resurrect the sun

Once upon a time/I swore I had a heart/Long before the world I know/Tore it all apart/Once upon a time/There was apart of me I shared/Years before they took away/The part of me that cared/I've been a thousand places/and shook a million hands/I don't know...

[manchester-konrad-blog]

Uh… Do you need more off time? I can always give Jonas some of your hours. You know he doesn’t mind working your time. I know you have a lot going on. 

[stfujaydenn-blog]

No, no. I’m okay. I need the hours more than I need to pass my classes. 

[stfujaydenn-blog]

Text || Jonas

Jonas: I love you too. I always will, you know that babe.

Jonas: Why exactly are you thinking about dropping out?

Jonas: I'm a complete idiot and even I know that's not a good idea.

Jonas: It's not like I can force you not to. And just because I'm your boyfriend doesn't mean I can make decisions for you, but please use some rational to make this choice. Babe, I don't want you to make a giant mistake.

Jayden: I'm failing all my classes, Jonas.

Jayden: I don't know what to do.. I have to keep these jobs so I can help Mom about, but fuck, I barely have time to breathe.

Jayden: I'm just so stressed I could cry.

[paige-salyers]

Congratulations.

[stfujaydenn-blog]

Fuck off, please and thank you. 

[avenuequinn-blog]

In under a month? I didn’t know that was event possible.

[stfujaydenn-blog]

I guess I deserve a fucking medal then, huh?

[lololovepunk]

Is it one of those bullshit classes that people tell you are required but really don’t matter?

[stfujaydenn-blog]

No, it fucking matters. Shit, I don’t even know why the fuck I’m talking about this bullshit. 

[tenderqueerfinn-deactivated2015]

My doctor thinks I’ve made a ‘breakthrough’

[stfujaydenn-blog]

That’s fucking good, isn’t it?

[stfujaydenn-blog]

Text || Jonas

Jayden: Hey babe... I'm sorry I'm gone all the time.

Jayden: I'm like the shittiest girlfriend in existence.

Jayden: On another note, I think I'm going to drop out of school. :)

Jayden: Did I ever tell you I love you?

[stfujaydenn-blog]

Fuck, I’m already failing classes. 

[melodypreston-blog]

You fucking– so agitating Jay. I hate you’re going through this. 

[stfujaydenn-blog]

We’ll be fucking fine, Mel. Me and Keegan can handle it. 

[jadedreginaj-deactivated2016071]

Well,  it’s very nice to meet you, Jayden. Least I wont be starting the year not knowing anyone, right?

[stfujaydenn-blog]

I guess you could fucking look at it that way. Nobody in this town knows how to mind their goddamn business anyway, so I’m sure you’ll meet tons of people. 

[blog-hailsabian]

You work together? That’s just precious. Hey, maybe the fear of failing will keep you motivated.

[stfujaydenn-blog]

We’re anything but precious. Mhm, maybe.

[melodypreston-blog]

It sounds like a pain, I’ll help of you need help though. 

[stfujaydenn-blog]

No, Mel. I already told you, you’re not giving us any money. 

[jadedreginaj-deactivated2016071]

Oh, right! Sorry. I’m Regina. Probably would’ve been a good idea to start with that. You?

[stfujaydenn-blog]

Yeah, sure. I’m Jayden.

[stfujaydenn-blog]

Ink Task #007

In Character Questions: Jayden Terry

1. Who are the three people who mean the most to you and what is your relationship with them like? If you’re new, who are three people you could see yourself getting close to?

Well, of course Jonas is one. He’s my boyfriend. We can sit and fucking complain about the world together for days on end and We’re still happy just being around each other. The second is Peyt, because let’s be honest, there’s no way you can’t love that guy. No matter how fucking rude I am, he sticks by my side. He’s like.. the little brother I never had. Well, I fucking had them, but they were annoying as shit. I guess my third is Mel. I mean, ever since Bryce left we’ve been closer than ever, and I can’t thank her enough for what she’s done to me.. Can we note that above all these people is Keegan? I mean, for fuck’s sake, he’s my brother, people should just assume that he’s up there, right?

