Some Stories from Blue Continent

It is just a post wall which is fulfilled with all of doodle stories from a young man who wants to reach his dreams and realize it

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You Said That You Believe in God, But…

You said that you believe in God, but… your hands build walls instead of bridges, your words cut deep like sharpened edges.

You said that you believe in God, but… your eyes scan the lives of others, always watching, always prying, like their choices were yours to govern, like their burdens were yours to carry, not to ease, but to expose.

You said that you believe in God, but… you whisper names in rooms they’ll never enter, turning stories into sharpened rumors, calling it concern, calling it care, but it's never about helping, just about knowing.

You said that you believe in God, but… your faith is a mirror you hold to others, pointing out their cracks and stains, never stopping to see your own reflection.

You said that you believe in God, but… you preach of love yet measure worth, deciding who belongs, who deserves, as if grace was yours to give, as if redemption had a price only you could name.

You said that you believe in God, but… you speak of kindness yet walk with judgment, you ask for blessings yet curse in secret, you say "love thy neighbor" yet knock on their doors only to count their sins.

You said that you believe in God, but… you mistake curiosity for concern, entitlement for guidance, intrusion for wisdom.

You said that you believe in God, but… do you worship Him, or just the power of knowing more than the rest?

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2024

How to say, if you were to ask me about 2024, I would say that it has been rough.

Because if you to ask me on a deeper level then .....

I would say that I have had the most roller coaster riding year of my life. I have been pushed further than I have ever been, especially with work and my personal development.

I lost people who I used to call friends because of some huge fallout, but because they never really saw you. They made judgments, jumped to conclusions, and blamed you for things they never cared to ask about. It hurts when someone assumes the worst about you, when they decide who you are without giving you the space to explain. And then, when they cross the line, they don’t even acknowledge it. No apology, no reflection, just distance.

I had to battle inner demons whilst pretending to be happy on the outside, pretending to be okay but your family just didn't want to know and pretended that you were lavish enough while I needed to spend millions for your moving opportunity.

I have put so much pressure and efforts in the last few years, it all caught up with me. And the truth is… I feel empty. Looking back, I see how much of myself I gave to things that didn’t truly deserve it. Time and energy spent chasing validation, productivity, or goals that didn’t even align with who I really am. And now I’m left asking, “Was it worth it?”

I decided to chase new opportunity in this year too. Moving to a new country feels like stepping into a blank canvas—exciting, yet lonely. Despite the thrill of new opportunities, the ache of leaving my comfort zone lingers. No familiar faces, no close friends, just me against the unknown. Starting over is hard, and the struggle of building a life from scratch is something unseen by others. It’s a quiet battle, but I’m learning to embrace the discomfort and trust that, in time, connections will grow.

In a nutshell, 2024 was a year of goodbyes, personal growth, and lessons I didn’t ask for. The big lessons that I learnt is that everyone is going through something so try and give each other respect and compassion. But here I am, breathing, standing and moving forward again.

But yeah, that was the 2024 stories back. I am going to leave this year feeling positive about 2025 and I am thankful for the people I still have and who have come to my life recently.

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I Learn To Not Care So Much About What Other People Think

I'm gradually realizing that I can still love myself even if others don't. I'm learning that I don't need to work so hard to earn others' approval. If someone doesn't like me, that's their concern, not mine. I just understand that what others think of me often has little to do with me, and it's not my responsibility to change their opinion.

I'm beginning to walk my own path without being overly concerned about others' judgments. I'm starting to follow my passions for personal fulfillment, not to impress anyone else. I'm coming to terms with the fact that not everyone will understand what drives me, and that's okay.

I'm realizing that how I feel about myself is completely in my control. I'm learning not to rely so much on others to lift me up when I'm down or to take back hurtful words. It's up to me to decide how I see myself.

I'm recognizing that others don't define me. People can think what they want, and I don't have to agree. I'm learning to let them have their opinions without feeling the need to change their perspective.

I'm accepting that there will always be people who disapprove of me or don't understand me, and it's okay if they don't want to try. Life becomes easier when I take back control and live in a way that feels right to me, not to others. I'm learning that words from others hurt less when I take them lightly and move on.

I'm realizing that people aren't a cure. No one can fix or save me, and it's not their job to. It's okay to depend on myself from time to time.

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One fine day, it will be your turn. You will leave homes, cities and countries to pursue grander ambitions. You will leave friends, lovers and possibilities for the chance to roam the world and make deeper connections. You will defy your fear of change, hold your head high and do what you once thought was unthinkable: walk away. And it will be scary. At first. But what I hope you’ll find in the end is that in leaving, you don’t just find love, adventure, and freedom. More than anything, you find you.

