STAY WEIRD

and i am out with lanterns, looking for myself

[stopnsmelltherain]

May 22 2025

If I could id run back to you in a split second I would. It’s been 5 years…I still feel the same about you. I long our old memories, though they weren’t a lot, they meant everything to me. We were perfect for each other. Yet we didn’t end up together. This sadness will forever be with me, I fear. Why? That’s all I ask. Why couldn’t it be easy? Why didn’t we work out? We didn’t cheat, we keep in touch because I know that we’re afraid to stop talking forever. Everyday that passes I forget more and more your face, your smile, your voice…I don’t want to forget J…please don’t let us forget each other.

[letsbelonelytogetherr]

— unknown

[thepersonalquotes]

i be like “i don’t care” and then my chest starts hurting

[stopnsmelltherain]

july 30 2024

Wow it’s been 2 years since I’ve been on tumblr. I’d like to say a lot has changed but it really hasn’t. The boy whom I used to write about has still been hard to replace. In fact, my heart is more broken because guys these days just use women. Where is J you might wonder. He moved on. He starting a new chapter with another girl. It breaks me. But I am left, again, alone picking up the pieces of my broken heart. It is what it is. Sadly, there’s not much I can do.

[infinity-dreams27]

“A las niñas les enseñan muchas cosas. Si un niño te pega, le gustas. Nunca trates de emparejarte los flecos. Y un día conocerás a un hombre maravilloso y tendrás tu final feliz. Cada película que vemos y cada historia que nos cuentan, nos imploran que esperemos el giro del tercer acto: La declaración inesperada de amor. La excepción a la regla. A veces nos concentramos tanto en el final feliz que no aprendemos a interpretar las señales, a diferenciar entre los que nos quieren y los que no.. Entre los que se van a quedar y se van a ir. Y quizá el final feliz no incluye un tipo maravilloso: quizá el final eres tú, sola recogiendo los pedazos y volviendo a empezar. Liberándote para encontrar algo mejor en el futuro. Quizá el final feliz solo consiste en seguir. O quizá este es el final feliz: Saber que a pesar de todas las llamadas y corazones rotos, a pesar de todos los errores y las señales malinterpretadas, a pesar de todo el dolor y la vergüenza, tú nunca, nunca perdiste las esperanzas.”

— HE’S JUST NOT THAT INTO YOU

[stopnsmelltherain]

“I’m still writing about you and you haven’t read a word.”

— Travis Grandt, You Won the Breakup (via thequotejournals)

[stopnsmelltherain]

I did what I did to be at peace with myself.

Now…

Now it’s time to heal and to finally close this chapter once and for all.

09.12.22

[stopnsmelltherain]

[teaspirationss]

Where do you go when the love that left you won’t leave you alone? I could drop a wish where your smile bends into the sunrise, but words are blind, and maybe we’re just a letter that starts with goodbye. If I let you into my heart, do you promise not to wreck the place? I don’t need to feel the sun, just let me touch your skin - darling, this doesn’t have to always be happily ever after, ever after is just fine.

[stopnsmelltherain]

The letter I never sent. (June 15 2022)

[thoughtkick]

“She distanced herself to save herself.”

— Unknown

[anditslove]

“I did crave attention, but I refused to humiliate myself by asking for it.”

— Ottessa Moshfegh, My Year of Rest and Relaxation

[soft-lovely]

living in Cambridge as a student

[antikseftali]

[stopnsmelltherain]

March 11 2022

I’m finally letting go. I’m walking away and this time, I’m not looking back. It was a long journey. A journey filled with tears, headaches, anxiety, and sadness. But I’ve finally reached my destination. This journey with you taught me a lot. It taught me how to walk away from toxicity. It taught me to be a strong woman who knows her worth. It taught me that I am good enough and that I don’t deserve to be mistreated by someone so cold and narcissistic. So goodbye. Goodbye forever.

[hidannyphantom]

“But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you, not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.”

- 10 Things I Hate About You, 1999

Moving on is hard.

The culture nowadays when it comes to the ending of relationships is for the individuals to hate each other, and if you don’t hate them people think there’s something wrong.

But you can’t just go from loving someone to immediately hating them? At least not that quickly, and not in most cases.

I think we say we hate them so we can make ourselves hurt less, yunno?

Except we don’t actually hate them. We still love them, we just don’t want to admit it.

But that’s love, right?

[monicalover]