I'm lost again

Haven Lynee'. Nineteen years old. Born in Wilmington, NC. Italian blood. Gypsy soul. Tattooed mommy. 05.09.15

[mclennon-with-starrison]

Think about me every now and then, my old friend.

John Lennon, the last words he said to Paul McCartney (via mclennon-with-starrison)

[lyricvvibes]

[stop-looking-for-me-blog]

I miss you. Good God. I miss you so much. Your eyes, your laugh, your smile. The way you used to hold me and tell me you loved me. Life used to be so carefree and genuinely nice. I think about you a lot, not that it’s something i like to admit. I hope you’re doing okay. I hope life has turned out as beautiful for you as it has for me. 

[yruos]

[squinchyfry-deactivated20150704]

distortionly:

“that is the problem. if she wanted to dance i would let her wreck the furniture. if she wanted to cook i would let her burn down the house. and if she wanted to scream i would let her deafen me. I’ve never loved anyone enough to let them destroy me but God, she could take me by the throat and my eyes would sparkle at the mere inches between us.”

[never-ending-rumspringa]

Fuck that’s beautiful.

[place0fperfecti0n]

this, is art

[poppunkfunk-deactivated20170408]

somebody feel this way towards me please

[stop-looking-for-me-blog]

I miss you, the old you. The guy who kissed my forehead and held my hand. You used to smile and laugh but now you just stare. We used to have so much love for eachother. I don’t know how we got here. Now you scream at me, tell me you hate me. You hit me, choke me, talk down to me. I’m not enough, I don’t do enough. What more can I do when I’m taking care of our child? Is this not what you wanted? A family of your own. I can take care of us, him and I, but I will always love you. Regardless of the bruises and the painful words you say. I’m busting my ass to make you hapy, but you still treat me like I’m nothing. What did I do to deserve this? I just want to run away. 

[stop-looking-for-me-blog]

I got asked how I was doing, how are will and I, how is Gannon, do we have everything we need, what's been going on. But the answers are all the same. I'm doing amazing, Will and I have never been better. I wish he was home more but he's a hardworking man and I appreciate it very much. Gannon is great, he's growing and he's happy and he has an amazing family. We have more than enough of everything we want and need. We are a very blessed family and I am very lucky to have such an amazing family situation. Nothing has been going on, I've been being the best mommy and girlfriend I can be to my boys. That's all that matters.

[stop-looking-for-me-blog]

I think maybe something might be wrong with me? So the night before last, Will accidentally hurt me when we were playing around and it made me tear up. But once I started tearing up, I full blown started crying even though it didn't really hurt that bad. I ended up crying for almost 20 minutes and I know he felt so bad but I just couldn't stop crying. Our relationship has been so rocky ever since he started his job drilling, I thought it was going to get better with time but it just feels like it's getting worse and worse. It's to the point now that he calls me a bitch (or some form of bitch) two or three times a day and he likes to argue and scream at me in front of Gannon. I just really can't handle this.

[psychofactz]

You are not clingy, or needy, or silly for having needs for affection and affirmation and attention within a romantic relationship. Those needs aren’t an embarrassing outgrowth of your low-self esteem or depression or whatever messy emotional issues you may have going on, that’s just basic shit that people need from each other. We of course should not make our partners responsible for meeting all of our emotional needs – it’s not someone’s else’s job to make you happy. But inside a healthy relationship, being able to show affection, pay attention, and demonstrate “you are amazing and important to me” is a pleasure, not some task or burden.

(via ohlovequotes)

[coral]

I’m just dying to say, ‘Hey, do you ever feel like jumping off a bridge?’ or ‘Do you feel an emptiness inside your chest at night that is going to swallow you?’ But you can’t say that at a cocktail party.

Paul Gilmartin, The Mental Illness Happy Hour (via dirtyberd)

[stop-looking-for-me-blog]

Do what's best for you. If he loves you he will understand.

.. :(

[stop-looking-for-me-blog]

😍😍😍😍

[stop-looking-for-me-blog]

Three years ago, I was laying in this exact spot, bleeding from wrist and thighs. Thinking to myself that it would never get better and I was better of dead.

Tonight I lay in this spot, with the man I’m in love with as he talks to our unborn son. Thinking to myself nineteen more weeks and we will have everything.

Thinking to myself “thank god I never gave up”.

It gets better, I promise you. Give it time, it gets better.

[cactuseeds]

[youcanhearsilence]

Is she naked because you love her or do you love her because shes naked?

(via blvckmxmi)

[stop-looking-for-me-blog]

Ill be okay. It’s just five more pounds. It’s just a few more cuts. Ill be okay.

[stop-looking-for-me-blog]

I’m supposed to get my birth control put in tomorrow and Will is really against it. I’m all for having more kids, in fact, today we decided that four was a good amount for us. But he doesn’t want it because he wants us to let it happen when it happens and he knows about how Mirena last a while after you take it out. I’m really conflicted because I love my little boy and I just want him for a while. I’m scared that I will get pregnant again, not that it would be a bad thing. I don’t know. I know my dad wants me to get it and my sister and I really want to get it but I don’t want to upset will.

[stop-looking-for-me-blog]

I mean. Can I stop having dreams about you orrrr???