triggering but thats what were all here for right?

⚡️5’7⚡️ GW: 110 CW: 129 SW: ~155?

[stoopidpotato]

still not at my GW but let this be your motivation lol

[parental-issues]

one of the worst thing that i had to do because of my ed was stop eating almost completely my grandparents food.

i don’t know if you’re familiar with the concept, but in italy, there’s this kind of thing where grandparents always make SUPER caloric food, use lots of oil, cook super caloric meals and everything. all italian grandparents are like this, it’s almost like a “””cultural””” thing, and mine are no different. they love cooking food for me and my sister, always try to make us eat a lot, just like seeing us eat their food so much, and it hurt my soul that i had to stop eating most of their food. every time i went over for lunch i would always be super careful and eat as little as possible, and they were sad and i could see that. so today, i had lunch at their house after school, said fuck you to anorexia and ate a huge amount of pasta which was probably cooked with like 8385848 calories of oil. and after that, i even had some bread with some salmon and some cheese that my grandpa bought yesterday. i REFUSE to feel guilty. my ed took away so many things from me. i refuse to let it take this one too.

i am NOWHERE near wanting to recover but i am proud of myself for doing this. a full belly feels good. if you were waiting for a sign to take a break from everything or just go eat something, this is it. please do it. think of your loved ones. i have a shitty relationship with literally all of my relatives except for them. i did this for them. i ate today, for them. and i feel good. FUCK YOU ana

p.s. if anyone tries to make me feel guilty or invalid for doing this i will literally find you and terminate you

[stoopidpotato]

this is so wholesome i’m so proud of you i hope one day you find freedom from all this <3then mail me some of it

[stoopidpotato]

K after “recovering” im happy to announce i AM BACK 😁😀🙁 yeah cuz ya girls lowest was 124 now we back at 133 and can’t have thatttttt. side note i did feel more energetic and happier for a bit but now it’s slowly declining as i continue to look at myself😁tried to not eat today but failed bc i’m a failure also guess what i made ? COOKIES oh yeah i ate them haha fu- pls help me

[stoopidpotato]

leaving for a trip with an ed be like 😭😭😭

[stoopidpotato]

i got the birth control depo shot today and i’ve heard so many people gain like 50 pounds and 10 pounds in a month and i can’t stop crying bc i’m afraid i’ll gain weight and if i do lol it’s over i don’t wanna be here anyway

[anaxlove]

Reblog if your weight, diet, and daily calorie intake is the first thing you think of each morning.

[emaciiiated]

Didn’t expect to be called out like this but ok

[32-kgs]

if youre reading this i am so sorry that youre following me bc that means youre probably going through the same thing i am and i hope you all can find peace in your lives and beat your illness, disorder, sadness

[stoopidpotato]

bothers me i looked up the most effective way at starving yourself to lose weight now it’s hell lol

[depresseddisneyprincess]

[fvkmdsn]

A 50 pound difference

[stoopidpotato]

i am now going to go buy miralax😌i’ve always wanted to but i didn’t think it would work

[stoopidpotato]

when your bf is your only friend and when he’s doing anything but being with you you’re sad and don’t wanna be alive😎😌pls tell me i’m not the only one

[stoopidpotato]

send me thinspo, send it all, send me meanspo i’m gaining weight😭

am i the only one who wants to d!3☺️☺️😁i just wanna be skinny i’m never gonna get there it’s the same bs every. single. day.

[chicksweedithink]

my activeness on tumblr directly correlates to how much i should not be on tumblr in this moment

[edmemesrevived]

please enjoy this low effort meme i made with snapchat stickers

[stoopidpotato]

i want to be happy but i need to be skinny and apparently those just don’t go together

[stoopidpotato]

this is all i want 😭the arms😭the legs😭the skinny stomach😭can’t take it

[stoopidpotato]

birthday in 2 days but all i want is to be dead lol happy birthday to me