she is thunderstorms

ind. fandomless oc / sideblog to asteriawrites

[novasmemes]

PRESS RESTART

say what? i was happy for you. maybe it’s not an ending. maybe it’s a beginning. i could use a little time and space just broke the hell out of my heart. i press restart. so maybe i still notice you in traces. i would like to let go. maybe in another dimension. what if i don’t want to live like that? i am not the subject. i am the experiment. i am a mad scientist. i’ll invent my way out of this.

HEADPHONES

i can take a beating like a good pair of headphones. i can take a hit like karate kid. you know you could learning a lot from a good pair of headphones. it’s just another chain reaction. suffer all the satisfaction of feeling this way. you’re so fukcing cute when you’re rocking it out. suffer all the satisfaction of learning something. i can stand the test of time, like harrison ford. go ahead, rough me up. i wanna open my heart but you won’t open the door. why do i gotta feel this way?

ONE FOOT

not a soul up ahead and nothing behind. there’s a desert in my blood and a storm in your eyes. am i the king of nothing at all? you’re the queen of nothing at all. my heart is a mess. is it the only defense against the wilderness. cross my heart and hope to die. taking this one step at a time. i’ve got your back if you’ve got mine. one foot in front of the other. all that we have is each other. i know where to hide. if you don’t have trust, there’s nothing left of us. they’re just testing us. they can’t mess with us.

SURRENDER

throw emotion to the wind. just trying to find a face that’ll make me feel something. i just end up at your house. i’ve been trying to keep my distance. you make me want to stay. but i know you, babe, and this can’t wait. this is the moment i surrender, now all the shapes i know are gone. all the charts and maps i’ve drawn just to get me lost. i’m falling off the edge. you make me want to change. but i can’t stay. when i speak will you listen? all that i could ever be is the best ex lover of your life.

ALL I WANT

pull me up off the pavement. that can’t be me, i must be mistaken. i’ve been an angel my whole life. how well do you know yourself? sometimes my shadow gets the best of me. i cannot speak and i cannot hide. i guess you can’t be free of what you keep inside. how well do you know your limits? the deeper the dream, the longer you’re in it. all i can see is what’s in front of me. this isn’t where i thought i was going. this isn’t who i thought i would be. i am my own sanctuary. i am my own hero. i am my own teacher. i am my own best friend. i am my own friday night. i am my own love of my life. i am my own way out.

ALL NIGHT

things are changing around me but i feel the same inside. i’m getting older, not getting wiser. it’s got me up all night. not everybody wants the same things at the same damn time. i just want to meet somebody. now i’m looking for a ride home.

KAMIKAZE

i’m chasing down my demons. who knew you would be my comfort? how come you never left my side? abandon all your logic. going down with my wings on fire. guess i’ll see you in another life. all is not lost. my veins are seething. i can feel the freedom. let them talk. it’s not about the crown. we could share the kingdom. no matter how you call it, this is suicidal. nothing you can do about it.

TIGER TEETH

i want you back. love bites so deep. if you come around again you better not come in. you better stay outside. i can’t hold my ground. when you swallow someone whole, you are bound to choke. i guess we can never be friends. i ate you up the day we first spoke. don’t you call me on the telephone. don’t make plans with my friends. i think that it’s best if you leave me alone. when i’m with you i just want to play pretend. a tiger in our hearts again. if you take one step closer i could reach the zipper on your dress. we’re leaning out over the water.

SOUND OF AWAKENING

do you feel my heartbeat quickening? you can’t make me leave this place. cradled in the arms of darkness, i am safe. how could i know that i’d been blind? it was love at first sight. questioning if time has ever moved in a straight line. all the voices are washing over me. the distance and the difference between us is just illusion. it’s all a dream. my love for you will echo in eternity.

FEELS GOOD TO BE HIGH

close your eyes. i’m feeling love. i feel alive. now tell me, do you feel that rush? it feels good to be high. until our heart goes flat on the thin red line, we’ll be chilling. ease off the pressure. why’s it matter if it doesn’t make my heart pound?

