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Happenstance

Sometimes i feel alone But then i carry on Cuz life's go on and on Let's see if I'll be alright Sometimes I rest my eyes With you inside my mind I hope you realize That i'm not alright

#songinspired #poetry #tryinghard #unfinished

Fake realist

It's funny how realistic you are, yet you can't uncover the façade that they are giving to you. You are believing your own version of truth in every person you sees and then getting disappointed in the end.

#realist #poetry #mypoetry #freeverse

embellished-dreams

I can spend three days locked in my house, reading books and drawing and doing music and then suddenly I have a desire to put on a fancy dress and just run to every party that I know for the entire night- and then go back and lock myself up.

Lou Doillon (via catwalkcats)

#poetry #mypoeticways

Red tide

6:40am

It may hurt you a lot Stabbed you in that spot You did everything even to squat How you wish you’ve been shot

You thought it was only a dream That your mind is fooling you to a scheme All you want to do is to scream But it’s so much better with an ice cream

I start calling my brother Trying to pass him my suffer He helped me to recover It worked and stopped my shudder

Yes, your life looks like it is collapsing But the pain will always have an ending So stop your overreacting Because the epilogue will be flashing

7:20am

#poetry #mypoeticways

Ashes

Oh, oh. I think I said words that doesn't mean anything, Can I take it back to you? Hey please help me and forget all the things that I've said so my mind will be at ease. Or do you believed in it already? Is it too late? Oh please tell me. After having time of my own, After getting drown in my own thoughts, After placing my place to yours, I realized things, and now I'm regretting everything that happened for the last two weeks, How I wished I could turn back to that time and change all the words that I've said. If I chose the right words, Maybe there will a starting line to something, Maybe there will be a future of us, Maybe it will be better than this. But what have I done? Before it starts, I ended it already. Now I'm sad. Suffocated. Regretful. Bye. 10:55-11:30pm 02/14/16 Sunday

I'm afraid

11:35pm I will be like you, that's when I get older Imagining it right now makes me suffer I hate how you are not contented with everything we have right now I hate how I believed and dependent to you when I am young I hate how you handle problems big or small I hate how you take care of your family Mom, siblings, children and especially your husband I hate everything that makes me sick of you I hate to think that someday, Everything that I am witnessing right now will happen again I will inherit every attitude that I don't like about you Because what goes around comes back around and yeah i am expecting the worst but maybe being negative and bitch with the current situation I'm in, will become opposite and makes me happy in the future. 11:55pm Trash note, haven't checked the grammar.

awkward

11:00 pm

we are both shy and that makes me sigh

when i see your eyes, i know you can be my guy

but it is only in my dreams just to clarify

oh baby, please do not be horrified

being alone with you makes me terrified

but thinking about you makes me satisfied

looking at you, i know you’ve just died

but maybe with me, there will be a joyride

11:25 pm

#poetry

November 19, 2015 4:00pm

I’m getting back in tumblr!!! No one reads my blog, so no one will get irritated by my grammar so it’s fine. 😊

Yesterday was a very tiring one. I had a lunch with my closest childhood friend and her sister. It is a small restaurant in lilac who’s owned by my cousin that I’m not even close. It is called Miguel and Maria, it serves stakes and comfort food to its customers. We ate baby back ribs, mac and cheese and double ultimate burger. The food serving is enough for sharing and makes mo so full. After that we walk to Empire fashion cafe cause we thought it’s near. It is like a little bazaar with online stores in 1 floor of building. After window shopping we ate 2 cakes there and went on separate ways me going home and them to Araneta to watch uaap game.

After an hour or 2 of resting, me and my family go to UP town and stroll there, it feels like forever. Ate dinner to a Filipino restaurant, bought churros in La lola and went for a little shopping. My older brother bought me an early Christmas gift, a laptop/study bed table. After coming home, i realized that they unfortunately left it but came back and got it again. Ughhh so tiring but fulfilling day! My mom wants to go out again today but luckily my brother doesn’t want. Yey because I want to rest today and do nothing.

4:18pm

#food #friend #family

collegeproblems

11/12/2015 6:29 pm

Tagaytay Escapade

Do you just want to go somewhere with your friends? No plans, no money, no idea how and what you’re going to do? Expect nothing, just go with the flow and maybe you can be happy with that? Yeah, I’m with this two and we made it. After 3 months of seeing bus going to cavite from intramuros, it keeps bugging us that maybe we can go to tagaytay, eat bulalo, go to skyranch, drink coffee, see Taal from afar and talk until night. We made it finally and satisified with it! Knowing that no matter how happy we are, we’ll need to end a day but at least there will be a beautiful memory that we can remember and talk about in the future.

6:52 pm

#travel #friends

October 31,2015 Saturday 12:36am

I just want to write something. I’m sobered up, can’t even tell if i had a hangover but i can still feel the alcohol around my thick tummy. Awhile ago, i looked my archives and read all my personal posts just to see who i am for the past 3-4 years i think. I never imagined my self to be like this though I’m still knowing who i really was or rather who will I be. You know what? I’m still doing every firsts a teenager must do yet I am now 21 and i know that sucks but it’s still amazing.

October 28,2015 Thursday After our last exams(government accounting with awful noises from letranite people because of their final game in NCAA game from San Beda, luckily they won) we went to Tomas Morato stroll the streets, bar hoping(chos! Just finding a good place to get drunk with people of at least 20), picture in the PBB house with AC5C peeps(not a fan but who cares), end up in tides stayed there for like 12mn-2am(btw that’s a friday now) then went to URBN and dance like a noob there until 4 and went home. I enjoyed it fair enough without drinking so much alcohol 😂🍻 All in all I’m just glad I went there and stayed until I can and just loved it that my parents and brother kinda panicked when I am not yet at home 4 in the morning. ( jeez! attention deficit disorder💁🏼)

Byeeee! Ciao! ¡Adios! 12:59am