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Silently, one by one, in the infinite meadows of heaven, Blossomed the lovely stars, the forget-me-nots of the angels                            re-established: 06 dec 2017

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MOVING BLOG: @stellaux

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shieldheir replied to your post: i lowkey cry over the lack of content over stella

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.... so i ended up remaking this blog :)

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me:-has a final to finish before midnight- me: i wanna work on stella’s theme

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scphiroth liked your post:stellaux:          plot call, feel free to ❤ this...

au where you don’t make this muse into a kabob. >:c

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i lowkey cry over the lack of content over stella

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                ( Even a small star shines in the darkness. ) 

                                                 promo cred: ☆

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I think people forget that sometimes the person who tries to fix everyone needs fixing too

(via marieacc)

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tidesmother:

♆ *:･ﾟ✧┆MAY THE LOST STAR FIND REFUGE IN HER TIDE.

     The vessel of flesh and bone served more than an elaborate façade. Forced to adopt a mortal form, the sea goddess was exposed to human disposition– a perspective unfathomable to vast, serpentine eyes. A loathed member of the Hexatheon, Leviathan spent millenniums in isolation. Her ancient benevolence towards mankind was reduced nothing but a whisper upon violent waters.  

     And yet, there the Hydraean stood: stiff-limbed under unsought touch, svelte arms encasing her in a piteous embrace. The Fleuret remained unfazed by the ambassador’s evident discomfort– even going as far as to place an illicit peck to a divine cheek. 

     “ Bestow your gratitude through material action, sans negligible affection. ” Firm palms grasped Stella’s lithe shoulders, removing the Tenebrae-born from her hold– albeit, with a slither of hesitation.

     Moonlight shifted from the panes of the Altissian manor to their ghostly figures. The residence of the First Secretary was now repurposed into a Niflheim safe house– shielded by the diplomatic immunity of the neutral state. Sauntering towards the wavelet of silk curtains, Leviathan eyed the empire servicemen marching down cobbled streets. 

     “ Your time is diminishing. Etro’s chosen has acquired a third of the Hexatheon. ” 

@stellaux !

      A soft limerick is bestowed upon the night star —— tone acerbic and colloquial, as expected from the physical manifestation of the fierce and powerful tides ; a callous demeanor depicting that of the divine, and yet it was through this exchange, her mortal vessel can only brighten in exchange. Lips tugged gently from rose petal brims, her gaze clashing against the Hydrean’s uneasy facade. Although, distance remains applicable between the both of them, the kindhearted maiden can only boast to optimism. An infectious benevolence that lingers amidst industrious gestures of mere affection —— her gratitude.

      And yet, despite the jovial motion that was depicted within her own visage, therein remains a hint of despair. Like a start in the night sky, she shines brightly in the midst of her own darkness. A painful revelation that instills tragedy within her condemned faith...  a pawn for the empire, a pawn for the gods... she was nothing but a mere tool, designed by behest of providence. A light to battle the calamity that terrorizes this world and the next... the scion of lucis, who bears the same markings as she does —— the eyes that bear witness to these expired souls.

      ❝ ...If that is the Astral’s will, then so be it. It doesn’t change anything.❞ Hubris marks the downfall of her own arrogance ; her gaze cast aside as she stood idle in place. Although surrounded by beauty within the manor, she remains engulf by the mist of loneliness. ❝ Just as he champions the Goddess Etro, I am the vessel of the Forgotten God Bhunivelze... I only need you and Shiva, by my side. The rest doesn’t matter. ❞ 

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lxoneye:

@stellaux​ (closed)

Had it been three days and there was not even a single sound; all but the clock on the wall. To be caught and used like a dull blade for war, though had little say. Many times had she tried to escape, but any other attempts would have been in vain. Having the low ground was rather taxing… Vada, having laid back for but a moment, heard a voice call her name.  There on the other side of the thick prison bars had been a sure sight  for sore eyes. “–Mi lady, what’re you doing’k here?”

A political hostage in her own right, she carries the immunity of protection above all else. Head held high, her heels clashing against the cement as she ventured further into the prison cells. Metallic soldiers remains on guard, but still she was never viewed as a threat. Upon agreement between herself and the high commander, she was free to enact as she will. An entrance was granted, and hence lavender hues can only witness the horror before her. furrowing her eyebrows, she rushes against the bar. Fingers holding onto the silver blockade. 

❝ I’m here to help —— are you alright? ❞

[qserasera]

otp sparring: nice

otp sparring until one of them has a back to the wall and a blade at their throat: excellent

the other person dropping their weapon and the otp is k i s s i n g: I WILL LIFT THIS TABLE AND FLI P IT

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WHAT IS YOUR LOVE STYLE?