CAN’T SLEEP (WOLVES)

hold on to the ones you love but don’t squeeze too tight even a good thing can steal away like a thief in the night keeping secrets don’t matter to me. these wolves keep scratching at my heart. i still can’t sleep. hold on to the ties that bind but don’t get shackled to the rush. you better leave yourself behind before they find you in the open. wolves are coming for me.

IN MY MIND

so i take this knife and cut you out of my life. i erase this night. i rewrite you out of my mind. i no longer have the voice to say goodbye. you won’t be in my mind. nothing left to say. i no longer have the strength to keep it alive.

LOST IN THE WILD

you must have left before morning came. i really thought that i could save us. we’ll all be animals. brush the ashes off your shoulders. let’s get lost in the wild. we’re all built for something. don’t look over your shoulders. i’m chasing the clues you left me. you belong out here with me. i’m flying fast on my feet. what if nothing died young? what if nothing was enough to never give up? maybe none of this is real. maybe i can wake up.

[vaememes]

THE    FIVE    SENSES     /      SENTENCE    STARTERS  .

some   may   be   nsfw   and   /   or   be   triggering.   

01    :     TOUCH .

❝ i love this [ FABRIC ], it feels satisfying. ❞

❝ your touch. it leaves me breathless. ❞

❝ your touch is unlike any other. ❞

​❝ have you ever felt anything more comfortable? ❞

❝ feel this. what does it feel like to you? ❞

❝ i wanted to see what it felt like. ❞

​❝ touch it. i dare you. ❞

​❝ you felt ice cold when i touched you. ❞

​❝ you feel warm to me. ❞

​❝ i love the feel of [ FABRIC ] against my skin. ❞

​❝ i love the feel of your skin against mine. ❞

​❝ i would never touch anyone else. ❞

​❝ i love the feel of your hair between each of my fingers. ❞

​❝ don’t you dare touch me. ❞

​❝ i want to feel your lips against my own. ❞

​❝ i can feel your pulse. it jumped. ❞

​❝ let me give you a massage. ❞

❝ you feel like home to me. ❞ 

02     :      TASTE .

❝ i love the taste of you. ❞

❝ i can never forget that taste. ❞

❝ fair warning, it does have a bitter taste. ❞

​❝ no offense, you just aren’t my taste. ❞

❝ can i have a taste of that? ❞

❝ i have yearned for the taste of your lips. ❞

​❝ that tasted pretty good actually. ❞

​❝ it just left a really bad taste in my mouth so no thanks. ❞

​❝ nothing taste better than chocolate. ❞

​❝ i’ve got something you might want to taste. ❞

​❝ i will forever savor that taste. ❞

​❝ blood has such a metallic taste. ❞

​❝ my taste buds are mad at me after eating that. ❞

​❝ how’s it feel to get a taste of your own medicine? ❞

​❝ you didn’t even taste it. ❞

​❝ trust me, you’ll want to taste this. ❞

​❝ i think it has a bit of bitter sweet taste. ❞

❝ so you tasted it, did you like it? ❞

03     :      SIGHT .

❝ i see you. ❞

❝ i’ve never seen things so clearer than i do now. ❞

❝ it’s too dark, i can’t see anything. ❞

​❝ how can you see anything? it’s pitch dark. ❞

❝ i’ve looked close enough and i see you for what you are. ❞

❝ please, just look at me. ❞

​❝ stop staring at me like that. ❞

​❝ get that light out of my face. ❞

​❝ it’s so bright outside today. ❞

​❝ what’s wrong? what did you see? ❞

​❝ you’re scared, you must have saw something. ❞

​❝ what i saw, you’ll never believe me. ❞

​❝ i’ve never seen you before. ❞

​❝ have we seen one another before? ❞

​❝ you see me for what i truly am. ❞

​❝ i didn’t see anything. ❞

​❝ did you see that? ❞

❝ i can’t believe my eyes. ❞

04     :      SOUND .

