Love, Lust, and the People Inbetween @storiesoflovelustandhim - Tumblr Blog

I’m so familiar with the feeling of heartbreak that I feel lonely without it. I listen to music about it just to stop feeling so alone. It’s like I’ve forgotten what it’s like to sit in existence without the weight of missing you.

#just show me love your ultraviolet tears me up all day #but I’ll stay laying out in the sun

His smell, his heat, his beard scratches around the tender skin on the edges of my lips. I wish I could live in it forever.

#posts about L

FaceTimed my ex and then went on a date with a finance bro I love nyc

#June 2026

I love my life so much right now. I’m in southern Spain drinking all day, hanging out at the beach, eating amazing food, flirting with boys, being young. I’m so glad I get to live this life.

#personal #thinking about my British coworker and the way we kept making eye contact and touching arms #I need him so bad #or maybe just as a concept #I’m a lover girl #this is the best week

xanaxfarts

Wong Kar-wai: In the Mood for Love (2000)

And suddenly you’re 26 and you’d give anything to be 23 again, sitting in the car, sweltering in the North Carolina summer, jamming to music.

#thinking about how fun my early 20s was #my mid twenties are infinitely more fun but in a different way #nostalgia is a price I’m happy to pay because it meant I’ve lived a great life #somehow I have the memory of grabbing David’s hot chicken and driving after a big rain storm #headed to my love’s apartment #and the memory of me sitting in his passenger seat #listening to nickleback and holding his hand

I want to put a collar on him and make him crawl on his hands and knees and whine for me but as friends #whatdatmean

#posts about a

Lowkey been experiencing gender unalignment lately. I’m such a woman sometimes and other times I’m such a man. Why are all my actions gendered.

#I could never be a man #and I don’t want to be

Feeling like a heartbroken 14 year old girl again, convinced I’m undeserving of the love that I want.

#posts about every boy I’ve ever wanted that I didn’t get #I don’t handle rejection well #I take it very personally and I genuinely feel like throwing a fit like a little kid

I miss having good sex and simps taking care of me oh my godddd

#personal

Someone else is going to be his wife someday.

#and it won’t be me #crying and throwing up at the thought #personal #this is about c

I think it’s finally time to let him know. I have to choose to - that’s the only way forward.

#posts about E

Your 20s are for feeling extremely heartbroken all the time. I’m hurting for all the versions of myself I don’t get to live. Where is the lady who is raising a puppy with the southern man she fell in love with? I killed her. Where’s the fun party girl who’s making new friends all over New York City? I buried her too. Where’s the smart woman climbing the corporate ladder? She gave up. And the artistic girl? The foodie? The gamer girl? All gone.

I don’t even know who’s left to be.

#feb 2025 #I’ve been in nyc for a half year now #I miss all the versions of myself I left behind

Necklace fell down sink. Too drunk to handle. Maybe fix in the AM.