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You

You are like my heaven, where I pour out all the sincere feelings of pure love in my heart Nothing can replace your place in my heart, which cools the whole soul and melts to the bottom of my soul

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If I had to choose one person to give all my love to, I wouldn't even have to think twice

It would be always be you

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It’s the love that chooses to stay. The love that chooses to still believe. The love that chooses to make a way. The love that chooses. Because love itself is a choice.

But the choice we made is to fight for it

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I want you to be mine… even though we’re long-distance. I don’t regret choosing you, and I never will. You are my partner, and that will never change.

When I fell in love with you, I thought I knew what I was getting myself into, but our reality is far more complicated than my expectations were. I thought being apart from you wouldn’t be hard… but I was wrong. Having a long-distance relationship isn’t easy for me right now, but we are grown people, it will become easier because it is only temporary.

Right now, you live across the country from me. I could hop on a plane and fly over the sea or drive for a few days from mainland Europe to see you. Not being able to see your face every day breaks my heart, but I know we are strong enough to weather the storm.

So, until we see each other again, we must love each other like we’ve never been apart. I can’t resist texting you every day, even every few hours, because written words are our most powerful lifeline. We show our love through our communication — the sweet messages that always bring us closer together. I wish I could speak to you, hold your hand, and kiss away your bad days, but I wouldn’t trade what we have. Some people say that I’m too needy, and maybe, it’s true. Before I fell in love with you, my need for love and attention cost me more relationships than I can count. But now, I know that you’re all I need, which is why will never stop sending you loving, flirtatious words. I message you every day so you know I’m thinking about you, and I care about us.

You may be far away from me, and right now, I may not see you every day. But I will always love being the best boyfriend I can, because you’re an incredible, and you deserve all my love. I will love you by treating my body and my mind with respect, so I can be here for you. I will love you by showing my pride when you achieve your goals and follow your dreams. I will love you by supporting you through your hardest days. I know you’ll always do the same for me.

I will love you forever. Our love will feel easier as time goes on. I’m committed to you, and I know you’re committed to me. Although people may judge us for our long-distance love, we know that our love will thrive beyond the doubts. We’re two lovers, an ocean apart, ready to take on the world together, no matter what life throws our way.

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I know it won’t last forever. It is just temporary

They say long distance never works and I think that is stupid. Hearts pick people not places, and it kills me that your place happens to be 900 miles away but that has never meant I don’t love you like you live next door.

But it also doesn’t mean it isn’t hard, I’ve never missed someone so deeply who I haven’t actually lost. And missing you is one of the most difficult things I’ve ever had to do.

Watching all of the other couples get to have the little things. Like goodbye kisses or falling asleep to the sound of your heartbeat instead of goodnight whispered through the phone. But it is all worth it the moment I run into your arms and I’m home again.

It drives me crazy not being able to be there with you but it would be worse to simply not be yours at all.

So, I will wait as long as it takes, I will fight as hard as you need, I will love you as much as I can, because passing mainland Europe and 2,5 hours plane flights are a small price to pay for the forever I cannot wait to spend with you.

So I’ll find comfort in pictures of us, and that jacket that still smells like you, thus I’ll tuck myself in to the thought of how, it’ll feel when I have you in my arms again, and try to get a little more used to home being so far away.

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I am so glad that I lucked into you

I know that I’m so grateful that all my feeble attempts to find someone before had failed -  because they led me to you. I know that it sounds so cheesy, and I shudder a little bit just saying it, but it’s so true.

It was mere coincidence that you and I were in the same place at the same time, taking time to meet for the first time, and at that corner of the bar you’d be so quick to say hello to me and we shook hands. The second you smiled, and that first word slipped through your lips I knew I had to know more about you and from that your first hello, I just felt that I didn’t want to hear you utter anything that resembled a goodbye to me and it just happened that we kept our convo and I blended into you. 

I know, we were both used to being hurt, but you were the first one that my head and heart decided was worthy enough of letting in, in trusting to protect them both.  The brain and heart are funny things, they never make sense and they usually never can agree on anything. Perhaps, we both had to go through relationships that broke down our trust,  which led to constructing strong walls around our hearts to find each other.  Without going through this we wouldn’t value each other as much as we do. 

You always ask me why I like you, and I can’t even begin to explain it to you, because it isn’t just a single reason or one trait that sticks out the most. I can’t just fit it all onto a sheet of paper. I simply like you because you’re you and I haven’t met anyone like you.

In this entire world there will never be anyone else like you because the guy you are is exactly right for me. I thank the heavens for blessing me with a person who has the greatest heart, like you and even I questioned myself over and over how they could hurt you in the past while you have this lovely heart. 