❝ shhh, i just heard something. ❞

❝ did you hear that? ❞

❝ what is that sound? ❞

​❝ i missed the sound of your voice. ❞

❝ do you hear me? stay away from me. ❞

❝ i hear you, loud and clear. ❞

​❝ i’m sorry, what was that? i didn’t hear you. ❞

​❝ i’ve heard that sound before. ❞

​❝ you didn’t hear anything at all? ❞

​❝ can you hear what they’re saying? ❞

​❝ aw, i love the sound of music. ❞

​❝ i never said i could hear them. ❞

​❝ wait, hear that? something is coming. ❞

​❝ i could hear screams … ❞

​❝ i heard you all the way upstairs. ❞

​❝ you didn’t just hear that? that sound? that noise? ❞

​❝ trust me, you’re going to want to hear this. ❞

❝ please, just hear me out. ❞

05     :      SMELL .

❝ what is that smell? ❞

❝ i have missed your smell. ❞

❝ you smell nice. ❞

​❝ it’s unlike anything i’ve smelled before. ❞

❝ i smell the food cooking from here. ❞

❝ do you smell that? ❞

​❝ how are you able to smell that? ❞

​❝ no offense but it really smells. ❞

​❝ it’s starting to smell. ❞

​❝ tell me, you’ve smelled this before. ❞

​❝ i know that smell, it’s the smell of lies. ❞

​❝ i can smell you from here. ❞

​❝ are you smelling me? ❞

​❝ i missed the smell of your hair. ❞

​❝ i need to step away, get some fresh air. ❞

​❝ do you smell that? that’s the smell of freedom. ❞

​❝ i could never erase your smell. ❞

❝ i can smell the fear on you from here. ❞

[vanessacarlysle]

[stellarstephia]

He's right. Secrets hurt, no matter how you look at them, no matter how they're kept, or why. And she doesn't mind admitting that others are right ( mostly ), but it's not his being RIGHT that digs as much as what it meant.

"I don't know HOW to answer it." She repeats herself with a small change, doing her best to ignore his last words. She believes him, and that scares her as much as the concept of opening up.

🌟┊❛ @naivelost / cont.

[stellarstephia]

"That's just my FACE."

🌟┊❛ @riddlman / cont.

[stellarstephia]

"I'm MARRIED, Ed. I actually have a meeting for work and then I'm taking Ide out of town to see her aunt." Steph had never thought to hide her... Whatever it was with Harvey from Ed, and he had made no move to hide how much he DISLIKED the man, but it made Steph PRICKLY. Would he rather she be making time to spend with her HUSBAND?

🌟┊❛ @riddlman / cont.

[lizzleolsen]

365 Days of Elizabeth Olsen 9/365 | Vanity Fair (2016)

[clarkesqueens-deactivated201508]

get to know me meme: actress ♦ elizabeth olsen

↳ I figured I’d keep acting as a hobby until I was older. Because I felt that pressure, and that people would say, ‘Oh, that’s nepotism.’ I decided that as long as I felt confident and worked hard for it, instead of having it handed to me, no one could take that away from me. I don’t have any insecurity about it. I never got any job because of my sisters. I could have pulled a few strings through them, but I never needed to.

[henrysfox]

Elizabeth Olsen for Los Angeles Times (2017).

[multamusae-archive-blog]

