Bloody Kanuckles

Neurospicy Horror Mami

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Say you love me already

If you’re gonna bring out

The hoodlum in me

Then I’m gonna bring out

The redneck in you

Honey

Sweetheart

Love

It’s too late for all that

Because in an instant

I’m just swimmin,

Treading water in the ocean

Of my own heart

The same heart that broke

When I blocked you

“For the last time”

and yet here we are

2.5 hours pass like a dream

A dream where we know each other

And we’ve known each other

Since before we ever met

But our souls recognize what

It’s taken our hearts and minds

way too long to admit

[stefnomicon]

Wild as Her

She never wanted to be white picket fenced in

How did you know?

When the body experiences trauma,

It will often block out the offending memories.

When something triggers such a memory-

Did this really happen, or was it my imagination?

All of it was real, sister.

Not all of it was bad.

I met a boy, who felt like home,

underneath the Festival Tree.

He challenged me, and he scared me,

and he left me, and he came back,

more than once.

We are not the same, but he has scars

a lot like mine,

and he’s terrified, just like me.

When I close my eyes I see his

on the back of my eyelids,

but in another lifetime.

In this one he is a cold, hard trigger.

He triggered in me sweet memories

of the woman I wanted to be when I was 17.

Driving a beater pickup truck,

boots with sunflowers on them,

playing Jason Aldean with the windows down,

speakers so pressed I knew they would blow.

It took me so long to find her,

and I don’t think I could have without him.

32 isn’t too late and the ghost of me

can ride shotgun and hold my beer.

Published in Olney Magazine

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Eczema Fever Dream

I’ve had it for so long

And she said we would get it fixed

But it didn’t matter that

The skin under my breasts

Was blistered to the point

That it’s still scarred.

But then I remember

This is the same woman

Who was going to just let me

Rot and die at 18

A little library ghost

Dissolving painfully in a basement

Bedroom painted with black mold

“Dad…I’m 18 now. When will things change?”

“Well, you know how she is…”

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Red

I’m surrounded by talented

People, talented friends, loved ones

who tell me I’m talented too

But all I ever do is get caught

Up in the webs of beauty

They weave and wonder

In mystified anguish

Why my red isn’t the same shade

As theirs, my red is dark-

A shade with no name

A bludgeoning red

That will make you do a

Double-take and ponder

For hours about wtf

You just saw

[metamorphesque]

― Marina Tsvetaeva, Letters: Summer 1926

[stefnomicon]

Toil and Trouble

It’s more than sex

but I think a little less than love

It’s the thing I’m always searching for

and I write about in my dreams,

A thing I’ve never been able to name.

It’s a sharp thing, white-hot,

only the pain from it is welcome

It pricks the surface layer of skin

and reminds me that I’ve never been whole.

I’ve always been a fractured place,

but not a waste,

a developing burden of words

and colors and feelings too strong

For my earthly vessel to contain.

So when you came along,

daring to try and touch me,

I burst and spilled out all over

your subconscious.

You never looked away,

even though I coated your mind

In a way you couldn’t wipe clean.

I want to say I’m sorry

but I’m not.

I’m hot and steaming

Dreaming of nights filled with smoke

Soft touches, then rough ones

Laughs and dark looks

So strong they pop the buttons

on my clothes

[horrorcoreprincess]

SCREAM (1996)

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[necrodeads]

[promqueendyke]

andrew wyeth + franz kafka / the castle

[garcavisconde]

i love you sympathetic monsters i love you terrifying creatures who can be soft i love you monstrosities who survive to tell the story i love you narratives who refuse to kill the horrific i love you characters who are kind to the horrors i love you

[goodquoteco]

[stefnomicon]

My depression really fucking hurts today but hey, I’m trying.

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