Those 10 days spending time with you was the shortest time ever that I love the most.  Every time I was with you, I could not control myself, just wanna hold you tight in my arms, kiss your lips like it would be my last. We were so close. I did have good time with you.  I love spending all of my time with you, I mean, spending time with you is like being in heaven. 

The future can be scary and I don’t know what tomorrow has in store for us. But I hope our journey will last. I do know that I look forward to every adventure and moment that I’m allotted with you. That waiting moment, that counting days to meet you again.

So if whether we’re blaming this on either a simple coincidence, fate, or a mere accident, I am thankful for all of the above. I hope that I could sleep tonight even you won’t be beside me from this day. But I attempt to be strong, we will meet soon again later and I will miss that moment when we hug and hold our hands each other again. 

Sincerely,

Your Catfish

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Coming Home

Coming home is hard because our family isn’t that perfect. Our mother, despite all the effort she put into raising you, is probably still over-bearing or slightly (highly) irrational. Your father, in spite of all of the support he has provided you, may be just as critical as you left him and all the thing that you have adapted in the place where you settled in. Our aunt might still be wrestling with searching a good candidate to mate us. 

Coming home is hard because often some of the places you used to occupy have been filled — by  best friends, love interests, social dynamic, now is abandoned, filled with new atmosphere and new people. 

Coming home is hard, but it’s worth it.

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You

I'm thankful for you.. for all that you did for me and just for being here when I should have been there.  You are so amazing, you hold my hand firmly when we spent the whole night in the club and took care of me. 

You always tell me that everything will be ok even I am type of easy-panicker person,  and I believe you, it has to be or this life is for not, you fill me with hope when life seems bleak.

I like you like I have never done it to anyone before and I never want our time to end, you are so beautiful that not a soul compares to the shine that comes from your heart.

I am so thankful that you come in my life and I am grateful for you too. I love every single second that i spend with you.

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You know what. You are like my dopamine. You made me addicted, thinking about you all of time but since then your halo just motivates me to do something better, something useful, even escalating my mood to study, getting good marks to have better future, even maybe with this, I can be closer to you in the near future. 

This intimacy has already gnawed me, not only about physical touch. But the attention, your action, your little things count big on me. I feel my heart pound harder now and I am afraid  you will hear it there in a distance. Or have you already recognized it?

I just want to know more about you, the all of you.  I want to share my life with you – the good, the bad and the ugly. I don’t know, I have never felt like this after long period and I just demand that I want to choose you.  I am happy to listen everything about you, your family, your broken pieces, your friends, your complains from work. I want to listen everything related to you. 

You cured me. You already filled that space, I know that I am too ambitious, perhaps. But I don’t know, you are different from the others. I see your clear heart inside, I see your heart and I want to keep it, guard it and never let anyone hurt it, neither myself. 

I hope that I can grab your hands sooner, I want to hug you, I want to lay in your lap, our you lay in my lap. I want to spend all good moments with you and I can’t wait to see you again :)

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You teach me how to be patience. You assure that you are always be there, and convince that you never forget about me. To be honest, yeah, I hate myself when I am falling in love with someone, I just want to be beside them, I just want to have your attention, I just want you to be part of mine. I have never loved someone the way I do for you. I have never missed someone, like the way I miss you. 

Oh My dear, you are worth it. Hope that you will be that lucky one, who will have me. Every miles between us, Every attentions I text while waiting for your text, even I know that you will surely reply me. The days in between where we don't talk much and see each other much. You are worth it all, and I can't wait for the day when I finally get to hold you close.

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I wasn’t looking for anything at all when I met you. Actually, I wasn’t planning on falling for anyone so soon. But then I met you. And that was it… I guess things just happened. I found you and I found myself slowly wanting to spend time with you. It was simple.

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If you ever wonder, you are always in my head now. 

I just knew, even before my arms reached yours.

I never knew what I would expect venturing out into the world of dating again.

But I am here to tell you that after heartbreak and loss strength to find a love.

I fell for you hard and never let someone in the way I did you now before. 

I assure you that this feeling is true.

Even when you are gone. I still feel like I spend everyday with you.

You are amazing. 

I still can’t believe. 

The way I bite my lip when I am nervous or the way I can tell you everything that’s on my mind just by the way I look at you. 

I always hope that you are that truly genuine and amazing one. 

Who will complete me. 

And make me being lucky. 

Of finding you in this outrage universe. 

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You make me happy somehow, just your existence and your presence.. I have never felt this way about anyone before, you did it successfully for me. You are the one and hopefully I will be the one for you.. Can I keep you and never let you go?