OH WONDER // OH WONDER (2015) LYRICS MEME

“I’m counting my losses.” “Your love will take me higher and higher.” “Before you came ‘round, I was heading for a small disaster.” “Now my soul beats a sound loud enough to quiet the thunder.” “It’s a love with no doubt.” “We’ll talk with our heads in the clouds.” “I feel life for the very first time.” “I feel safe in the 5am light.” “Make me lose control.” “I can’t help but drive away from all the mess you made.” “I promised I’d be there but you don’t make it easy.” “Darling, please believe me.” “Loving you is too hard.” “All I do is not enough.” “Funny how easy you see my blind side.” “I could stay but there’s a place I’d rather be.” “You sent this hurricane, and now it won’t go away.” “Loving you leaves me hurt.” “I can’t forget about the way you played me.” “It ended long ago.” “Please just let me go.” “Don’t you stop the music.” “Won’t you dance with me?” “You gotta give yourself a moment.” “I know it hurts sometimes.” “You’ll find another life to live.” “I know you’re sad and tired.” “I’ll be there for you.” “I can’t do it alone.” “I’m ready to climb this mountain inside.” “I need you right here with me.” “I’ve been out of my mind.” “Come back into the good life.” “I’m a little bit lost without you.” “I can’t be on my own without you.” “Hold me close.” “My sadness grows when you go.” “I’ve given all my love to you.” “Don’t you tell me I’m dreaming.” “Won’t you stay with me?” “You’ve got diamonds in your eyes tonight.” “Just in it for the thrill.” “This is real life.” “Dazzle me.” “All we do is hide away.” “I don’t wanna be the right way ‘round.” “Don’t lose your courage.” “Your soul’s in a wild fire.” “Are you gonna be my love?” “Are you gonna be mine?” “I need something more than everything.” “I know we need a little hope.” “Get me out of here in time.” “It’s always two steps backward.” “I don’t know where the money goes.” “I’ve got plans to get to you.” “We were born for this.” “I’m feeling fine.”

[stellarstephia]

WHAT IS YOUR CHARACTER’S TRAGIC FLAW?

YOU GOT: Cowardice

You are afraid—not shaking in your boots, everyday afraid—but you fear that in reality you can never be the impressive person you are in your mind. But why not? Reality is never quite like we imagine it will be. It is always a glorious surprise. So shake away your fear and take some chances, and put yourself out on a limb. Live!

TAGGED: @riddlman TAGGING: @willremain, @petitroii, @penmighty, @naivelost

[stellarstephia]

"Hindsight is an unhelpful friend, waiting for you at the end."

🌟┊❛ open.

[stellarstephia]

"Thank you for that... You'd definitely wear it better than I do." She puts her mug down only after taking a sip of her luke-warm tea. "... You can just HAVE the bralette if you want, just don't make me go near the shower drain." The truth was she wouldn't have minded it so much ( her own hair had her almost desensitized to it now ).

🌟┊❛ @naivelost / cont.

[stellarstephia]

How could she tell him what was WRONG when she couldn't figure it out herself? At least in a way that didn't feel... HEAVY. It was always too heavy, or trivial enough to push under the rug ( until it was too much ). If she had the words to explain it, it might make it easier not to FLEE. As he steps closer, Steph feels her breath catch in her throat, too much like a gasp for her liking. STOP GIVING YOURSELF AWAY.

So she works hard to root herself to the spot - it goes against everything she's feeling, everything she knows. To stay put. It makes her gaze a little too stern, clenched jaw making her sadness ANGER.

"No." I just have to get OUT. "I can't."

🌟┊❛ @naivelost / cont.

[spaacemusings]

                                               i know nothing with any certainty                                          but the sight of the stars makes me d r e a m.

[henrysfox]

Elizabeth Olsen in the Marvel 10 Year Announce – Class Photo Video.

[stellarstephia]

can you imagine no looove, pride, deeep fried MARS BAR your beeest friend alwaaays sticking up for you~ ( chuck chambers )

It’s one of her favourite songs, as Chuck well knows. Had there been an occasional comment on the FRIED CHICKEN aspect of the song? Perhaps, but definitely not outside the confines of conversations with Chuck, which in itself either meant it was completely absurd or entirely #deep. So as she heard the intro, she stopped pressing skip and let it play, settling her attention back to the half-finished image in front of her. 

The song played perfectly normally for the first two minutes and thirty eight seconds. But then she had to stop everything. Her hand sank down, paintbrush in hand. She didn’t know whether to laugh or throw it across the room ( not that Chuck was IN the room - that was half the beauty of the joke, she supposed, but he WAS upstairs with Lilli ) but she knew he’d hear. So she did it anyway, the whole time fighting the snorting laughter that threatened to explode as she hit back to listen again. And again.

     ❛ For fuck’s sake, Chuck. ❜

🌟┊❛ @mywhatprivateyes / THE BIGGEST MEMES.