[wowlookwhosspirallingagain]

bpd is hating yourself for being the way you are even though it’s not you who made you like this

[saduboiss-deactivated20260204]

it’s unfair that I have to try so hard to control the symptoms of my mental illness…

why can’t I be normal?

[saduboiss-deactivated20260204]

I can’t take this anymore. I just want to be a normal person with normal emotions, but I’m not. I’m fucking crazy with emotions so intense it makes you feel like you’re about to explode and shatter into a million fucking pieces.

[skinnyr4t]

[becherdireinen]

It’s so sad that some of the loveliest and kindest people hate themselves a lot.

[yousaveeveryonebutwhosavesyou]

Do people understand that when you say “I’m tired” it doesn’t mean “I didn’t get enough sleep last night” or “I need more physical energy”?

It means I am drained. I have been fighting through each day just to wake up and do it again. I am tired of existing in a world where everything feels like a struggle and nothing feels right. I am tired of fighting negative thoughts. I am tired of waking up.

[the-suicide-effect]

[serenityquest]

[zarathustra-would-be-proud]

[mylittlezepher]

I’m so tired of being here. I want to go home. But where is my home.

[so-worthless-so-empty]

No one is more disappointed in me than I am.

[yousaveeveryonebutwhosavesyou]

Self harm doesn’t always happen when a blade touches skin.

It’s skipping meals because you don’t feel like you deserve to eat today. It’s drinking recklessly because you might have the ‘courage’ do something stupid. It’s smoking - not because you need the nicotine - because you know it’s bad for you. It’s banging your head against a wall when you’re angry. It’s crossing the road without looking because you lowkey hope a car might hit you. It’s thinking about all the ways you could break a bone and make it look like an accident. It’s not taking painkillers because you want to suffer. It’s taking painkillers in excess because you know it’s dangerous. It’s walking home the more dangerous way because you’re kind of half hoping you’ll get attacked or raped or stabbed. It’s going for long walks at night and getting chilled to the bone and hoping that you get lost so that you can’t find your way back. It’s seeking out triggering material. It’s all the stupid little ways you punish yourself for existing.

Sometimes self harm happens when you put effort into depriving yourself of things you like or need, and sometimes it happens when you don’t put any effort into doing the things you like or need.

It’s a pattern of self-destructive behaviour, and it doesn’t only happen in one way.

This sort of behavior is classified as “para-suicidal” It’s putting yourself in a situation of danger or destruction with the intention of risking your safety rather than a direct attempt on your life. Kind of, leaving it all to chance? Also doing things to harm yourself or your self worth because you feel you deserve to feel the outcome of those actions.

[a-sip-of-milo]

BPD things that people don't talk about enough

Experiencing intrusive thoughts about manipulating/gaslighting/abusing someone into staying with them.

Getting headaches because you're so angry.

Finding relationships extremely hard to maintain because you always see it as closer than it is.

Wanting to ignore people for days/weeks/months because of something you did.

Subconsciously holding everyone to unattainable standards and getting upset when they can't meet them

Wanting people to enable your bad behaviour.

The fright upon realising someone is developing into your new FP

Refusing to meet new people because you're so tired of hurting yourself and them.

Being unable to tell the difference between a crush and an FP

Being delighted when you realise the person you're talking to has BPD as well.

Being extremely cautious even in cluster b safe spaces because it's never truly safe for all four disorders.

Associating someone you've known for years with a negative trait because they did it once and now your view of them is tainted.

Hating people you've never met because someone you're close to had a bad experience around them.

Grudge holding wayyyyy too much.

No emotional permanence whatsoever, so thinking you've had a terrible week because you forgot you were ever happy and thinking you had a great week despite it being fucking terrible because you're no longer upset.

[hey-im-bleeding-here]

splitting is wild because i can go from feeling like i have a decent support system of family & friends, to feeling like nobody has ever loved me and it's all been a lie and people just like to play with my head

[vintagebaddies]

[letsbelonelytogetherr]

— Georgia O'Keeffe

[remanence-of-love]