Inside Stella's Thoughts

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Redo

im not happy with my decision

In fact im torn

Sad broken and hurt

Wish you wouldve approached me with warmth and respect

But even time away has changed nothing

I don't want to get back on

Still healing from the last time

I wish you knew better

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to stumble onto nothing.

I cried enough but the tears still form. The locks were placed so i could finally stop opening the door. The search is over, not because i finally found you. The search is over because the discovery doesnt exist.

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Fin

That is that. It is what it is.

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Dorcas.

Thank you to the strong women in my life. Thank you to strong women in all life. Thank you to strong women alive. Thank you to strong women. Thank you to women. Thank women. Thank You. Thanks.

You.

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Loss.

How do I word this. Is it grief and loss if it feels like something was never mine. I sit at the edge of the table wondering how I could miss someone this much. Without realization I fell in love with you. Enamored by your smile, the crow's feet by your eyes, your soft light hair, your laugh, your dreams and the linings of your soul. Despite the longing, no longer or ever mine.