Steady. Healthy. Focused.

Working toward a healthier body, mind, and soul.

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Kidney

My dad got a kidney recently. It was awesome and terrifying. He's doing super well! I will need a kidney someday, too. I have not taken care of myself like my dad. I am starting that journey tomorrow. I'm scared.

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20 weeks

20 weeks until a week at the beach. I'd like to be 40 lbs lighter. Challenge accepted.

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Here's to a short week, family, and happy kiddos underfoot!

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My son's teething just might drive me insane.

Word.

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New

New gym New glasses New haircut New books to read New craft projects New (hopefully) kidney doctor New outlook New me

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Unsettled

So many things to do/fix/improve. I'm not in the moment and I can't seem to get a handle on my family time/fitness time/chores time/self-improvement time/work study time/couples time/God time/rest time. Not enough time.

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Don’t you dare Shrink yourself For someone else’s comfort - Do not become small For people who refuse to grow.

m.v., Advice to my future daughter, #2. (via fullbodiedlovin)

Love this for my kids!

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Cut out the bad stuff!

Cleanse Day 1 morning thoughts 285.6lbs Feeling bloated, determined, and hungry Lunch made, dinner prepped No sugar No grains No dairy No legumes Minimal soy (protein powder is soy based) Let's do this!

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Angry

I tell my daughter often that life isn't fair. I tell her to be less worried about fair and more focused on simply being kind to everyone she encounters on the way. Most of the time I truly believe that. Today? I am angry and sad and just want to lay down on the floor, beat my fist against the carpet, and scream and cry about how unfair life is. My husband's uncle died unexpectedly last night. I'm not sure how old he was - late 50s to 60s is my guess. He was an avid bicyclist who, in the last year, lost over 100 pounds and beat so many of the goals he set for himself. He and his wife had been married almost 20 years. He had a 2 year old grandson he adored. He had two great nieces and one great nephew who would have thought he was really cool. He hadn't retired and was on possibly the best health of his life, definitely of the last eight years that I've known him. It's not fair he isn't around to be with his wife in retirement, to watch the grandson grow, to enjoy his new health and lifestyle. It sucks and I'm so mad and upset I can't sit still. And deep down, selfishly, it's scary as hell. My dad's starting the process to get on a list to wait for a kidney and possibly face dialysis in the near future. I have the same kidney thing he has so I'm watching him face what I will face. And all of this just stares me in the face and reminds me I'm getting older and those I love are getting older and getting older is scary and sucky and inevitable.

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A gain of 7.8 lbs?!?

Shit just got real. Back to writing down what I eat, laying off the sugar, drinking water, and moving my butt. Pfft

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8 weeks out and I'm ready

I've lost 22 lbs since I started keeping track 6 days post pregnancy. I have 99 to go to my goal. I'm ready to get back on the horse in both food and exercise. 20 weeks to potential summer vacation including the beach. I'm shooting for 40 lbs by then. With food tracking, exercise, and breast feeding I think it's a stiff but reasonable goal. I'm also looking at jogging two 5ks in the fall. It's on.

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I miss my family so much it hurts.

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Surviving

Two kids underfoot and pumping exclusively to feed one means I barely get to sit down, let alone do anything for myself. I'm trying to find the balance that will give everyone some time but I'm not there yet. Bonus of barely any tine to even eat right now, I'm 10lbs under my pre-pregnancy weight. My body needs to be shaped up (it is a totally different shape now) but it's nice to see the lbs dropping

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Ringing in the new year

This is a year of thoughtful change. Two new positions and a new addition promise to keep things jumping. By the end of the year I'd like to be keeping up with my kiddos better than ever before and in need of a new wardrobe because everything's just too big. I haven't outlined how I'm going to get there yet but I know it's going to be a good year. :)

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A Field Guide to Procrastinators

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This is just painful.

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These are all me.

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This is me

Struggling far more than I thought I would with sad thoughts.

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*headdesk*

Nothing quite like crying in front of your boss for no good reason.