anecdote of thoughts

Once upon a time there was a missing girl. Missing: Girl, not that small, not that tall. Long black hair, small black eyes. Personality: Cheerful, always excited to things she see in this world, and loves to have fun. But its been a while since this girl been searching in this wonderful world. But seems nobody can find her. The black hair is now mixed with color brown. The cheerfulness, turned into sadness that's been stolen from her years ago. Excited? It's hard for her to get excited when there is so much stress and depression. Loves to have fun is still the same, but how can she have fun when nothing feels right anymore? She's lost, she needs someone to save her. If someone bothered to look hard enough and search for her. They would see through those small black eyes, still sparkling, deep down.

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Remember: At your best you'll never be right for the wrong person. But even at your worst, the right person will remind you of your worth

Jay Shetty

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Yung relasyon na magugulat at mapapasabi nalang ang ibang tao na "Ay sila pa pala. Tagal na nila" o kaya "Kayo pa pala, tagal nyo na"

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It’s been months since I was gone. The beautiful, lively and full of thoughts was gone. When would I be back, back to the old time, back where I was supposed to be. I miss to write, I miss to give advices and express what I’m feeling, I miss to blog, I miss the things that I love to do. I miss myself. But how can I get back, how. To be honest, I really don’t know how to find myself anymore. I can’t help my own self to get back. I think I need more time, more time to have a heart, a heart to write and a heart to blog again. Because right now I don’t know anymore, I can’t find my own letters, my own words to write. Just give me time. I promise I will come back.

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I wish that it would be the same

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I always pray to God to give me a woman that will love my Jesus more than she loves me. Every night, I always ask Him to give my better half. A woman that will love me, my flaws and imperfections. A woman that can grow old with me, caress me if I'm sick and try to cook my favorite dish even if she doesn't know how to. A woman that always appreciate even my smallest effort. A woman that can surprise me and do efforts like sending sweet long text messages and morning calls. A woman that can recognize if I'm not okay or there's something wrong. A woman that will introduce me to her peers and parents. A woman that can submit and have a deeper commitment with me. A woman that will never leave me in a populous place. A woman that will cast out my fears, makes me stronger and stays with me no matter what will happen. A woman that will stay faithful and loyal to me. A woman that will whisper my name until her last breath. A woman that can show affection in different ways and can give her heart for the rest of her days. A woman that will be my bestfriend, girlfriend and partner, forever and always. And I think, my prayer was already answered. I wasn't lucky thus I'm so blessed because He gave not only the better half of me but the best half. He gave me an extraordinary gift that everyone was dreaming of. I never expected that He will gave me someone who's beyond my imagination. I never felt this happiness before. She showed me the real meaning of happiness, love and loyalty, how could I ask for more. Thank you for the wonderful gift, my Lord. I love you. And I love her, I really do.

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My feelings will fade, but you’ll remain to me as a memory.

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Masakit, ngunit kakayanin.

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Pangako. Pangako nandito lang ako para sayo. Pangako hindi kita iiwan. Pangako aalagaan kita, mamahalin. Pangako gagawin natin lahat ng gusto mong gawin. Pangako hindi kita sasaktan. Pangako ikaw lang. Pangako tayo hanggang huli.  Pangako. Pangakong lagi nalang hindi nagagawa ng mga taong na ngangako satin. Pero ang sarili ba natin tinanong natin kung ang mga pangako bang binibitawan natin ay nagagawa rin ba natin? Bakit nga ba na ngangako ang isang tao, kung hindi rin naman nya magagawa ito? Para ba magpaasa? Para ba may panghawakan ang taong pinangakuan? Pero naisip ko, kaya siguro na ngangako ang isang tao dahil mahal natin ito. Mahal naman pala pero bakit hindi parin nila nagagawang tuparin ang pangako? Nabibitawan kasi natin ang isang bagay o salita kapag matindi ang emosyon ang ating nararamdaman. Mga salitang gustong gusto natin gawin ngunit dumadating sa punto na kahit gusto nating gawin at tuparin, hindi nakikiayon ang tadhana sa atin. Masakit mang isipin na ating mga pangakong binitawan at sinabi ay maiiwan nalamang sa isang tabi. Pero may mga salita talagang hanggang salita nalang talaga. Matuto tayong gawin nalamang natin imbis na mangako. Dahil ang pangako ay salitang maykakayahang pasayahin ka at saktan.

