Bucky. I don’t want to argue with you. You need to get back to bed."

It took a lot of work, but (y/n) managed to get him back into bed. She tried tucking him under the covers, but he complained that he was too hot. He was sweating so (y/n) went into his bathroom to grab a wet washcloth to place on his forehead. Once she came back into his room, Bucky had taken off his sweatpants and t-shirt. They were completely soaked through with sweat. The only thing covering his perfectly sculpted body was a pair of navy blue boxers.

(y/n) gulped and slowly walked toward him. It had been a while since she had seen a halfway naked man. She wasn't expecting to see him like this so soon. Maybe after a couple of dates, but not today. She laid the cool washcloth on his forehead which caused Bucky to let out a sign in relief.

"Thank you doll." He managed to say. It had been so long since someone had cared for him like this.

"Of course. Would you like anything else? My mom used to make soup for me when I was little. It always helped me feel better."

"I don’t want to be a bother."

"You're no bother at all Bucky. Please let me take care of you." (y/n) gave him a gentle smile and passed him the remote so that he could watch tv. She also handed him his phone so that he could call if he needed anything.

It shouldn’t take long, but (y/n) knew what she needed to do. If she didn't do it now then there wasn't going to be another opportunity. She went down to her greenhouse to find a vial that had been sitting in the back of her cabinet for a while. She hadn't decided who she wanted to use it on, but now was the perfect time.

Bucky was weak and wouldn’t suspect a single thing. The liquid was clear and practically tasteless which was perfect for pouring into Bucky's soup. It sounded like his nose was pretty stopped up so his taste probably wasn't that great at the moment.

Walking into the kitchen, (y/n) quickly got to work making some chicken noodle soup for Bucky. It didn't take that long. She had made this recipe many different times for her siblings when they got sick. The last thing she put into it was her secret ingredient.

"Something smells good in here. What are you cooking-" Loki's voice trailed off as he watched (y/n) slip a vial back into her backpack.

"It's not what you think Loki." (y/n) anxiously rubbed her hands together hoping that he wouldn’t ask too many questions.

"Look, I don’t know what you put in his soup and I don’t want to know, but just know that you can't come back from what you're about to do. You can't unsee it."

"I'm a big girl Loki. I'll be okay."

"I believe you (y/n)." He raised his hands in surrender.

"Well there is more than enough soup left if you want some. Please help yourself. I promise the secret ingredient isn't in there."

"Thank you." Loki gave her a small smile as he walked over the pot simmering on the stove. He was going to have to ask (y/n) to cook more often. It smelled wonderful.

"Of course. Please enjoy." She grinned and went started heading back toward Bucky's room. If he hadn't fallen asleep yet, he was probably wondering where she was.

"Oh and (y/n)." Loki called out before she had gotten too far away. (y/n) slowly turned around to face him. "I have an idea of what you're planning on doing and if you ever need to talk, I'm here."

"I appreciate that Loki. I really do, but I'll be okay. I've been preparing myself for this."

That was a complete lie. (y/n) had a feeling that she wasn't going to okay. She didn't know what she was going to do after she did what she was planning on doing. Tony sent her a text earlier in the day saying that the mission went quicker than expected so they would be home the following day.

(y/n) patiently sat there waiting for Bucky to finish his soup. She sat in silence while he hungrily ate the entire bowl. She didn't expect the potion to take long to get into his bloodstream.

(y/n) wasn't all evil. She made sure to add something in there to help him start feeling better as well. He should be back on his feet tomorrow. It would usually take the average person around 5 days to get over the flu, but he would be fine in a few hours. She liked to think that was pretty good at what she did. Eventually she'd be able to get that down to under an hour.

"Are you feeling better Bucky?" She finally asked.

"Not really. I still feel like shit, but your soup tasted amazing." He promptly responded. His eyes widened in surprise. He didn't mean to tell her that he wasn't feeling well. He wanted her to think that he was doing fine.

"I'm glad you liked it. I can go get you some more."

"I'm fine, but thank you for the offer. I'm afraid that if eat something else I'll end up throwing up all over you." Bucky was usually so good at holding his thoughts in, but now he felt like he couldn’t hold anything in. If a thought came to his mind, it slipped right past his lips.