Your Love Style is Eros

For you, love is all about the passion! And chances are, you're currently in love. You have a strong physical response to love... And you are great at committing (As long as the person makes your toes curl!)

Tagged by: @tidesmother Tagging: -insert ur url here-

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‘ i am aching to hold you and keep you safe, to be pressed against you so that nothing can harm you. ’

☆*ﾟ‘ﾟ❝ growling suggestion —— accepting ;; @homogenetic​

            TONE BREATHES LIFE INTO DEAF EARS ; a hush whisper lulling into the eternal bliss of temptation. tormented by the abyss of the unknown, it was a paradox unveiled like lilacs in bloom. wordless melody fades away into the moonlight, and like silhouettes it is embrace by ebony. unable to tear her gaze away from emerald hues, the night star can only stare in awe. lips unmoving —— frozen in place. the sound of the beating drums ——her heart, echoing from within the lobes of her ears. TORN BETWEEN FANTASY AND REALITY, she is unable to fully comprehend the enigma that somehow manage to manifest from within. a beguiling sensation that ultimately gave tribute to such awareness. 

TRAPPED WITHIN THIS ENCLOSE SPACE, her back remains glued to the wall and his presence remains at her behest. his taller frame looming over her petite form, and while she had grown used by the former elite’s poise —— never once had he spoken to her in such a way. A DEEP LIMERICK  that was embedded with such genuine assertion. and while gaping eyes cannot hide the stunned expression that condemns her visage, she finds herself unable to fight the trance of such ALLURE. his attentive feature, his cold yet calculating demeanor that somehow draws her closer to him. slender fingers can only reach after him. the warmth of HER PALMS GREETING HIS FLESH, before she shys away from him entirely.

hand retreats from his symmetrical complexion, their MIRRORED GAZE now broken in place. although silence can masquerade the breathe that escapes stella’s lips, it does not remove the remnants of her still beating heart. cheeks flushed red, as she is once again reminded of the situation. surely, he doesn’t mean it at such —— logic tries to counter reason. and yet, somewhere from within, she finds herself not minding the HIDDEN MEANING behind such fervent words. braving a gentle smile, the former princess can only greet him again. ❝ i can think of no other place safer…❞ rose colored brims can only reply in a soft timbre, ❝ except in your arms.❞

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"You could have been killed!" :P

☆*ﾟ‘ﾟ❝ reaction meme —— accepting ;; @appointedescort​

        PURSUIT BY THE METALLIC CREATION OF SOLDIERS, the annex princess can only rely on the glaive for support. her role kept aside, hidden, and protected by the shadows. unable to fend for herself, stella remains the damsel in this entire ordeal. although gifted by the blood of the divine, her ability is cast aside from the doubt that lingers within her. eyes averted and fingers tugging onto the sweet melancholy of circumstance. it was always like this…  bitter thoughts can only linger within the darkness of her own mind. the shallow realization that she was nothing more than a pawn for the empire to claim over and over again. a political hostage to use against her siblings when it suited their needs. she was sick and tired of this wretched faith, and yet, she can do nothing but trust the obsidian mage. power resonates within her —— the borrowed gift from the king of lucis.

hiding from behind the building, her petite body can only press against the wall. heart beating fast, the adrenaline rushing to her head. SHE HAD TO DO SOMETHING, she simply could not let crowe battle all those soldiers on her own. it’s been hours, and surely the other must be exhausted by now. the sound of metallic gear ringing against the incantation of hell’s fire. the elements disrupting the battlefield, and while it appears that the female glaive had an advantage, stella knew the magical properties embedded within the empire’s creation. CODED with the latest of niflheim technology, it was only a matter of time until reinforcements was sent to their location. THEY HAD TO FLEE NOW, or else they risk being captured all together…

CLUTCHING HER FINGERS into a tighten fist, she finds the motivation to fight back. although her abilities was greatly hindered by inexperience, she was still, nevertheless, a flueret. turning her head, she can only hope to find something that may assist the other in combat. DIRT AND DEBRIS painted the field, but in the glint of rusted iron, stella has found her temporary weapon. grabbing hold of the discarded blade, she makes her attacks known. a lunge orchestrating her knowledge of the single blade, and just like that, she joins the battle. COURAGE infiltrates the once docile expression that complimented fair visage. ❝ —i’m with you. ❞ her voice proudly declares.

one by one the enemies falls against their UNITED POWER. however, the reality remains was that stella still fell too short in the battlefield. unable to fully comprehend the extent of their strength, she can only watch as the fallen magitek solider make their final act of retribution. a gun shot is heard from behind, and all the star can do was infiltrate the bullets. metallic cartridge tore open porcelain flesh, her body thrown against the other. the both of them landing onto the ground.

