Suicide. The statistics is sadly getting higher as days, months, and years go by. And it's heart breaking. Nowadays, there are more reasons why some people are urged to do it. It may be bullying, feeling out of place, feeling you're not good enough, feeling you never do anything right, and a lot more reasons. I, for instance, just want the hurt to end. I couldn't remember actually how many times I walked up to the 7th floor of our college building and looked down. Looked down and thought of letting go, that if I jump, that's it. It's over. How many times I wondered if I'm really going to die if I cut my wrists or what other ways I can do it without feeling one more hurt. You see, I was bullied during elementary and even more during high school. I had no one, I tried looking for help but was laughed at instead. I never belonged to any group, I had no real friends, and when I finally thought I had one they threw me away because I don't have anything to offer them anymore. I was useless. Do you know how it feels like to be invisible? To be there when your old set of friends are inviting all the people around you, except you? When you see a photo of them eating out and having fun, without you? You thought they were your friends but it turns out they're not. You'll say this is just drama, looking for attention post. But what do you know? Nothing. Yes, that's right. You know nothing because you never experienced these things. You never know how it feels like not to belong, not to matter. You'll never know because you're not me, you're not us. Up until now, from time to time, suicide comes to mind. But you know what? No. Don't do it. I guess, if there's one thing I learned from my experience is this: LIFE DOES GET BETTER. And suicide? Its taking the pain away from you but handling it to the people who genuinely cares about you and loves you. Yes, they exist. I know you feel alone, and believe me I how it feels to be alone, but there are people who cares, people who love, and they look at you, and though they may be silent, they actually see you. Some you already met and most you are yet to meet. So why give up now? Why waste the possibility of having a good life? You will never know if you quit now. I encourage you to continue fighting, to continue hoping, and to never lose faith that good things will happen and that you'll eventually meet your people. There is love out there. There are people who cares. There is happiness and bliss. You'll find it, though some times you'll have to look a little harder. What we experienced or experiencing is NOT just a phase, what we are feeling is valid and it belongs to us. And we have the power over it. To the bullies: stop making fun of other people. Words are just words but it does have an impact. Think before you speak, think before you click, think before you do anything stupid. I hope you'll never feel how you make us feel, you'll never like it.
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