belladonna of sadness

30something who never grew up.

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there's this insufferable twink on this website who's like, radiation levels of cringe i'm talking 2010 tyler oakley type of cringe. but somehow he has 30k followers instead of me. alright.

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why do some artists on tumblr draw people/characters as fatter or uglier than they are . it's some crazy inferiority complex shit fr

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they're doing it again

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the price of a shitty childhood is death 

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every day i miss people, places, and things

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I've eaten so many mini cosmic brownies this week. i just need to bake a big brownie and cure my bottomless chocolate cravings.

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watching the amazing digital circus while having dinner consisting of starfish shaped mini chicken nuggets and the world's tiniest can of coca cola. accidental kidmaxxing.

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it's happening

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feeling reeeal rejected right now

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oh she is so me. we are one.

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my sideways grief is also up, down, diagonal and perpendicular, lol. at least i know my heart is working. i guess.

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i need some raisinets rn. and dick. but only dick from the man i love.

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going years back into my etsy favorites has been weirdly inspiring and motivating. remembering who i used to be, that girl's style, her likes, tastes, outfit choices, like damn i miss her lol. i think trying to remember and getting back to that is what's gonna heal my eating disorder, my body dysmorphia, and get me closer to my dream body daily. i'm not giving up yet.

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realizing i'm really nothing more than a glorified caretaker for a bunch of dogs and you know what...i'm completely fine with that fate because dogs are pure energetic light beings who give nothing but love and if i'm gonna spend this one life doing something it might as well be taking care of these very precious beings i love with my whole heart.

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i'll be able to get high for daddy's birthday this year. good stuff ૮ ˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶ ა

i couldn't do it last year but i did it two years in a row and it's always been a good time. i look at the moon and listen to his music and think about life, the universe and everything and i float so high up. maybe this is what life is really all about.

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i never healed from shit

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i feel like i've transferred my binge eating issues into a spending/shopping addiction. which is honestly fine with me, who cares, buying shit will only harm my wallet instead of my body. the only problem is sometimes my brain will focus the spending sometimes on a bunch of junk food/fast food and of course then we're back to the binge eating issue, and that's no bueno. ergo, the more i shop online and buy random shit that isn't food, the more i win. it's a neverending ouroboros loop of spending to keep me from spending on the wrong things. maybe one day i'll fill this hole that is never full, lol.