"Do you mind if I ask you a couple of questions?" (y/n) cocked her head to the side and studied him. She had to ask him a few questions to make sure that he was completely under her influence.

"Sure. Not too many though. I'm starting to get sleepy."

"What's your name?"

"James Buchanan Barnes." He Instantly responded. (y/n) felt herself grinning. It worked. Of course it worked. She was amazing.

"What year were you born?"

"1917." he answered without even thinking. Something was wrong. Something was very wrong. He was in control of his mind, but he wasn’t in control of what was coming out of his mouth. "What did you do (y/n)? I feel weird."

"The feeling will go away in an few minutes. We don’t have much time so let's get working."

"I'm not going to answer your questions (y/n). This needs to something that happens when Tony and Steve are here."

"I hope you know that Tony and Steve don't own you. You can make decision on your own without their approval."

"I know that (y/n)." He yawned. "Can you at least tell me what you did to me?"

"I put something in your soup so that you can't lie to me. It also makes you more susceptible to any suggestions I give you. It won't last more than 10 minutes. But I put something in there to help with your flu symptoms and that should kick in within the next 10 minutes too so it'll knock you out for a while. It's supposed to help you sleep. You should be fine when you wake up tomorrow."

Bucky just stared at (y/n) not saying anything. He didn't have much to say in this moment. Besides, he was starting to get really sleepy.

"We can start off with something easy Bucky. Why won't Tony let me see the footage?" She sat down at the foot of his bed and got ready to have the conversation she had been waiting to have for the past eight months.

"He doesn't want you to think about yourself any differently. We all know who you really are and he doesn’t want that footage to change you."

"Has everyone living in this compound seen this footage besides me."

"Just about, yes."

"Why did Tony want to save me from HYDRA?" She needed a straight answer about this one.

"FRIDAY started sending him all this stuff of you. He didn't really get involved with other superheroes, but you were different. You were too young to be doing what they had you doing. In a way you reminded him of Peter."

"Is everyone else scared of me? It seems like they try to avoid me."

"Not in the way that you think. The idea of you not knowing your true potential is scary in itself. But nobody is scared of you hurting them."

"But I hurt you." (y/n) sadly whispered looking down at her fingers.

"I'm completely fine. You didn't mean it. No hard feelings."

"Did I hurt a lot of other people?"

"Yes. You did. You didn't know what you were doing though. None of it was your fault."

"Did I kill anyone?"

"Yes (y/n)."

"So that means I'm a murder?"

"Welcome to the club." Bucky sadly shrugged.

"How do you feel about me watching the film?"

"I think you need to see it, but that’s not my call."

"Because it's Tony's and Steve's call?"

"You could say that. Can we please stop this before I say something that I can't take back? Or before you hear something that you really don't want to hear."

"Maybe, but do you know what I do really want to hear? What are your feelings toward me?" This one made her nervous. She had no idea what was about to come out of Bucky's mouth, but she wasn't expecting it at all.

"When you first arrived at the tower, I wasn't expecting the sound of your voice to give me butterflies. Or for your smile to make my heart skip a beat. I feel like I've known you my whole entire life. When I'm with you, I don’t have to pretend to be anyone or anything that I'm not. I didn't intend for any of that to happen. I didn't expect for it to happen. You are the best thing that's ever happened to me."

(y/n) stared at him with tears in her eyes. Bucky felt himself relaxing into the bed. He had been wanting to say that to her for a while. It was supposed to come after their first date, but there's no time like the present. At least he could blame it on whatever she had slipped into his soup.

"You're going to hate me when I do this Bucky." She sadly sighed and thought about her next words. It was important that she was very clear about her next request.

"I could never hate you (y/n)." He looked over at her watery eyes and sadly smiled. Bucky knew what was coming, but it was okay. As long as (y/n) knew how he felt. He felt his eyes starting to drop. He needed to be awake when it happened. He wanted to be able to hold (y/n) in his arms. Who else was here to comfort her? Loki?

"Good. James Buchanan Barnes, I need you to let me see those files. I want all of them."

"FRIDAY, please pull up every single one of (y/n)'s files." Sleep finally overcame him and his whole body relaxed into the mattress.

"As you wish Mr. Barnes."