Brain Dump

This body no longer serves me, time to metamorphose

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Ozempic makes it so there are so many more th!nspǒ pics to choose from

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My DM’s are always open!

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Got Preggers so I had to stop, but I’m back bitches! I missed your motivation! How yall doing?

Sw: fat

Gw: thin

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Any other girlies trying not to eat your feeling because this is the worst day you’ve had in 8 years or is that just me?

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All I think about is food.

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Had to eat for 3 days in a row because my family would have noticed if I didn’t so I’m starting a fast now.

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My doctor: I see you’ve lost a lot of weight! Great job! Have you been doing it in a healthy way?

Me: I haven’t eaten in 16 days ha ha.

Doctor: ha ha, well whatever works. Try and eat healthy meals and exercise.

Proof that if you’re fat you can cry out for help and literally no one cares or believes you.

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My motivation is thinking about every time something didn’t fit or felt too snug.

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Still no euphoria but I threw up my stomach acid and water. haven’t eaten so much as a crumb despite how atrocious I feel. So I’ll count it as a win. Also I’m up. 6 so frustrating but I figure my body is holding water again because it’s been a while since I’ve eaten

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Waiting for f&st!ing euphoria to kick in suuuuuuuuucks. That is all.

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The amount of times I’ve yo-yo lost this weight might kill me fr. This can’t be good for me. I’ve never struggled like this to ⭐️rve before. My head feels like it’s going to burst and moving is like walking in sand. I think I’ve abused my body to much between the BED and Ana cycling and I’m scared.

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What celebrity has your ideal body?

I’ll go first

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The way my brain fluctuates from

“I hate this I want to recover”

to

“you can recover when you hit your goal weight”

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I am so sick of hating myself but I honestly don’t know how to exist any other way. I hate always being consumed by thoughts of how hideous and heinous I am or about thoughts of food and calories. Why can’t I just live in the moment? I wish âņä would just leave me alone for a little while.

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Getting a food scale that counts calories for me has turned a my hobby into a scientific profession. Now I can take c4ls out of my meals with the precision of a drųğ ðealęř

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Accepting my body as it is means being okay that I have inherently less value or self control than a thin person. And I won’t do that.

#keeppushing

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Me floating by when I finally hit my goals