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I never post on here anymore but I have so many feelings and I had to write them somewhere. Declan and I have been seeing each other for almost 5 months, and I am so unbelievably happy with him. He's quite shy and awkward, especially when things are physically intimate, so tonight I invited him to take things a step further. We didn't go all the way, of course, but it felt so good and so right being with him in that way. I haven't told him I love him yet..but I know that I will soon. It's such an overwhelming feeling. I also couldn't help but ask tonight about his past relationships..I've been curious ever since we started dating about how experienced he is with women. I'm his second gf (he's my second bf as well) and he's still a virgin, which he was completely embarrassed by..but I don't see why he should be. It's always best to wait to try that stuff with someone you truly love; I'm glad I lost mine with the person I did, and didn't lose it on a whim. I guess that puts a little pressure on me, huh? I mean not a lot...but I hope to be the best girlfriend I can be for him. I'm just terrified that I'll still never be good enough, like before.

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I'm so happy with where I'm at in my relationship with Declan right now..we're about four months in and I like him so much. The way he holds me and mindlessly touches me while we talk or he watches tv...his dorky smile and his curly hair..he's a bit of a know-it-all but he still listens to me and cares about my opinions. Last night we were making out and he held me so close and so tight..I didn't want to go home. And I've always been a little curious about how he actually felt about me, because he's not really vocal about his emotions, which I'm totally not used to in relationships. He's really awkward at flirting and will tell me I'm cute a million times before he says I'm beautiful, but last night I caught something that reassured me. He was holding me and I told him a couple of times how much I really liked him, how sweet he was and how happy I am with him, and after the second time he told me he really liked me too. But the way he said it; he has this tone of voice that I've only heard once before, and that time was at the memorial service for the death of his best friend, when he was extremely sincere and emotional and on the verge of tears. To hear that voice talking to me, and being pulled so close to him..I just keep feeling all of these things that I never thought I'd feel again. It's a little scary but I'm falling for him, and I'm so excited to know he's falling for me too.