If I Cant Have Your Emotions I Dont Want You

Poet

[stillfiguringlifeout]

I wrote this 4 years ago .. and it still fucking hits me hard every time I read it.

[violacn]

These few days i’ve been forcing myself to clean up my room everytime it gets messy. My new year promise is, from now on, my room will not represent what’s in my head.

Viola CN “Messy”

[stillfiguringlifeout]

Healing

Darling, Heartbreak

Should not

  Live In 

Such 

A beautiful

Soul

~Stillfiguringlifeout~

[grandwhizbang]

When you have to make your own food, and you’ve been watching too much food network lately

[nerdgasrnz]

What you have before you are deconstructed, rustic chicken breast fritters coated lightly in breadcrumbs and toasted until crisp and golden- the sauce is a tomato, worcestershire, and vinegar reduction, with the vinegar for some brightness, and some brown sugar for sweetness to offset the umami of the chicken

[evaunit08]

I love what you’ve done with the presentation of your plate. it’s simple yet fun. it shows that you’re mature but you’re not afraid to show your inner child. However, with that being said, there is way too much sauce on the plate and the flavor could use more acidity. Your chicken is under seasoned. I feel like you could have used more salt. For these reasons, we had to chop you.   

[anarchetypalarchive]

i saw this post earlier about therapists and it reminded me of my old therapist paul, who in my opinion is one of the greatest men alive and who did not put up with my bullshit for even one second

anyway i go in to see paul one week in the summer of 2016, and i’m doing my usual bullshit which consists of me talking shit about myself, and paul is staring at me, and then he cuts me off and says that he’s got a new tool for helping people recognize when they’re using negative language, and gets up and goes over to his desk

and i’m like alright hit me with that sweet sweet self-help article my man, because i’m a linguistic learner and whenever paul’s like here i have a tool for you to use it’s pretty much always an article or a book or something

paul opens a drawer, takes something out, and turns back around. i stare.

i say, paul.

is that a nerf gun.

yeah, says paul.

i say, are you gonna shoot me with a nerf gun in this professional setting.

he happily informs me that that’s really up to me, isn’t it. and sits back down. and gestures, like, go ahead, what were you saying?

and i squint suspiciously and start back up about how i’m having too much anxiety to leave the house to run errands, like it was a miracle to even get here, like i’ve forgone getting groceries for the past week and that’s so stupid, what a stupid issue, i’m an idiot, how could i–

a foam dart hits me in the leg.

i go, hey! because my therapist just shot me in the leg. paul blinks at me placidly and raises an eyebrow. i squint again.

i say, slowly, it’s– not a stupid issue, i’m not stupid, but it’s frustrating me and i don’t want it to be a problem i’m having.

no dart this time. okay. sweet.

so the rest of the hour passes with me intermittently getting nailed with tiny foam darts and then swearing and then fixing my language and, wouldn’t you know it, i start liking myself a little more by the end of the session, which is mildly infuriating because paul can tell and he’s very smug about it 

anyway i leave his office and the lady having the next appointment walks in and i hear what’s all over the floor? and paul very seriously says cognitive behavioral therapy tools.

[satan-graffitied-my-soul]

The “I won’t hesitate, bitch” vine but @ friends who don’t love themselves

[fantasyartwatch]

Mermaid by Sangsu Jeong

[violacn]

These few days i’ve been forcing myself to clean up my room everytime it gets messy. My new year promise is, from now on, my room will not represent what’s in my head.

Viola CN “Messy”

[harmony-is-happiness]

Text source: Based off this post by @amelia-rayshen  Please don’t remove the source.

[sayed-tumbles]

“Loneliness is the human condition. Cultivate it. The way it tunnels into you allows your soul room to grow. Never expect to outgrow loneliness. Never hope to find people who will understand you, someone to fill that space. An intelligent, sensitive person is the exception, the very great exception. If you expect to find people who will understand you, you will grow murderous with disappointment. The best you’ll ever do is to understand yourself, know what it is that you want, and not let the cattle stand in your way.”

— Janet Fitch 

[relatablepoetryandquotes]

[drkshade-deactivated20171012]

[stillfiguringlifeout]

Gifts

I wrapped your memory

In denial

even then

I had hoped that you wouldn’t

Leave me at the door

I know we had already

Said our goodbyes

Rehearsed like

The ending of a hallmark card

But I wasn’t ready

So I sat

And waited for you to return

As the world watched

My pieces wither away

Sometimes

You can still

Find

The remains

Of us

On

The

Porch

Waiting

~Stillfiguringlifeout ~

[the-writing-writer-wrote]

i. My clothes are scattered on the floor. My mom walked in twenty minutes ago and sighed. I plainly told her it was a showcase of my life. She only replied: “Clean it up.” I truly wish it was that easy.

ii. The sinner within me is a curious little girl. She knows nothing of behaving. She is…

[stillfiguringlifeout]

Love this

[esperanzaramirez]

Gimme something to write about!

Write about a girl that touched you in ways you never thought could be touched in ways you never thought of, write about a girl that touched your heart.

[robot-rokz]

-Shattered Lens- You said, “I am broken.” Cracked from the fall. You said, “No one could possibly fix me.” There was no joy, No There was only The dull prod of Their insertions. You said, “I am broken, I cannot be fixed.” And continued to let them Have their way Because it was the only time You truly felt alive. You said, “There’s nothing you can do.” And I sat. And watched. The love of my life Fall She fell deep… And I couldn’t help But reach down. I was weak, Vulnerable. Yet I reached down. You said, “I am broken.” I pulled all of your pieces out. You said “No one can possibly fix me.” I put you back together. And as it hurt me to do so, Every tear that fucking shed Reminded me that You were my favorite piece of art. You said, “I am broken, I cannot be fixed.” And you were wrong. Because after I fixed you You left me. And now all I can say is I am broken. I cannot be fixed. And there is nothing you would do.

[realivt]

Rough sex is the manifestation of romance. You trust someone so much that you let them do whatever they want with one thing that is yours.

An Unknown Genius (via instakink)

[wordsnquotes]

My father had taught me to be nice first, because you can always be mean later, but once you’ve been mean to someone, they won’t believe the nice anymore. So be nice, be nice, until it’s time to stop being nice, then destroy them.

Laurell K. Hamilton, A Stroke of Midnight (via wordsnquotes)

[relatablepoetryandquotes]