Is there anyone you miss? What would you say to them if they were to return? 

Bryce.. I don’t.. I don’t even know what I’d fucking say to him, but he was my best friend, and honestly, I don’t think I’ll ever see him again.. But hey, Simba ends up having to live without Mufasa anyway, right? I should have expected it. 

What five moments or events from your past do you think have helped shape you as a person you are now?

Five fucking moments? Jesus Christ.. Um, I guess the first would be meeting Bryce, and making that promise to him.. I mean, I don’t go out and start fights anymore, and it’s because of that promise. Second.. getting kicked out of my adoptive family’s house. I guess it made me realize what a bitch I was? Third, meeting Keegan and Mom, because let’s face it, if I hadn’t fucking met them, I’d still be bitter as shit when I turn eighty. Fourth would be.. Meeting Jo and Peyt, because they understand exactly what a hell my life has been like. Fifth.. er.. getting jobs. I have to be a responsible adult now, for my Mom. 

4. What’s your best memory of this past year?

Mine and Jonas’ first fucking kiss. I mean, he’d just punched Cornmag, and I was trying to calm him the fuck down, and he just looked at me and was like “Can I kiss you?” and it just sort of happened. It wasn’t exactly romantic.. but I realize that day that I actually had feelings for Jonas. 

5. Are you keeping any secrets right now and what are they? If yes, is there anyone you could see yourself trusting with that secret? If you’ve told someone your secret already or you don’t have one, do you see yourself as the kind of person to trust with secrets?

I don’t really have any secrets, and even if I did, Keegan would know them all. I could see myself trusting Jonas and Peyt, too. And Mel. And probably Douglas, unless it was like, a fucking murder or something, because I totally see him as the type of person to accidentally blab. Sure, I am. I mean.. Everybody fucking hates me anyway, so who would I tell?

6. If you could change one thing about yourself or undo something that happened to you, what would it be? What is your biggest regret?

I would.. make myself a better person, less of a bitch. I would go back in time and tell Mom to keep me.. but at the same time, I don’t know if I would have ended up here, with my few friends, so I’m not sure. My biggest regret? Fuck, there’s a shit ton. I guess.. um.. probably being so mean to all my fucking foster families.

7. What advice would you give to your past self? What about your future self?

I would tell my past self to stop being such a goddamn bitch, and make some friends. It would make things easier. Oh, and stop getting yourself beat up, you stubborn cunt. My future self? Fuck, how am I supposed to know? Um.. don’t get knocked up, don’t get murdered, don’t murder anybody.. all of that shit. Just remember that.. you know, you’ll fucking make it. It’s not the end of the world. 

8. What hopes do you have for the next year? Is there anything you want to accomplish?

I don’t have any fucking hopes. Oh, I got one. That Keegan will finally grow a pair and ask Ella to be his girlfriend.. yeah, that one would be nice. Something I wanna accomplish? To help get my Mom out of fucking debt. Get a nice paying job and get her some medical insurance or some shit like that. 

9. If you had to pick a song to describe your life at this point, what song would you pick? Has the soundtrack to your life changed?

Okay, so here’s a fucking playlist of how I’ve changed, I fucking guess.. Starting with Battle Born when I got here, and ending with I Am Bulletproof, which is.. you know, now. 

Battle Born || All Signs Point To Lauderdale || Goodbye Agony || New Year’s Day || I Am Bulletproof

10. Lastly, describe yourself as you think others see you. And then how you see yourself.

Well I think we all fucking know just what other people think of me. They think I’m some bitter, pathetic bitch and I am.

Out Of Character Questions: Jayden Terry/Radish

1. Write about a character you admire and what it is you like about them. We want to spread the love as much as possible so go as in depth as possible! It can be about past characters as well.

Okay, so I really like Chesh. Like, she’s quite possibly my favorite. Mostly because Kenny plays her perfectly, and like, I dunno?? Chesh is just cool and awesome and I love her. I love Henry, too, because wow he is a lovely, beautiful work of art and everything about him is beautiful. Emma does an amazing job at keeping him positive and friendly. I also really like Liana because she’s kind of like the cool kid in school? Like is there a person who doesn’t like Liana? And Lissa is the same way, they could like, run the school I swear. Oops I’m babbling. I love all our charries.