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I always end up broken

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Labing-dalawang araw na simula nung sinabi mong ayaw mo na. Labing-dalawang araw na simula nung iniwan mo ko. Labing-dalawang araw na simula nung sumuko ka bigla. Nasaan ang katagang sinabi mo na magaaway lang tayong dalawa pero hinding hindi tayo maghihiwalay? Nasan na ang sinabi mong kakayanin natin lahat? Nasan na ang takot mong hindi mo ako kayang mawala? Kundi wala na. Masakit tanggapin na sa isang pagkakamali na aking nasabi, sa isang salita lang na lumabas sa aking bibig  ang katupusan ay ang iwan mo ako. Na sa simpleng bagay tayo magtatapos. Nakakalungkot isipin na sa lahat ng nagawa mo sakin, nagawa ko pang kumapit. Pero ikaw isang salita na nabitawan ko iniwan mo ko bigla. Sa pagod at sakit na aking nadarama habang minamahal ka hindi sumagi sa isip kong iwanan ka. Sa libu-libong dahilan para iwanan ka, ang nagiisang rason na mahal kita ay sapat na dahilan para hindi kita iwanan.

Na alala ko noon nung tinanong mo ako kung hahayaan ba kitang mawala sakin, ang sinagot ko sayo “Mahal kita, ayaw kitang mawala. Pero mahirap manatili sa isang relasyon kung ako nalang ang kumakapit at ikaw ay bumitaw na. Kung yan ang gusto mo, wala akong magagawa.” Sinagot mo sakin na “Hindi mo man lang ba ako pipigilan? HIndi mo man lang sasabihin na ayaw mo kong mawala at huwag kitang iwanan.” Sumagot ako nang “Gagawin ko ang lahat para hindi tayo dumating sa puntong magiwanan tayong dalawa.” At nung araw na dumating iyon, ang salitang sinabi ko sayo na hahayaan kita kasi yun ang gusto mo. Hindi ko ginawa, kundi nagmakaawa ako sayo, umiiyak ako habang kausap ka telepono at sinabing “mahal, wag mo kong iwan. Huwag ganito, maayos pa naman natin. Kayang pang ayusin.” Sinagot mo lang na “Ayoko na, tama na.” Nagpakatanga ako sayo, hinabol kita, nagmakaawa, nagpakababa ako. Pero wala, iniwan mo pa din ako.

Ang hirap mo ngang mahalin, nakakapagod, masakit. Pero tiniis ko lahat kasi nga mahal kita. Iniisip ko kung saan nga ba ako nagkulang, hindi ba ako sapat para iwan mo ako, na minahal mo ba ako talaga kasi ang dali-dali sayong bitawan ako at iwan nang ganito. Sa napakaliit na dahilan mawawala ang salitang “tayo.”

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Check blogs?

Sure, like lang.

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I just really want you to notice me.

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21 draft down to 11 drafts gosh, daming putol na post. Parang kada-araw nadadagdagan siya. Hindi ko siya matapos tapos.Denelete ko na yung iba kasi nga ang dami na, di ko naman matapos. Sad mind :(

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The hardest thing I'd ever do is say goodbye and walk slowly away from you.

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They say “You don’t know what you have until it’s gone.” But the truth is, you knew exactly what you had; you just thought you’d never lose it.

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Today, I won’t think of you.

Tonight, I won’t dream of you.

Tomorrow, Will be another day.

Tomorrow MAYBE.