“what are you doing, you could have been killed!”

concern emits from within the glaive’s expression, her lips SCOLDING the princess for her reckless gesture. enduring the pain, crimson red decorates her shoulders —— an injury caused only by the upper layer of her skin. ❝ it’s… really nothing. it’s just a flesh wound. ❞ the former hostage can only insist, ❝ i’ll be okay… but we need to get out of here, before reinforcements finds us. ❞

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The worst thing is that                                       they aren’t even nightmares                                                                                           they’re memories.

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based on this suggestions blog.  warning:  these are pretty dark/angry  &  could be triggering to some people.  please be cautious before proceeding!!

‘  all i want in my life is for my friends to be able to touch me suddenly  &  me to not flinch away without meaning to.  when will this stop affecting me?  ’ ‘  all i want is to be soft  &  gentle,  but i’m made out of steel  &  anger.  maybe in another life,  i guess.  ’ ‘  beauty is in the eye of the beholder,  so choose to see beauty in everything.  ’ ‘  burning it all to the ground  &  force them to start again.  they made you lose everything.  now return the favor.  ’ ‘  do i ever even cross your mind or do i do all the thinking of us on my own?  ’ ‘  do you trust me enough?  do you trust me at all?  ’ ‘  don’t you dare abandon me.  ’ ‘  even after all you have done,  i will always want you fighting on my side.  ’ ‘  every time i see you smile i fall in love with your brightness all over again.  ’ ‘  everyone i have ever loved is long gone.  i sing to the sky alone.  ’ ‘  everyone i touch gets hurt,  but i can’t stop.  i touch  &  i touch  &  i touch  &  people get hurt.  why can’t i ever stop?  ’ ‘  everyone says i used to be a hero,  but i can still taste the blood in my mouth  &  still feel bruises blooming because of my fists  &  my eyes are still stretched wide  &  terrified.  ’ ‘  everything i love has been taken from me.  what do i have left to fight for?  ’ ‘  fall in love with someone that makes you feel strong.  ’ ‘  friends are more important than any material object will ever be.  ’ ‘  i am aching to hold you  &  keep you safe,  to be pressed against you so that nothing can harm you.  ’ ‘  i am divine  &  you will bow before me.  ’ ‘  i am fucking divine.  ’ ‘  i am in control  &  i listen to no one.  ’ ‘  i am not a good person.  don’t pretend i am.  ’ ‘  i am not accustomed to love.  this is a learning experience.  ’ ‘  i am not worth saving  &  i am not worth redemption.  let me stay in the dark.  ’ ‘  i am so tired all the time,  all i want to do is rest.  ’ ‘  i am too tired to deal with any of this.  ’ ‘  i bow to no man.  ’ ‘  i broke into sharp pieces when i broke  &  i expect someone else to hurt their hands on my edges just to put me back together.  i’m sorry.  ’ ‘  i can give you your wings back  &  i can show you to fly once more,  if you only believe in me.  ’ ‘  i cannot be saved.  ’ ‘  i can’t ask for help because if i ask for help it hurts people.  i can bear this weight on my own.  i have to.  ’ ‘  i could taste the lies in your mouth every time i kissed you,  but i loved you too much to notice.  ’ ‘  i crave affection in the simplest way.  ’ ‘  i deserve to hurt.  i deserve to bleed.  ’ ‘  i didn’t ask for any of this so don’t you dare blame this on me.  ’ ‘  i don’t care if you say my name like it’s poison or like it’s a prayer,  as long as it leaves your lips.  ’ ‘  i don’t fight for you anymore.  ’ ‘  i don’t want to let go of you.  not now,  not ever.  ’ ‘  i don’t want to talk about it.  i don’t want to remember.  i don’t want to heal.  all i want is for it to go away.  ’ ‘  i don’t want you to touch me.  please don’t touch me,  just go away.  ’ ‘  i feel anger deeper than my bones.  i feel anger in my very soul.  ’ ‘  i feel nothing at all,  except for when i feel everything all at once.  ’ ‘  i have fallen  &  though i may miss the sky,  i belong here now.  ’ ‘  i have fallen from a height your mind cannot even imagine.  ’ ‘  i have no home anymore.  ’ ‘  i remember collapsing in the flames with a sword in my hand  &  then i remember nothing.  ’ ‘  i see beauty in everything,  but especially in you.  ’ ‘  i should never have fallen in love with you.  ’ ‘  i thought for a long time that i was so terrible no one would look at me.  now i know it’s because i shine so bright they are forced to look away.  ’ ‘  i was so caught up in the feeling that i forgot how to breathe.  ’ ‘  i will never amount to anything.  i am a failure in the worst type of way.  ’ ‘  i will tell myself that the burn of my loneliness in my chest completes me  &  maybe someday it will be true.  ’ ‘  if that’s what a hero is i’m glad i’m not one anymore.  ’ ‘  if you ask me to,  i will set the whole world on fire,  my dear.  it’s all for you.  ’ ‘  is it my fault?  it’s my fault.  it’s always my fault.  ’ ‘  it’s not murder if they deserved it,  right?  ’ ‘  i’m drowning in emotions that don’t belong to me,  choking on anger  &  suffocating on sadness.  ’ ‘  i’m in love with everything that hurts me.  ’ ‘  i’m okay.  i’m alright.  this is all in my mind.  ’ ‘  i’m ready to give up everything i’ve ever had if it means someone will love me.  ’ ‘  i’m so cold  &  i can’t stop shaking.  i am not who you think i am.  ’ ‘  i’m so tired all the time  &  i just want to be awake again.  ’ ‘  i’m tired of fighting against the pain of being forgotten.  i just want someone to remember me.  ’ ‘  i’m tired of fighting everything in my life.  just make it stop.  ’ ‘  i’m too tired to care.  blow up,  get angry at me.  i’m sure someday i’ll realize i deserved it.  ’ ‘  jealousy burns within me.  ’ ‘  just let me go in peace for once in my damn life.  ’ ‘  loneliness is a disease  &  it leaves me empty  &  hollow,  like sound goes through my body  &  bounces back.  ’ ‘  made of starlight  &  sunshine,  i shine brighter than they all know.  ’ ‘  my anger is righteous  &  my actions are pure.  ’ ‘  my chest aches  &  my lungs burn.  this sickness comes from the inside.  ’ ‘  my chest hurts  &  all i need is some comfort  &  understanding.  ’ ‘  my chest hurts  &  i ache to go back to the sky.  ’ ‘  my shoulders are aching where wings used to be  &  all i want is for them to stop hurting.  ’ ‘  pull me apart  &  piece me together in your own way.  make me perfect.  ’ ‘  righteous fury throws through my veins  &  if you touch the people i love i will destroy you.  ’ ‘  rise up.  you can’t keep being small when you were made for so much more.  ’ ‘  say my name like it’s the only one that’s ever been on your tongue.  ’ ‘  so much blood has been spilled in my name.  time to make you believe it was in yours.  ’ ‘  so you’ll worry about me when i fall silent,  but not when i scream  &  plead for help?  fuck off.  ’ ‘  sometimes people have to get hurt for me to get what i want.  ’ ‘  stay away from my fucking friends.  stay the fuck away or so help me i will destroy you.  ’ ‘  stop treating me like i’m an idiot.  you aren’t better than me in any way  &  you better remember that.  ’ ‘  the bitter taste of regret is ever present on my tongue.  ’ ‘  the world is spinning far too fast for me to stay on it.  ’ ‘  to love them is my divine right.  ’ ‘  voices whisper from the shadows  &  they fill my mind with thoughts of you.  ’ ‘  what did i to wrong to be so unloved?  ’ ‘  what is the point of power if i’m not supposed to use it?  ’ ‘  who the fuck do you think you are?  ’ ‘  why can’t i ever fucking stop crying?  ’ ‘  with a new year comes new tests  &  triumphs.  let’s try to make the most out of it.  ’ ‘  would it really kill you to be honest for once?  ’ ‘  yes,  i remember my wings breaking  &  being destroyed.  i was powerless to stop it.  ’ ‘  you are not required to love your parents,  or to even like them.  ’ ‘  you can’t hate me more than i hate myself,  but you are more than welcome to try.  ’ ‘  you may say you love me,  but you love only a part of me.  i am too complex for you to ever love my entire being.  ’ ‘  you never fucking cared about me.  don’t fucking lie about it.  not to me.  ’ ‘  you remind me of mint.  fresh,  sharp,  kind of cold,  but in a nice way.  i always knew there was a reason mint was my favorite.  ’ ‘  you shine light in even the darkest parts of me.  you are my sun.  ’ ‘  you should fear me,  but you don’t.  i will be eternally puzzled,  yet grateful.  ’ ‘  you touch me  &  my skin burns  &  it burns for you,  always you.  ’