3. Do you think your character has changed at all since you first joined? Why or why not? Have you stuck to your bio pretty rigidly or expanded far from it?

I think she’s changed a little bit. I mean, she’s a little less bitter? No, I’ve expanded far from it. Like tbh I don’t even remember her old last name?? Well, as far as the way she acts, I think I’ve kind of stuck to it, but she’s a bit more accepting towards her family now. I also think she’s grown up a lot, and went from this little pouty kid to this young adult who has to work and help take care of her mom.. so yeah, maybe she has changed a lot.

4. Where do you hope to take your character from here? What would you like to happen for your character?

Well, I’m not exactly sure. I’d like for her to make more friends, get involved with a little drama.. stuff like that. 

5. What’s your favourite thing about playing your character? Least favourite? Has your character ever done something against your wishes as their mun?

My favorite thing about playing Jayden is probably the fact that she’s the complete opposite of me. Like, she’s so rude and offensive and I’ve literally never played a character like that before her. My least favorite thing would be that I absolutely HATE insulting other people, including characters. Like, if Jayden ever insults your character, just know that deep down inside I am cringing and probably screaming in agony. Yes. She’s gotten herself beat up, namely, and then there will be tons of times where I’m like, hey, that character is so cool! Jayden should be their friend! And Jayden’s like lol nope and either cusses them out or offends them greatly.

6. Which characters do you wish your character knew better? Pick at least 3 characters your character doesn’t know that you wish they did. Are there any relationships your character has that you’d like to be deeper?

Reed, he’s really cool. I think her and Raven would get along pretty well, and so would her and Tate. I think. Depends on what mood she’s in, and what the conversation is. I wish she was closer with Arty! Their friendship is life. 

7. What advice would you, as the player, give to your character? We know sometimes, you just want to scream at your own character’s life choices so now’s your chance!

Jayden, just let it go. I know bad shit has happened to you, but in order for you to be happy, you have to let it go. Go to college, because you want to. I know you want to help your mother, but it’s about time you do something for yourself. Stay in Brookfield, because you’ve got friends for life here. 

8. If your character was a real person, do you think you’d get along with them? Why or why not and what inspired you to make a character like this?

I don’t think so. I’m not a very big fan of people being mean to others for no reason, and that’s exactly what Jayden does, so there’d be tons of conflict. Honestly? It was when I wanted to reapply the third time, and I couldn’t play Jasleen, and I wanted a completely different character than her, and my first thought was “Oh, what if I had a character like Chesh?” so Chesh inspired me? Sort of? I’ve always liked the meaner characters so I figured I’d give it a shot. 

9. Pick a label to describe your character (the goody-two-shoes, the skater, the teen mom etc) and then two or three words/traits to describe who they are as a person. Do you think your character would agree with the label and traits you’ve chosen?

A label is really hard, but I’m gonna say the bully who’s been bullied. Bitter, and she doesn’t like change. She’s probably argue with me about it, but she’d know deep down inside that I’m right. 

10. Any general suggestions for improvements we can make to Inked (as admins or fellow members)? Any other commentary about your time in the group can go here as well!

My time here at inked has been absolutely amazing. I know I’ve had to leave a couple of times, but you guys always accept me back and make me feel so welcome. If anything goes wrong, I know I have a support group and some life long friends. I love all you guys so much!

[carolsturkas]

[jadedreginaj-deactivated2016071]

Maybe you don’t think so right now, but maybe that’ll change as the year goes on. School hasn’t officially started, yet, so who knows? 

[stfujaydenn-blog]

Fucking doubt it. School is a waste of time. Who the hell are you, anyway? I haven’t seen you around this hell hole.

[jadedreginaj-deactivated2016071]

Seriously? Hm. Guess things are different here, then. But hey, if we have any of the same classes and it gets too hard, you can definitely borrow my work.

[stfujaydenn-blog]

Thanks, I guess. But I don’t really plan on doing anything with my life, so if I fucking fail it might not matter that much.